A Brief Spontaneous "Piggly Wiggly" Surprise...

It's been a great while since I've had good opportunity to be able to give someone one of my handwritten "Jesus Christ LOVES You!" Gospel of Jesus Christ gospel tracts.

This Monday, March 11, 2019 just around 10:15a.m. the Lord gave me opportunity to witness His Gospel to two older women: one black, one white standing outside the local Piggly Wiggly store here in Hammond, Louisiana.

I was just taking my little "excursion" in town for a bit to relax and get ready for class at 12:30p.m.

It's a good thing Piggly Wiggly is right across from Northshore Technical Community College across the highway.

Well, I was just passing by the women and didn't have to say much but "Hello, I think this would be good for you (both) to have..." and I gave both women individually their own gospel tract.

Didn't have to "engage in conversation" or nothing just a "smooth exchange". I like that when that happens lol 'cause I don't always want to "talk to people" at certain times. I'd just rather figure things out for themselves sometimes; but that wasn't this case: I just "passed on along" after meeting these women.

The older black lady was sitting on the wooden bench and the other white lady was just coming out of the store with her shopping cart jam-packed with groceries; she was smoking her cigarette.

Both woman looked "tired 'n sad" if I just went by the "outward appearance". Must've wanted some "personal time alone" to debrief and relax so they didn't really "follow-up" with asking me why I gave them gospel tracts. I just did and I thank God they accepted it before I walked away.

Anyways, I prayed as I walked away that God would save both women if they are unsaved and that God will bless and keep them safe in life in that brief encounter I met them.

May God Almighty, Lord Jesus Christ continue to work in the spirits of His saints in these Last Days as we "work the spiritual harvest fields" of unsaved human souls in this world before the coming Rapture ahead... Amen.

~ Sincerely,

Bro. Jed

A Sunday Street-Preaching SUPRISE!

Yesterday morning, January 21, 2018 I was led of the Lord to street-preach His Word walking on up Kohnke Hill Road on the way to church by after 9:30a.m.

As I was walking on up the road I met an older brother in Christ who turns out to be a minister or pastor in his dark red truck and at first he drove ahead of me passing me on the road but then "slowly stopped" and reversed to back up and as I sensed backed up to "talk to me".

He asked if I needed a ride to church to which I responded "No, not this time. I'm gonna walk this one. Thanks for offering, though." and after a brief chat we went our ways.


... Fast-forward a few minutes later as I'm holding up His Word to approaching cars on both sides of the road as I walk across the road in long "spaces" between cars driving a young black man around my peer age group stopped in his truck right quick to ask me if I needed a ride to church or something as I walked down Patti Road heading towards University Avenue here in Hammond, LA. Said "No, I'm good. I'm walking my way over" and before I could he or I could go further since he stopped shortly in the middle of the road; he picked up speed and drove on since like if he's a fellow brother in Christ, a "Christian" and has no other important matters to attend to; we should all be going to church somewhere on a Sunday.

Also, another black guy drove by me in his silver car and asked if I needed a ride and told him "Nah, I'm good. I'm walking it." to which he realized and if he was a believer I wondered if he wondered if I wondered whether he was going to church or not himself lol.

Either way, I understand: I've just now been getting back into the "routine" of going back to church after a long "period" away. The Lord's been growing and maturing me in His Will.

So, continuing on down I meet a young black lady with her daughter in a silver car as she stops to aske me if I need a ride to church.

"Judging" by her attire she looked "dressed up" like she was going to church herself; her daughter did too. I said, "No, thanks. I'm walking on down to church on University Avenue. It's not too far for me walking I've done it before. Not this time. Thanks for the offer though." to which she readily nodded "okay" and drove on her way. She was friendly and smiling ever since she saw me "street-preaching" holding a Bible up in the air.

The more I "thought about it" when I was doing it, a lot of people must have thought I was "flagging them over" to "hitchhike" to ask them for a ride or something since a few people were thoughtful and considerate enough to "slow down" and ask me what my "deal was".

I'm glad some people were this thoughtful and considerate as human-beings; and eventually a lot of people caught on with my "holding a Bible" meant more a *MESSAGE* for the viewers than me just out "hitchhiking" a ride.

So I made it on down Patti and at the end of Patti Road crossing into University Avenue met elder brother "K" from church and his wife driving on by in their red truck.

Must have "caught them by surprised" with them seeing me out "holding up a Bible" to people driving by in their vehicles.

Anyways, elder brother "K" along with his wife asked me if I "needed a ride" the rest of the way over to church to which I replied "No, not this time. Maybe for another."

It's not like I refused just to "refuse" but *BECAUSE I WAS IN THE MIDDLE OF DOING THE LORD'S WILL TO WITNESS HIS WORD AT THE MOMENT*.

Any other times I wasn't"busy with the Lord's Business" and it was favorable for me to do so, yeah I would have taken elder brother K's offer. It's never no "personal thing" when people actually offer to HELP ME. I appreciate and take those offers; I just can't stop doing something God wants me to do and "throw off" something God's Doing that I'll regret later.


It's been a long while since I've been preaching or "witnessing" in public with the Word or any other Christian signs, posters etc. but I've never "stopped soulwinning or evangelizing" just because I'm not "out there in the open with a Bible" in my hand.

True soulwinners of the brethren know that soulwinning and evangelizing for the Saviour is a 24/7 experience. It never ends until we die and even then it never ends just because "we leave" our works to reach people for Christ continues in the resources and projects and "legacies" we leave behind in our life testimonies and our brothers and sisters in Christ who continue to "carry the torch" and pass on the evangelizing of the Gospel of Jesus Christ (KJV 1 Corinthians 15:1-4) to *ALL* people be aware of and know.

The Lord Jesus Christ gives the increase of the "Harvest of Souls" but we Christians are His "husbandmen" out in the field supposed to be doing the work of "planting seeds" of the Gospel of Jesus Christ (KJV 1 Corinthians 15:1-4) of the unsaved unbelievers.

Nonetheless, yesterday I made it to church (and on time). Definitely making it a POINT to get to any place (especially GOD'S HOUSE) on time and time to spare! Amen!

... Going forward with the Holy Spirit working in us the local "church body" we grow by FAITH and not be sight.

Everybody knows the Modern Christian church has "problems"; but that's not what matters.

I sense a CHANGE or rather *SHIFT* happening in the Body of Christ.

"Stagnation" can't carry on forever in the Church Body; nor will it: it just takes a little time for BIG CHANGE to occur.

That's what's happening.

So anytime I hear people taking "bad" and "negative" about the "apostasy" in the church, I know the deal: the Church is CHANGING though.

Lord Knows it's on many hearts for there to be at least ONE BIG REVIVAL before He calls the Church back Home in the Rapture.

I'm personally in "no rush" for the Rapture to occur: my approach to these Last Days is two-fold:

1. Preparation towards to Rapture.

And

2. Preparation for the Lord tarrying a great many years before the Rapture.

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By His Grace, either way I'm gonna do my best to CONTEND FOR THE FAITH!

It's not called "spiritual warfare" for nothing y'all.

We can do *ALL THINGS THROUGH CHRIST JESUS WHO STRENGTHENS US*. Amen.

~ Bro. Jed

One Among Many

2018 and the Lord mustered the spirit in me to witness to two young women I "felt" in my spirit to share the "Good News" of Jesus with.

First one was a young black woman 'round my age or younger (probably teens, late teens, etc. doubt she older than me if anything).

I'm 23 years-old as of yet and Lord-willing may live to be 24 years-old in the coming month of February.

Young black woman I witnessed to at the local health clinic here in Hammond where all the pregnant women and truly "single mothers" congregate for care for their children and pregnancies.

I walked on up to the young black woman with her son by her side. She sitting down hunched over in her lap looking at her smartphone.

She looked sad and depressed from the "outside-looking-in"; not getting "personal".

Gave her the "Jesus Christ LOVES You" gospel tract after "introducing" my presence and reason for contacting her. She accepted as I slowly and smoothly "walked away" from the scene whispering prayer that the Lord would work in her heart at that instance with my back turned from her walking away.



The other young white woman; considerably older. Probably in her late twenties or early thirties I figure I saw earlier in the main lobby waiting area by her lonesome. I kept "eyeing" her back-and-forth as we both "looked at each other" sitting across from each other at the opposite sides of the room.

Eventually out of "what have I got to lose" courage in the Spirit in my spirt just had to walk on over to the woman whether she accepted or rejected and handed her a "Jesus Christ LOVES You" gospel tract.

In positive friendly reception to my "surprise" she accepted... Hopefully she is saved... Amen.


More to this story than I care to say though it was a "trying-time" for me to do... 'cause my mind was so "clouded in a fog" of malice and negativity I had to "see His Light" at the end of my storm...


In these instances, I understood "my role" in the circumstances as the only man around women: I *LEAD* as was appropriate in my agency... Such as I could do right... Thank the Lord. Amen.

~ Bro. Jed

Little Dog/Big Dog: A Brief Soulwinning Escapade!

On Sunday, March 12, 2017 walking on the sidewalk up on Kress Street, gave elder Hispanic man a "Jesus Christ LOVES You!" Gospel of Jesus Christ gospel tract by 4:32p.m. that evening as I was en route to 5:00p.m. bible study at Faith Memorial Baptist Church.

Later on, gave another "Jesus Christ LOVES You!" Gospel of Jesus Christ gospel tract to an older Hispanic (Mexican) woman walking with her cute, lil' ol' Chihuahua dog held as a baby in her arms haha lol as a bigger "stalker-like dog" walked by us and around her as though "stalking her" by 6:43p.m. on the right-hand sidewalk of Hoffman Street.

Yep, yep, that stray gray "stalker dog" was a trip a while back lol...

But I "led him off" from the Hispanic lady and mine's trail, "casing him out" to see if he would "sneak-attack" me from the back when I wasn't directly looking at him at all; but every so often then cocked my head to the left or right sides slightly to see if he was still following up from behind me as I "made a loop" walking from Hoffman Street then making a right walking on the sidewalk of Glenarm Street before making a final right turn on the sidewalk of Hahlo Street, walking on the front side entrance of the VECINO Denver Harbor Family Clinic building...

Turns out he was really "stalking for food" and found some "roadkill" or something on the road of Hillsboro Street to munch on then took off roaming up the street...

And afterwards I made it back in for the night... O yea... Amen.

~ Bro. Jed

...

A few days back on Friday, March 3, 2017 I gave a "Jesus Christ LOVES You!" Gospel of Jesus Christ gospel tract to a young Hispanic father walking down the sidewalk of Hillsboro Street with his young son side-by-side around 12:50p.m. that afternoon... It was a good, quick, pleasant "passing by" experience.

Didn't really have to say a "word" to the man but just handed him the gospel tract and at most muttered "Here you go..." as I walked on from them both... Amen.

But TODAY I gave a "Jesus Christ LOVES You!" Gospel of Jesus Christ gospel tract to an elder black man at Cliff Tuttle Park around 11:42a.m.

Gave young black woman smoking a cigarette sitting down at a iron table bench and talking on her phone (under the local green gazebo of the park) a "Jesus Christ LOVES You!" Gospel of Jesus Christ gospel tract around 11:48a.m. Amen...

Also, before that, yesterday on March 8, 2017 around 10:42a.m. gave a "Jesus Christ LOVES You!" Gospel of Jesus Christ gospel tract to a young Hispanic man with earrings, wearing shorts smoking a cigarette walking around circling around the parking lot of the Washateria with his head pointed downwards looking at and "browsing" on his smartphone.

Gave another "Jesus Christ LOVES You!" Gospel of Jesus Christ gospel tract to an elder black man sitting on a iron bar by the bus stop on Lyons Avenue/Rouse Street intersection of the store/shop plaza where the local Washateria is by 10:48 a.m. just a little while after witnessing to the young Hispanic man as the Spirit gave me opportunity... Amen.

*BRIGHT DAY* In the LORD!

A while back on Wednesday, November 30, 2016 I was led of the Lord to street-preach His Word (King James Version Holy Bible [KJV]) walking on up Hoffman, Hillsboro and Kress Streets...

It was a GOOD sunny day walking in the Spirit of the Lord Jesus Christ. Amen.

A lot of folks, as I upheld the Word in my hand "waved by" with their hands driving by in their vehicles as though they "get the program".

Some friendly responses despite "denials" of God.

I perceive the Lord has "revealed Himself to be True" whether many of the people He's given me the Grace to witness to accept the existence of God or not.

It was a good day back then... The library was closed and was closed the day before on Tuesday so the library could have its electrical and computer systems overhauled with updates and configurations.


That's why the main reason why I haven't been online lately; besides personal responsibilities and goals that need to be done...

Also, it's a "tedious process" but overtime, definitely thinking on how I'm gonna "overhaul" this blog and a few of my other websites and projects I hope to upload online in time.

The Lord's been doing great work in the hearts of the people here in town.

I'm "well-known" here in the sense as that black guy "preacher" who be on the streets 'round here.


My walk in the Lord has been getting much stronger now. Making it to church on time and being more prompt and attentive to the task at hand.

Many people I see in my peripheral vision who see me walking to and from church are being "convicted" in their consciences I believe to know they SHOULD BE GOING TO CHURCH instead of "doing whatever they want on Sunday" without acknowledging *GOD* as the *CENTER* of their lives; I'm talking especially for fellow believers in Christ NOT the unbelievers!

TOO MANY Christians nowadays have a very sad poor habit of "neglecting" their acknowledgment of God in their lives by NOT GOING TO CHURCH at least one day a week to fellowship amongst brethren: that needs to STOP RIGHT NOW.

It's a really bad, awful habit; I'm talking about CHRISTIANS here.

I don't expect unbelievers to "all of a sudden" go to the Church House and start worshiping and praising God like they've done it their whole lives because they don't even want to accept there is a Creator (although it's always good for newly converted believers to start going to church as soon as they trust on Jesus Christ as Saviour as soon as possible nothing stopping them).

Even so, I've had many different encounters and experiences in the Lord I have not yet shared and updated here that I would like to but GOD'S WILL BE DONE before any of that.

Love you all whoever you may be out there reading this, saint 'n sinner alike! Take care out there and remember JESUS IS LORD whether you like it or not. Amen!

~ Bro. Jed

A Preacher PREACHES!

Hello, hello... It's been a while, peoples... Yo' boy "Jeddy Boy" is back and he's got news... Well, the LORD'S NEWS. Amen!

So, today around 10:10 a.m. I was led of the Lord to street preach His Word as I'm wont to do.

I'm walking down Hoffman Street, upholding His Word in my hands and witnessing the Bible to people passing by on their cars on Hoffman Street. The Lord worked in my spirit to make sure I walked up close enough along the grassy edges and corners of the roads and streets making direct eye contact with people I noticed and sure noticed me watching them as I held up His Word.

A lot of people been waving off their hands in DENIAL not wanting to think of God or even acknowledge the possibility of their being a CREATOR of this world. But there is, people know better. They just don't want to have any accountability for their lives.

People nowadays are LAWLESS who don't want to be HELD ACCOUNTABLE for their actions: good and evil.

Today's law of the land is the "law of SELF". Law of FLESH. People only care about themselves and being an ignorant "god" of themselves. Smh, shame.

Also, I was seeing a group of young Hispanic man coming out of a house this early, crisp, fresh breezing sunny morning air that really heightened up my experience and made me in a good mood today. Thank you Lord JESUS! It's really a good day today but EVERY DAY is a GOOD DAY with the LORD! Amen!

So, I'm walking on up Hoffman Street, definitely holding up the Bible to people directing in the front driver's seat of their cars and trucks. I'm talking to them in "silent speech" and pointing the Bible to them directly as symbolic body language of saying, "God wants you to come to Him."

But a lot of men, women, young and old seem to have to "disregard" God's Ways in their lives and NOT be "accountable" to an All-Powerful Creator. Everyone wants to "be their own boss" of their lives. Everyone wants to be "their own god" it seems...

In like manner after a brief stop at the Lyons Washateria (that I normally stop for a quick break to regroup any loss mental focus or direction I may be lapsing to have a clear target focus), I walked up on Lyons Avenue, pacing, taking me time as the Lord move my feet to get up close to people driving by in their vehicles to let them know "GOD LOVES THEM and He's Calling them out for REPENTANCE".

I was out saying, "God LOVES You! It's time to REPENT! Trust on the Son of God, Lord Jesus Christ!, It's time to turn from our wicked, sinful ways and so forth. "God's Ways are the BEST Ways." It's time to get right with God and other such exhortations I was led of the Spirit to "cry out" in the public whether some people heard me or not.

I exclaimed out loud: "We need JESUS! JESUS! JESUS!" and hopefully by the Lord's God Grace, some people "caught on" to that Glorious, Wonderful, All-Powerful Name of JESUS. Amen.


Hmmm... It's interesting though, and I'll be honest folks... All this time I've been street preaching, evangelizing and "soulwinning" for the Lord, Lord only Knows how many people have been CONFRONTED WITH THE TRUTH that is JESUS CHRIST.

The Message has been presented. If people wonder "if there is a God" I'm telling them and already have that JESUS CHRIST is GOD ALMIGHTY, GOD INCARNATE. There is no need to look any further than to read the "Good Book" and discover for yourselves.

Smh... I'm not meaning to brag, but I'll go and say it: I've witnessed to so many people across this nation of the U.S. of A. it's really pitiful and sad for me to think all these people I've "shown the Way to" might still end up dying in their sins and end up in HELL. Not a good reality I like to ponder, but it's the HARSH REALITY.

I hate to "play around with fantasy": I deal with REALITY no matter how good, bad or ugly it can be at times. I'd rather live the truth or the "real" than live and believe a "lie". That's not good for anyone. That's just me personally. People are free to do as they please; to their good or bad, really. I only TRUST in GOD for my direction in life. Amen.

Also, I can't help but to think ALL the people the Lord has given me the grace to witness to in my three+ years of Christian ministry has been literally ASTOUNDING. God uses "small people" and "small things" to accomplish "BIG FEATS"!

I'm really amazed... Thing is, all these people the Lord has given opportunity to witness to has been a blessing, but the flip side of the coin is if any of these people end up dying in their sins because of their stubborn, hardheartedness of unbelief, God's most likely gonna bring up the fact at the Great White Throne Judgment, "I sent my servant Jed to show you My Word, why did you not believe Me, that I AM GOD and there is none else besides Me?"

Yeah, cuz people gonna say, first thing at God's Great White Throne Judgment, "I, I had no idea, You [God] were Real... I'm SHOCKED!" but God's not gonna led them slide with that really lame lie; I'm sure there's gonna be a lot of flashbacks people are going to wail and gnash their teeth about such as: (God): "I sent you my servant Jed. Remember that young black man you always saw wandering the streets ministering My Word: why did you not believe him?" People are gonna be dumbfounded in deathly SILENCE and horrible sincere REGRET. How AWFUL a situation to be in! Truly horrific and sad! Amen! ;(

Oh wow, all I have to say to people is this: God is REAL. He has a Son and His Name is Lord Jesus Christ. You can either simply believe in good "child-like" faith that God is real and believe on His Son, Lord Jesus Christ or continue to live in your ignorance of unbelief; but don't just say "there is no God" when there is EVIDENCE all around creation proving His Existence.

Rather, just say it like this and be HONEST for once you LIARS!: "I don't want to obey God, I want to be my own person and live life any way I want. Thanks but no thanks I like to be my own 'god'. I don't want some "Sky Daddy" telling me how to live my life. I want to do what I WANT TO DO" and leave it there. Okay, I get it. Just don't "play people" like there is no God. *YOU KNOW THERE IS A GOD*. You just don't want to OBEY HIM. Amen.

But don't you DARE "blame God" for YOUR PROBLEMS or the "problems in the world" because of sin and evil humanity. It's humanity's fault we destroy ourselves but don't pin the blame on God, okay?

Too many people are whining, complaining, crybaby LOSERS who don't want to put up the EFFORT and FOCUS it takes to WIN IN LIFE.

For starters, ALL of God's Children are WINNERS by default; but every sinner who dies without trusting on Jesus and dying in their sins are LOSERS; spiritually-speaking. Sorry to say, but it's the truth. Somebody has to tell you. And I will, so maybe you can be a WINNER like ME.

Also, also, so much has been happening this last few days since I've been offline (too much details that would take forever to put it all here online; but in patience a great deal will be shared). A lot of people by God's Grace have been getting the Gospel of Jesus Christ (KJV 1 Corinthians 15:1-4) in their hands to themselves directly. Everyone; men, women, children, young and old.

Hopefully, I'll be around to sharing out the experiences online sometime soon but no guarantee at this point right now; a whole lot of work I'm intending to do and get done by His Grace.

I'll share an example of yesterday: I was at home reading out of KJV 1 Kings 20-22 chapters wrapping that book up and saw some Hispanic women walking by on the sidewalk of my home neighborhood Hoffman Street... One's an elderly Hispanic woman walking slowly with her push walker and the other is an older Hispanic woman walking her lil' Chihuahua dog on a stroll back to their house.

At first, no matter what, wasn't going to let this opportunity be lost so I sped walk to the sides of them trailing them from people, coming up to their sides to avoiding giving off a "sense" like I'm doing some "predatory stalking" and gave the elder Hispanic woman a "Jesus Christ LOVES You" Gospel of Jesus Christ (KJV 1 Corinthians 15:1-4) gospel tract and then crossed over Hillsboro Street and just in the nick of time gave the younger Hispanic woman a "Jesus Christ LOVES You" Gospel of Jesus Christ (KJV 1 Corinthians 15:1-4) gospel tract as well.

Her lil' ol' dog Chihuahua all barking and biting, nibbling at my legs and feet; but I'm as calm and at peace about it like it's not bothering me, cuz it's not. She's all "I'm so sorry for this... Stop [Dog's name] cut that out!" she's saying, but I'm like coolly "It's alright, it's alright... It's all good" as I'm making my way back to the house so she can be acquainted to her kinfolks watching out on the front house porch.

Lol. The dog wasn't bothering me. It was kind of "cute" in a way. Felt like a strange leg massage, howbeit a "noisy" "fussy" one, lol. I like cute lil' doggies. They nice company to have at times.

Anyways, after having smoothly and timely made my way up Lyons Avenue today; I'm back here in the library to minister and work online.

God-willing, will be updating on new developments in the days and weeks ahead... Amen!

~ Sincerely,

Bro. Jed

Reconciliation With The Short "Mad Black Woman"! Amen!

Well, yeah, it happened today... Quite a pleasant surprise, truly and really.

Yeah, THANKS be to GOD I was NOT expecting this! Amen!

So around 11:10a.m. earlier this morning the short "mad, black woman" who had cursed and argued me out a while back (who was also the same woman the Lord led me to witness to previously...) actually APOLOGIZED to me and said she was "Sorry, for how I spoke to you" and all...

I accepted her apology and hope to be on "good terms" with her in the future as the Lord leads.

Yeah, I said in return "Hey, well,  Thanks. We all be going through things in life, I know how it is" and ended it there. It was GOOD that the Lord gave us that "reconciliation" because more than anything if I CAN "reconcile" to someone who's done me wrong or I them, I want to RECONCILE and build a better, good relationship from there.

I'd rather have more FRIENDS than ENEMIES *IF* I CAN HAVE THEM IN OPPORTUNITY.

Likewise, I'd rather have more ENEMIES than a lot of "fake, phony, flaky people" only "pretending to be my friend to use me anyway they can and then "stab me in the back". (But in my ideal situation I obviously want more "friends" than enemies; but like ol' Nicki Minaj once said I think, "My haters are my motivators!" Amen! I get a thrive off knowing the good works I do for the Lord infuriate my "haters" out there whoever they may be. GOD'S WILL BE DONE y'all! JESUS CHRIST LOVES YOU whether you like it or not! Amen! :) )

No, I don't do people like that, so I just either keep to those people whose company I enjoy or leave stay to myself until I can find "good company".

Now, now, it's a "good season of change" I think, that the Lord is starting to implement here and in my life.

God-willing, I'll stay in touch over time. Please keep me in your prayers as I keep you in mine.

Many thanks in Jesus' Wonderful Name. Amen!

~ Sincerely,

Bro. Jed

Street-Preaching... Trials And Tribulations!

Today, o yea, I was led of the Lord this time to street preach His Word walking up Hillsboro Street and making a right turn walking on Kress Street.

It's not always an "easy breeze" when the Lord tells me to go out and "preach His Word" to the people when I may be caught in personal situations and "obligations" with people that try my heart to see if I'll "give in to my fear" of upsetting close family and friends.

Nevertheless, I STEEL my mind in cruel hard, rigid focus, determination and an unemotional neutral gaze MAKING EYE CONTACT with angry, "mean-looking" faces lol ;D for walking out on family and friends expecting me to be around to help them with something when things are taken care of and I MUST OBEY GOD *FIRST*. Family SECOND! (Don't get me wrong, out of PURITY of heart I do right on business and personal family obligations; I'm in that group of "rare individuals" who don't cheat people out or slack their hand)

Yeah, yeah... by His Grace I'm not one to "get into trouble" on my own, fooling around, doing drugs, drinking beer, sleeping with many women as a "player" or hanging out at the nightclubs and bars or "getting high" or any of the foolish dumb stuff young people my age are so accustomed to doing and expected of... Yeah...

In a sense I'm a "polite ol' preacher boy" but not really. Not NOT AT ALL!:P

Regardless of the case, so... I'm walking up Kress Street upholding the Word (King James Version Holy Bible [KJV]) and seeing people pass by in their cars.

I'm saying "God Almighty, Lord Jesus Christ LOVES You!" or "God LOVES YOU! Trust on JESUS, the SON OF GOD!" and like manner...

A lot of times, as been doing this for quite a while now it seems more than it really is, when people see my around, they either "snap" "Okay, I'm tired of being reminded of God by you" is what I think they may be thinking like judging by their "reactions of being in my presence and I in theirs".

Also... A lot of people "sneakily" it seems (but Oh yeah, best believe I DO NOTICE! But I'm not really "offended" that much or take it to heart) like to "give me the finger" after they have driven off in their vehicles (but I notices!... Usually always unless my eyes are focused talking to somebody or looking elsewhere but I capture my surroundings greatly in my peripheral vision. Amen.)

Yeah, just yesterday on my way back to Denver Harbor having made a stop at Workforce Solutions on Wallisville Road looking for another job and handling some other business; I'm walking on past this Valero gas station off the curbside walking pass the driveway and this white man in his green truck or some color, yeah, he's all reacting like "Gosh d--mmit! Not you [me] again!" as he speds off in his truck and indirectly giving me the finger as though I'm to busy walking and tired in the hot Houston sun to notice his "actions". Well, guess what? I DO! lol ;D Don't ch'you worry though, I'm not "offended" at heart; I'm used to this kind of thing. It means I'm doing my job well in the Lord lol.

OFFEND THEM! But I'm not "personally offending" people when I'm out street-preaching.

lol People just don't want to be CONFRONTED with the TRUTH that there IS A GOD. They want to live their lives with NO ACCOUNTABILITY to a "Higher Power" other than themselves.

Everyone wants to be their own "lil' god" or "lil' goddess" of their "lil' lives" in the world without acknowledging the INSTRUCTION of the REAL GOD in our lives. Amen!

So, I've done this enough to know not to take people's negative reactions personally. They can't "hate me"; they don't know me. It's GOD they have a problem with. People are going through a lot of personal and emotional drama in their lives.

I'm one of them, but I know the LORD.

Also, the people who "hate to see me" hate to see a "walking, living, breathing living epistle of one of the servants of the Lord" as the Lord uses me to remind them of HIS EXISTENCE.

I've walked on numerous streets, roads, highways; ran on interstates to get across other sides and numerous many adventures too many to list in brief time spans; but it was GOD USING MY *WILLING* FEET to do HIS WORK.

I myself, am NOTHING and NOTHING and can't DO NOTHING without HIS GRACE and HIS ANOINTING over my life. It's GOD using me to get to peoples' hearts so He can Minister unto them.

GOD is the One pulling the strings. I am His puppet and He uses me very well according to His Purposes.

Sometimes I just don't know what God is doing or going to do when and after I'm done preaching, if people's hearts are really being CHANGED to TURN AFTER GOD. Only GOD knows the full story. I can only do my best to remain OBEDIENT to His Call because some days I DO DISOBEY GOD and DO MY OWN THING! I'm a SINNER!

It doesn't even have to be a "bad thing" I do but just me "doing what Jed wants to do" like "staying in longer to eat more food" than being ready to go to church and be on time, or going out to preach.

Any myriad of so-called "minor everyday things I do" that by all means don't appear to be "bad" if I do them but the lesson is of OBEDIENCE to the One I'm to OBEY!: GOD! Amen!

Well, I truly be praying throughout all the day long; even though I don't always pray "long prays of five, ten thirty minutes and up" but just talking to God from the heart concerning His Will in my life and the people I also want to be saved from ending up in HELL. Amen!

Life is SERIOUS. When dead, that's where you'll be: HEAVEN or HELL! I've chosen HEAVEN by GRACE through FAITH on the Son of God, LORD JESUS CHRIST!

Even though as filthy, utterly pure evil and wretched as I am, I don't want to spend an eternity in Hell BURNING FOREVER if I can be "at peace" in a "Cool Place" like Heaven?!

No, I can obey requirements. Going to Heaven is provided only by JESUS CHRIST the SON OF GOD; I want to GO THERE! Amen!

Friend, whoever's reading this, male or female, boy or girl, man or woman, I'm telling you RIGHT NOW I triple-dog DARE YOU: you are truly no more PURE EVIL and WICKED than I am and I'm telling you the TRUTH on THIS: *JESUS CHRIST is the ONLY WAY TO HEAVEN!* There is NO OTHER WAY to have ETERNAL LIFE after death. NO OTHER WAY!

You'll be wasting your precious time, money, energy and resources in VAIN trying to "live forever" here on this sin-cursed planet doomed to destruction; but the Good News is God's Son, Lord Jesus has prepared a *KINGDOM* for His saints that believe in Him!

Don't get me wrong, I'm no "saint" but a *DEVIL* saved by GRACE through FAITH on CHRIST. Amen! I'm NOT a "good person".

BEWARE of anyone who thinks he/she is "good" in the Sight of Almighty God Who is PERFECT GOODNESS!

I'm filth. I'm nothing. GOD is GOD! Amen!

Also, I could go on but it's time to close, for now, Lord-willing, 'til next time, Lord-willing...

Alright now, God LOVES you and I hope to shew forth His Good Works in new exciting ways, methods and "surprises" to the world as He allows me to work them out...

I got a lot in mind and heart to BRING FORTH but it will take time to SEE ALL THOSE GOOD FRUITS. Amen! ;)

Alright then, take care of yourself, and most importantly, REMEMBER thy Creator Who formed thee in the womb.

Oh yeah, please pray for me. I'll be praying for you. Truly thank you on that.

Love you in HIS NAME. Amen!

~ Sincerely,

Bro. Jed

"Stink Eye"! ;P

Just now a few minutes ago I had stepped outside the library from working on the computer to walk outside and confront some people standing outside the entrance of the library.

The short, older young black woman with the cap on her head pushing the baby stroller with her little one" girl (can't tell if the little girl's her daughter or her taller young black woman friend with the hair twists) gives me a "mean-looking" stink eye as I made my way back to sit down in my seat.

Why, lol, are you looking so mean at me? I haven' done you bad at anything. ;D Don't ever really know you.

She was the woman I had gave a "Jesus Christ LOVES You!" Gospel of Jesus Christ gospel tract card to a few weeks back.

Turns out I walk out the library door and I'm just walking but expecting to get into an argument with her. I was led of the Spirit to walk out; I was mildly grieved, upset, disappointed and "angry" at her unfounded "chip on her shoulder"self-projection" on me. I had done nothing to make look so "mean-looking" at me. I hate seeing those "ugly faces" in my vision.

A young black man with hair twists and a cap on his head lookin' like a real "thug" as is called got some "grills" on his teeth and I think if I recall correctly his name is "Cornbread" or "Catfish" lol. Street black folk names; but serious...

So I gave this older, young black man the handwritten by pen "Jesus Christ LOVES You!" Gospel of Jesus Christ gospel tract I had made last night along with some quick pocket change.

Could have gave him more but he made like he was in a rush to somewhere before I had chance to offer him more change. I was willing to give a bit more to go along with.

Anyways I don't really want to "get all into it" but the black woman I've met before; she's all like cursing me out calling me a "b*tch *ss n*gga" and I'm standing there off to the side of the concrete building with my back and leg against the wall engaging her coolly in her arguing.

I thank God He gives me the Grace to think calmly and rationally and not respond back in my PRIDE of anger, cursing and putting her in her place.

She's all like "B*tch *ss n*gga I'mma grown *ss woman!" (Well act like one!) and she's all condescending on me like I wouldn't "help her out" cuz she homeless after I already told him I'm going through a "homeless transitionary period" myself and not completely out the woods myself. 

I only had a dollar and some change on me and she's all like "This n*gga wouldn't give me a dollar so I could buy a hamburger" which is something I don't recall or remember if she told me last time we crossed paths.

I remember her asking me for a "dollar" but not her telling me what she was gonna use it for. Last time she asked me for 50 cents so she could get me to go with her and buy her a cigarette to which I refused.

Now, when she brought up the "dollar deal" again as I've moved on in life and she's thinking I remember all this; she did NOT make it clear she was going to buy a hamburger with it; but she asked if she could have some "bus fare" money" to which I flatly said NO.

I didn't get back a response to where she was going and what her plans were to go with the dollar I could have given her. I might need that myself. No telling what she would have actually done with the dollar and I would have needed that for PROPER PURPOSES! I might need to actually get the bus to handle some important business. I have no time to "handout" for "leisure trips".

Anyways she's all cursing me "guilt-tripping" me in vain fashion to make like I'm so "a-hole" when in actuality SHE WAS THE ONE BEING THE REAL A-HOLE! lol At least I wasn't all angry cursing her out but calmly reproving and countering her foul words back at her. I didn't call her a "b*tch" as it's called, even though she was acting like one. I could've "snapped" got angry back, curse and argue like a heathen thug n*gga but I knew better than that to do, obviously...

I had to do the proper, RIGHT THING as a *CHRISTIAN* to keep my personal life testimony in good standing. Be the proper EXAMPLE as (unworthy) earthly representative of Lord Jesus Christ.

She's all like "You don't know my heart! I've helped all kinds of homeless people!" yadayadayada and I'm like "So I have, you don't know me as well." and we went a little "back 'n forth" on that as I deflected her accusations and assumptions as she said "N*ggas be assuming stuff like you thought I was gonna use that dollar to buy a cigarette." I'm like "No, I didn't know what you were gonna do with that dollar. You didn't tell me you were going to buy a hamburger."

She just saying I'm "assuming" about her" when in actuality the script is FLIPPED and she's actually ASSUMING what SHE ASSUMED I thought about her. All she wanted was the money from me and to go; she didn't want to get to me know me and "make friends" as being a fellow homeless person; and go further and tell me the details of what she intented to do. Just to "rip off" something frpm me and "screw me over" and don't care about being clear and true. Just wanted my buck andto leave.

Anyways, lol, she could have been MORE HONEST and since she obviously had the "time to "fuss and argue" with me what she should have done was talk in "regular conversation" like good, civil people do and politely discuss her intentions. But no; she can't do like that.

I didn't and don't respect her horrible attitude she showed towards me. She knows she could have (in her words) "be a grown "*ss woman" and act like one but instead she's all in a "hissy fit" like an emotionally-immature lil' girl. Not behaving like a "grown woman". Do better than that. I'm a stranger to you, and haven't done you any bad or harm personally but good since we first met passing by in life. She doesn't know me at all, like I don't know her.

Lord Knows I would be willing to help any way I could at the time as long as I have an idea of what's going on in her situation. Hey, so she's homeless, so I am! We could have discussed some things to see how we both could have helped each other since we're all in the same boat; but she wasn't being "understanding" in that respect. That kind of thinking is beyond her at this point.

lol... Seems like her girlfriend had the smart sense to "keep quiet" and not condone or "go along" with her friend's pointless, senseless, arguing at a stranger. I'm not sold on her either; she probably has her own "ugly ways" as well; but hides it better than her friend. But at least friend her is honest in her "real self" upfront. I hate dealing with fakes. And yeah, I got my own "ugly ways" as well when I'm in sin; but I don't impose my problems and feelings on other people. If I got a problem I withdraw and keep to myself. I don't "lash out" against people who aren't messing with me and ruining other people's day when I could be doing other stuff.

I'm not going around to "hand out" money or resources to people living on the streets that have been locals around town making it all this time before I even made the scene here. They are just taking advantage of people's good kindness for WEAKNESS to use people to live off of because they are too lazy and selfish to work and take care of themselves as ADULTS!

I can tell the difference of "sincere homelessness" to the people out here just being homeless to "abused the system" and use people to live off of their whole lives for drug habits, criminal activity and general laziness of taking care of own self in life.

If you're gonna live a homeless life out of personal FREE WILL, please do your best to live off your own without selfishly begging people for money so you can live off people your whole life without taking care of yourself as you should.

There's a difference between those homeless people who've suffered great financial loss and/or been thrown out of society for mental illness and various reasons who are really trying to make it back into society with a home and a life in contrast to people who chronically live on the streets homeless as a lifestyle to live off of people like leeches because that's what they do their whole lives: LEECH!

I'm not an original "local resident" here in Denver Harbor, Houston, Texas. I'm from Seattle, Washington. I'm merely a visitor on a Mission! I'm not planning on staying here long-term. I'm making plans to leave this place in accordance to God's Timing as I have my "ducks-in-a-row".

For her, I don't know her life or her plans. I don't know if she plans or intends on living homeless on the streets for a transitionary period or long-term in her life. I don't know if she has people, family and friends 'round the area that could take her in or help her out in resources. She may be a resident in town; she hasn't told me any information 'bout what's going on with her; but every time she sees me she's asking me for "money". What about me? I'm homeless to. She never offered to help me out as well. Amen.

There's social security, welfare, food stamps and resources she could get for herself and kids if that's the case. She's a poor woman with kids she can get help. I'm a single, young black man in society who could be prejudiced as a "thug" or "lowlife" in society's eyes just because I'm homeless. She's just trying to use people.

I have family and friends here in Houston but I do NOT have the "safety net" she may have. From what I can see with all her angry cursing and "butt on her shoulders" she's probably pissed her family and/or friends off from helping her which really tells you something about her disposition. If you spoke to her in person I'm sure you'll understand.

I'm not gonna "enable someone" to leech off of me money and curse me senselessly when they got a "backup group" of homeless friends to help them out there. I don't have that safety net. I'm a newbie in town with no "trustworthy" local connections. Remember, it's the GHETTO I'm living in. Nobody trusts or does nothing for nobody without anything in return. It's just me and the Lord out here. That's the reality. I'm going solo by necessity not by my own personal choice completely. It'd be good to know I could have some friends and people who could "back me up" as I would them as I would need help; but I don't have that good luxury.

She has support. I've seen her group. She and her girlfriend with their kids and street folk hanging out under the green gazebo at the park. I don't know their lives. And who is out there gonna help a homeless, poor, broke homeless young black man? NOBODY really besides rare "exceptions" of individuals (such as myself for example. Yeah, yeah, I'm an example of this group. Like it or not, okay?).

In reality of the situation I would have her back but (I have an instinctive gut and TRUE feeling) she wouldn't have mine if I could better help her out in any way. She's out only for herself and HERS; I'm not a part of it. I get screwed over and she makes it without a care for my person. I give her the "benefit of a doubt" but like the Lord says "don't sleep on the pledge".

The man's the one to provide and protect and when it comes to the world of men and women. The men do the providing and protecting. The women do the nurturing and caretaking maintenance.

I accept help as necessary from women but don't really like to be helped by women partly because of "pride" as a man wanting to handle everything myself taking care of me and others and also because I don't like being seen as "weak" in any situation (that's something I'm having to grow and deal with in the Lord); when men are the ones to be helping out women in terms of survival and the sacrificial sex in live.

Why else is it commanded in Scripture that in the love of a husband towards his wife, he would give his life to die so that his wife (and friends; loved ones) could live just as even the Groom Lord Jesus Christ gave up His Life on the Cross to save His Newly-Wedded Bride the CHURCH!

Only MEN have this natural, instinctive and expected sacrificial life instinct and social mandate of society to sacrifice their own self-preservation for the good of the people, the tribe and society. NOT women. Like it or not. It's true and natural.

Women are to be kept alive and live to ("properly") get married and make babies to keep society reproduced in future generations.

Men build, maintain and protect the functioning of society and all the conveniences we take for granted in our daily modern lives from housing, plumbing, electricity, vehicle transportation, refrigerators, cell phones and all modern conveniences will enjoy in our daily lives.

The very fact she's all cursing, mad and "angry" at me a total stranger to her she doesn't know personally at all besides us seeing each other passing through town in public but never really "hanged out" together any time to really have time to know one another.

I absolutely HATE selfish-projection of people's sneaky motives on me! Quit trying to USE ME! NO LOVE SHOWN! Amen!

That all being said, the "silver lining" in the whole ordeal is she said "I still have that paper you gave me." and that right there made my day as far as I'm concerned with her.

Now, if I see her around passing through I'm gonna treat her well and normal as I've always done to anyone else. I won't "purposely avoid her" unless the Spirit bids me not to make an appearance around her.

Regardless, as is customary for me, I'm keeping her in prayer as well as all the people I meet in my daily life and "no hard feelings" or "grudges" or hold on.

I can tell she's just speaking out angrily from pain and frustration in her life of how hard life has been for her whether she brought some of it on herself or "life happened" only God knows her full story.

All I can do to people is love them, forgive them, pray for them and understand that the way they act towards me is more of an expression of what's going on in their hearts than any "personal hate" towards me; as I'm simply a "stranger" passing by she doesn't know.

May God Almighty, Lord Jesus Christ BE with us all in His Love, Wisdom, Forgiveness and TRUTH. Amen!

~ Sincerely,

Bro. Jed

Bright Sunny Morning Street Preaching His Word! Amen!

Today, earlier today, I was led of the Lord to go out and street preach His Word having walked up Hoffman Street and got my large-sized reddish-brown burgundy bible out to witness His Word (King James Version Holy Bible [KJV]).

As I walked on slowly and increased the pace walking up Hillsboro Street I was holding the Bible up to a few people driving by in their trucks and cars driving by.

Waved up the Word to a Hispanic man who "waved his hand" "yeah, I know. I get it" as he drove on by.

I think I witnessed to him again as he was driving by again as I walked up Hillsboro Street lol.

Yeah, I don't try to intentionally "impose" the Word on people a second time I've witnessed to the first time; but it happens as the case may be.

Before that though, I a few young Hispanic kids, a boy and a girl peering through the car windows flashed pleasant smiles of joy and "awe" as I held up the Bible for them to see.

The adults in the car driving by were in "amazement" themselves I think.

Now I've been living here in Houston, Texas of the Denver Harbor area of the Fifth Ward District for just over a year now and I suppose people are "familiar" with me being the "black street preacher guy" in town.

Not for my "glory" or for some vain purpose to "make a name for myself" but I preach the Gospel of Jesus Christ (KJV 1 Corinthians 15:1-4) for dear NECESSITY is laid upon me: like elder brother great man of God the apostle Paul "Woe is ME if I preach NOT the Gospel!"

If I just "quit" street preaching, handing out gospel tracts and witnessing the Gospel of Jesus Christ to people that I've consistently been doing now these three years and go back to living a "worldly life" as a Christian I know I'm DECEIVING MYSELF.

If I "go back" to carnal, "easy" living after the compromising world as a believer I KNOW I'm not doing what GOD WANTS ME TO DO!

I'll always have that "guilty-conscious" in the back of my mind saying "You should be ministering His Word; not "taking the easy way out" to avoid persecution and your life's calling".

Smh... so many great things have happened to me in the Ministry the Lord has laboured with me in the Spirit that I can't share here all at once; but it's amazing the things God does for His Children.

The kids that were in that car seemed to look at me with a "gleam" in their eyes as though I'm so kind of "hero" person or something lol. I'm nobody special, just a blessed unworthy servant of a GREAT GOD I'm glad to call my SAVIOUR! Amen!

It's something, all the "hand wave" I've received from people fall under one of two distinct categories I believe:

1. Carnal believers in Christ who have a "lukewarm attitude" concerning their Christian walk for Christ and don't want to go the "extra mile" to minister and witness the Gospel of Jesus Christ (KJV 1 Corinthians 15:1-4) to unsaved people.

2. Unsaved people who continually reject God and His Christ knowing a God exists but they want to live life after their own personal self will. They willingly continue to IGNORE God even after He's made it clear, GOD EXISTS and LORD JESUS CHRIST THE SON is The Way, The Truth and The Life.

Well, there's more I intended to write in this post, but I think this'll suffice 'til next time, God-willing...

Alright then, LOVE everyone in the Holy Precious Blood Name of the Lord Jesus Christ and Lord-willing you'll hear from me at some later time. Amen!

~ Sincerely,

Bro. Jed

A Walk In Town Monday Night...

Yesterday, Monday, August 22, 2016 last night around 7:00p.m. I had made my way to Calvary Christian Center Church to go to Monday Night Prayer Meeting hosted by elder brother F.

Turns out elder brother F. did not make to church to open up for prayer as he usually does...

I was late coming there anyway but the Lord worked it out in the end.

So I waited at the front of the church building front entrance for 5-10 minutes but as I waited and took pictures of the front of the church building with my cell phone's camera feature, the Spirit of the Lord spoke to me and told me "It's okay. No need to wait longer. Go walking." and I did so.

Instead of just heading on back to the house, I was led of the Lord to walk up Kress Street to the Lyons Avenue intersection where I made a right turn on the sidewalk walking on Lyons...

As I walked I caught the eyes of the people looking at me as they drove by in their vehicles.

Today, I didn't go out "street-preaching" or anything as I was not led of the Lord to do so at this time; it was a period of rest.

Seems like this area is "growing on me".

I'm mindful to be respectful, kind and considerate to the people around me and it appears I have gained and/or am gaining the respect and favour of many locals here in Denver Harbor of the Fifth Ward District here in Houston, Texas.

It's been quite a long journey that passed fast...

So, as I was walking with my large-sized brown-burgundy King James Version Holy Bible in my handheld black cotton Bible carrying-case I noticed a young Hispanic man sitting at an iron table bench reading a Spanish newspaper.

This time, the Lord spoke to me in His Spirit saying, "Go on over to him, and give him the card" and so I walked on over to the man who was leisurely reading a Spanish newspaper and unzipped my black Bible case and gave him the "Jesus Christ LOVES You!" Gospel of Jesus Christ gospel tract card I had in a Bible case inside pocket underneath my Bible around 7:20p.m. that late night evening.

He's like "¿Como esta?" and we didn't even really speak on to each other but he said "Thanks" as I left from him in that "Spirit-led encounter".

After that I continued walking down Lyons Avenue up to where I walked up to the telephone booth of the Lyons Washateria where I left a "Lord Jesus Christ Loves You!" Christian paper slip across the hang-up handle of the phone where people could see it and maybe take it away with them if they want.

The Christian websites I usually write on them are usually one, two are all three of these Christian, King James Bible-believing Christian Websites as I'm afforded appropriate space to write on the Christian paper slips:

1. www.jesus-is-savior.com

2. www.theabalonekid.com

3. www.supernaturaltruthinchrist.com

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After that brief break by the Washateria, I kept on walking down Lyons Avenue to scope out the area more since I hadn't been out anywhere all day...

As I walked on the sidewalk I saw some coin change on the ground and picked them up.

Saw two quarters, a dime, nickel and a few pennies as I walked by the sheltered bus stop area and crossed the railroad train tracks.

Local people I've met and "identified" as longtime, perhaps even "lifelong" residents of Denver Harbor smiled, had "kind eyes" or nodded their heads upwards in respect; especially the fellow black men of my peers, older peers and elders.

Also, I practiced obeisance.

People must know me as the "street-preaching" black guy holding and waving up his Bible to people driving by in their cars.

So, still walking around 'til I make the decision pre-thought out but led of the Lord to make a right turn walking down Lockwood Drive and I walked down the way on Lockwood taking in the quiet, spread-out landscape scenery of the poor neighborhoods and area but it was a good, peaceful sunset evening out even though it was pass 7:30p.m.

Sun was still out, waning and it was a beautiful pleasant evening.

As I'm walking by a lot of junk, and trash on the sidewalk and corners of the streets I'm reminded of the "poverty", "complacency" and poor "status-quo" of this neglected environment. It could be better "cleaned up" but people seem to be "okay" with the way it's always been.

A lot of old church buildings and run-down, wooden houses boarded up with wooden boards abandoned. A lot of brick apartment complexes around.

I like getting the "feel" of an area before evangelizing a place. The evangelism must FLOW with the social, cultural and natural environment of a place to be most effective to people's sensibilities.

Yea, yea. Still get a lot of "stealing" hypergamous attraction "stares" from women with boyfriends, husbands or not; but it's NOT LOVE. It's simple "infatuation" or "attraction" and nothing more. I'm not mistaken or fooled by this. I realize it for what it is and nothing more.

They're safe in their comfortable vehicle in their comfortable homes.

I'm out here on MISSION and trying to survive and thrive. My skin's in the game, their skin is not. Amen.

Those women need to "keep their eyes" on their HUSBANDS those that are married and I pity the "boyfriends" of these women who keep "eyeing me" in an "options list" while they wouldn't stop and give me a piece of bread, a ride somewhere or a roof over my head if I really needed it when I'm out here on the streets in need of help.

I'm not at all saying for people to "take care of me" or anything like that.

What I'm saying is I'm reminded of people "cheering me on from a distance" but would NOT partake in the sufferings of Christ to be His Witness of Light in this World of Darkness.

As men, I expect much considerate "compassion" from men who look out for their fellow man on the "fringes" but I can sense some men "would help out" if I really needed their help and pushed for it; but I can tell they really wouldn't help me or any other homeless person on the street out on "inconvenience" on their part unless said homeless person persistently pushes for help from onlookers.

For women, I don't expect any help at all; though the rare occasion could suffice. As they "eye" me as male "eye candy" but wouldn't go to the extent to help me out if I needed help. They're about self-preservation first and the vanity of their lives before helping out their fellow man in need when they're in power to help and it's not out of their way.

I've seen this harsh reality in personal experience.

Such may be the case as when I was about done walking down Lockwood and I saw this young black woman driving up in her car smiling to me.

I was friendly already smiling back with a calm, neutral, lax expression on my face saying "I'm cool..." before I met her up at the cross-street. We smiled at each other and she made her left turn and drove on by.

I'm not doubting her genuine kindness in the smile, but I doubt her sincerity in deeds. A lot of people "smile 'n grin" in your face in public but won't give you a piece of bread when you end up homeless on the street. The REAL TEST is who will be there to help you out when you are down in the dumpster of life living homeless on the streets and have no cushion to fall on.

THAT'S what I respect.

I'm reminded of this old saying I read from a quote since I attended Bellevue High School. It goes something like this if I'm quoting it correctly, "Flattery is like gum. Chew on it but don't swallow it."

The same goes for the "praise of men" in life. Only when you are down in the pit of despair do you know who your "true friends" are in life.

A lot of people "come-and-go" in life.

I only have One True Friend I can depend on. That Friend is LORD JESUS CHRIST! Amen!

~ Sincerely,

Bro. Jed

Street Preaching At A Crossroads...

Alright, alright, alright now... So, today, Friday, August 5, 2016 I was led of the Lord to street-preach His Word (King James Version Holy Bible [KJV]) walking down Hoffman Street and then I made a quick break over to the Lyons Washateria; where I met a homeless elder Hispanic man I believe...

This man had his shopping cart of belongings in it and I asked him if the coin change around the concrete slab pillar was his and I picked the change up and put them on top of the concrete pillar.

The man really seemed "down-on-his-luck" and we did not engage in much casual conversation "talking".

In fact, because I'm usually the laidback "quiet listener" when other people are doing the talking, this time I felt led to initiate a brief conversation with the man to see if I could help him in any way.

I HATE seeing people down in life that need help; it's never a good thing. God LOVES everyone.

I asked the elder Hispanic man if he was from around the area but he just sat down, back hunched over, mind probably in a tired trance and I did not perceive if he was "fully there" when I politely, calmly and patiently spoke to him...

I won't go all into all the details of what followed up... but I had to WALK AWAY and keep my distance from him for a moment he did something VERY INAPPROPIATE to do in public (although I perceived not too many people were "eyeing" in our direction; at least I hope so... lol. Amen).

I said, "Hey sir, please don't do that. That's not right. Please sir, don't do that out in public..." as I motioned my back to block the view of some people who could have possibly seen in our direction as I stepped into the Washateria to avoid being seen with that "scene".

LORD GOD ALMIGHTY, PLEASE FORGIVE ME FOR WHAT I'VE SEEN WITH MINE OWN EYES! O FATHER!

PLEASE FORGIVE ME of my SINS as I forgive those who have sinned against me. Amen!

So I went into the Washateria and after the "deed" was done came back out to speak to the man and share the Gospel of Jesus Christ (KJV 1 Corinthians 15:1-4) with him. I said to the man, "Do you know the Gospel of Jesus Christ?" to which I didn't really get a clear answer or response; just he and I "eyeing" each other awkwardly for a brief while. Then I suggested sharing him the Gospel, I said, "Well the Gospel of Jesus Christ is 1. Jesus Christ died on the Cross, 2. Jesus Christ was buried and 3. Jesus Christ rose from the dead back to life (on the third [3rd] day). If you believe in your heart the Gospel of Jesus Christ and you trust on Jesus Christ you are SAVED and FORGIVEN of your sins BORN AGAIN of the HOLY GHOST and inherit eternal life in Heaven."

To which he said "Yeah, yeah..." as he eyed out in the distance....

I told him I hoped he was alright and that I was concerned for him being out here on the streets. Said I don't "get into people's business" but whenever I can I am willing to do what I can to help people out in life.

I think he understood I meant him well as he's like "Yeah, yeah" and his eyes and face livened up when he saw some sincere compassion and empathy coming from another human-being.

In other people's eyes he's just an "old, raggedy, smelly, homeless bum" but in GOD'S EYES he's a precious soul He wants to LOVE and develop a relationship with in FAITH. Amen!

Well, though I was willing to go further in helping the elder Hispanic man out I NEVER "impose" myself or "force myself" on someone who does not want any help for the time-being so I told him I was heading off to the library. That I'm a Christian and a street preacher and left it there.

Lord knows He's led me to meet many unique and different people from all walks of life over the course of this journey and by His Grace, many more souls will be WON TO CHRIST! Amen!

Okay, so, I'm walking done Lyons Avenue street-preaching His Word (King James Version Holy Bible [KJV]) and I'm saying to people driving by in their vehicles are sorts of exhortations and one-liners of REPENTANCE: "God loves you!", "Trust ye on the Lord Jesus Christ!", "Jesus Christ DIED for you!" "God loves you! Trust on His Son, Lord Jesus!" "Jesus Christ is the Way... The Truth... and the Life! Trust ye on the Holy Son of God, Lord JESUS CHRIST!" "God's calling out to you!" "You know you need GOD! We need GOD! It's never too late to TRUST ON JESUS!" and so on and so forth.

It's been quite a challenge and Test of Faith from the Almighty...

Thing is, a train was blocking the passage of Lyons Avenue and a lot of people had to go on the back streets to get on East Freeway to avoid being stuck by the train and so a lot of people were coming back in my direction and the Lord granted me opportunity to preach His Word to them along with the help of a few red traffic stop lights lol.

So... on the other side of the street on Lyons I saw "Ms. R", an elder black woman and elder sister in Christ who say, has lived a life "mainly on the streets" from what I've perceived. I met here shortly after moving here in Denver Harbor and every now-and-then I have everyday "encounters" with her from time-to-time.

Like many people living on the "fringes" of society like the streets; many people have their own little "agendas", "schemes" and con artist "manipulations" at play to "prey" on unsuspecting "street-ignorant", gullible, naïve folks.

So, when I first met Ms. R, I thought she was just an ordinary homeless person out of "luck" and "down in life"; so after a brief initial chat, we talked. I gave her 20 dollars and gave her food and stuff as I had available whenever I was around and saw her.

Turns out, long story short, she's a "regular street local" who just "chooses to live on the streets" for her way of life.

I've seen her always "hustling" for a ride out of town to Humble, Katy or someplace... asking people to take her places and doing whatever it is she does from place-to-place.

Thing is, she was a MANIPULATOR using my sincere KINDNESS for WEAKNESS!

She always called by her "baby" in the sense of a kind of "motherly affection" but I always suspected it carried with it a hint of DISRESPECT or CONDESCENSCION trying to avoid the REALITY of being in the presence of a strong, young man of FAITH not "looking down on her" but rather "in respect and acknowledgment of her.

Anyways, she had a few incidents with different people, ended up in the hospital and was out with a cast on her left arm. The thing is she's always trying to "rationalize" and "PROJECT" what SHE NEEDS TO DO IN HER LIFE, ON ME! lol. Amen.

Yeah, she'll say in that "sistahly voice", "You be careful... baby"; I'm like "Yeah, you as well. (lol to myself... Smh)".

One time she said that to me again and I said, "No, NO Ms. R! YOU are the one that needs be careful. I'm not the one "ending up in the hospital around here" on the streets. YOU need to be careful. NOT me." and she "caught herself" as her facial expression was "caught by surprise"; she knew it meant right.

And also I said things over the course of time like, "You need to stop on with smoking those cigarettes and drinking that stuff (i.e. "beer")" JUST WHEN SHE JUST GOT OUT OF THE HOSPITAL now living hard on the streets again... A continual endless cycle...

After a while, I stopped "giving her money" when I knew she was just using me and kindness for granted. I was trying to help her out any way I can, but after a while I soon realized she was "used to" living on the streets like she's always been doing and not trying to "move into a place of her own with her own life"; maybe that's how she'll always do. So I distanced myself from her. I prayed unto the LORD for His Wisdom in her life and doing all I could to witness Christ in my life to her life; did all I could and now it's in the Lord's Hands. Amen.


Anyways, saw her again today this time sitting at the park bench as I was street preaching here on Lyons Avenue and she said "Hey baby!" as she usually does and I said "Hey, I'll see you in a little while!" as I continue doing the Lord's Work.

Thus after a while, I heard the voice of someone calling out to me and I kept my place still hearing the man calling out until I was sure I perceived him "calling out to me" and not someone else (I don't like being "distracted" by people trying to keep me off course from doing what the Lord has me do) and I turned my back over to look behind me and see him as I walked over to him standing at Vargas Food Mart.

It was the same Hispanic man I had met two days ago now...

We talked and parted ways...

After this, I see Ms. R walking down on the sidewalk. She turns to look behind to see if I was going to walk to her. I was on my way but the cars were driving by constantly in both directions of the street. I did not have the right time to cross over yet.

So when I finally cross over and am on my way to walking over to her... She's just "walked on" with her business like I never existed. Like a random stranger to her.

Oh yeah, she didn't have that same kind of "bubbly enthusiasm" towards me (if it was even genuine to begin with. I believe it's partial and superficial...), but when she saw me out street preaching the Word of God (King James Version Holy Bible [KJV]) and not allowing myself to get sucked into a time-consuming conversation at the expense of me leaving doing the Work of God just to "talk to her"; she knows I mean BUSINESS about the LORD and I'm not no "naïve", gullible person she can maneuver, manipulate  and USE to get money or something from for HER SELF-BENEFIT. She never really asked "How I'm doing" to the same extent I was sincerely concerned for her welfare. It was not the same. I can tell the difference. I know when people actually care about my own personal well-being as I do them.

But in the end, I gotta cut Ms. R some slack, she DID give me a nice bottle of cologne to wear a few months back... She "gave back" in her own ways to some extent. I still have it and use it for when I'm going to church. It's good stuff. A good scent.

I don't expect or want people to be "obligated" to "help me back" because I helped them out in life. I only hope that people I help would be WILLING TO HELP ME OUT IN COMPASSION the same way I "had their backs" when they needed it.

It's the FEELING of KNOWING someone WOULD HELP ME BACK because they actually WANT TO, not to "pay me back" for helping them out in "obligation". I don't care for that. I love to help people and I like to think people I help would do the same for me.

I just like the idea, someone else would "have my back" when I'm in need as I do for those I do my best to help out.

Anyways, women like her, I know I CAN'T TRUST but deep down she seems like she "means well" but just can't be trusted with the true "big stuff" to actually HELP OUT SOMEONE ELSE than JUST YOURSELF. Not really "going anywhere" with anything but just schmoozing along life USING PEOPLE IN THE PROCESS.

I don't trust people like her with my life, but for some small things I think she "could do" but that would only be if she is WANTING TO HELP ME OUT. Not really...

She was OUT ONLY FOR HERSELF first trying to "get something from me" with any sly, slick new tactic she would say...

Anyways, she realized I was not going to "enable" her to live her usual life on the streets as her "lil' boy toy" provider boy. Just "giving her money" ... to spend of beer and/or cigarettes... Not like she's using mainly to "pay bills" or some nature (to my knowledge lol). Using handouts for want SHE WANTS.

Smh... I have FAMILY and FRIENDS I've been knowing I need to pay back and help back that have helped me in the past than to just "give out money" to someone who's been living on the streets there WHOLE LIVE without any intention of actually wanting to move on in life into a house or apartment.

People like this just LIVE OFF THE KINDESS OF PEOPLE without really trying to HELP THEMSELVES OUT and I can't and must NOT "enable" that kind of wicked, errant lifestyle mindset of "getting over" people to continue. It's NOT "healthy" for the people or society.

NOT the way to go.

Please don't get me wrong; I CARE for HOMELESS PEOPLE since I actually was HOMELESS as well and I understand the hardships...


But what I'm talking about here are the ABUSERS OF THE SYSTEM: schemers, manipulators and CON ARTISTS "living off people" as a way of life and not "paying their way" to move on and live on their own; simply just users USING PEOPLE to take care of them their whole way in life; without reciprocating the same concern to those that help them.

I'm NOT talking about the unfortunate homeless people who lost their jobs, evicted out of their homes, apartments or housing and are actually trying to get their lives back on track of a normal life in society who don't "manipulate" and "use" people to make it through life.

It's okay if people CHOOSE TO BE HOMELESS as a way of life, just please don't "play me as a fool" to use me to get money and/or resources from me leaving me to "hang and dry" and then turn a "blind eye" and don't give a rat's b-hind when I'm in need being cold, naked and hungry starving out here in the wilderness and you go home to a warm, cozy home at night! Amen!

I wouldn't "cheat you" like that! Amen!

I've helped out people homeless, that if it was role-reversed in my heart-of-hearts I KNOW they would not have did me as GOOD as I DID THEM! More often that NOT I'm sure many of these people would BETRAY ME and turn a "blind eye" if it was me again in the homeless situation. Right out IGNORING my existence as "just another" typical, poor black, uneducated ghetto homeless guy living on the streets with no future in their VAIN MINDS... Amen!

Do unto others as you would have them DO UNTO YOU! It's the Way we should ALWAYS live our lives. Amen!

~ Sincerely,

Bro. Jed

The Mind Of A Street Preacher: Life, Women And Personal Circumstances...

On Wednesday, July 20, 1016, I street-preached His Word (King James Version Holy Bible [KJV]) walking down the right opposite side on Kress Street across from the library walking up to Hershe Street where the Lord told me, "You may stop at Hershe Street nearby Calvary Christian Center Church"...

After that, went home, then went out to Wednesday night bible study at church... Good day.

Now onto my "daily rant" going on inside my head:

I get a lot of looks from women, when out in the public view. Most of the time, it's angry, resentful, MEAN-LOOKING snarls and frowns. VERY unattractive in my response to their displays. I absolutely HATE those looks but I don't get all into an "emotional fuss" about it as I'm normally a calm "emotionally-detached" person when dealing with people in social situations.

I hate when women who may be attracted to me look at me with those angry "mean-looking" looks because that's just telling me they don't really "love" or "care about me" as a person to begin with; let alone an actual relationship? Please... lol... the only WOMAN a man knows that would "love him" in life (besides a *good* Christian wife) is almost ALWAYS his own (birth) mother and/or grandmother. Besides those two, there's no "real" actual love" of women towards men. But the opposite is (usually) true: men often show sincere love and concern towards women before women do.

That's why MEN are the LEADERS, PROTECTORS and PROVIDERS of society. The MEN RUN THINGS and keep civilization going. Women are the NUTURERS and CARETAKERS of society's children,the sick and the elderly. Women MAINTAIN and UPKEEP the ESTABLISHMENT of SOCIETY that is ALWAYS ESTABLISHED by the MEN, NOT the women.

Now then, since I don't return the favor to these "mean-looking" "stuck up" young women of my peer age group by "looking all mean and angry" as an emotionally immature person, my face and visage usually looks calm, chill, cool and open in a default normal, neutral facial expression. I look APPROACHABLE. I look FRIENDLY (most of the time I hope, lol. I do try to be a "friendly good person" on purpose. The only time I'm really looking angry or upset is if I'm going through some serious "personal drama" with family and/or "friends". I'm no "menace to society". :P).

I read, understand and know people's hidden emotions and feelings VERY WELL. I'm very empathetic. I suppose that's why I also have the "spiritual gift" of "DISCERNMENT OF SPIRITS"; I can tell who's about something "good" or if someone is coming out of a "bad place" of BAD MOTIVES... Oh yeah... Also...

That's a good life lesson fellow young people: if the person of the opposite sex who looks at you with angry-looking mean eyes in hopes to be with you; you already know that's NOT LOVE but IMMATURE, SELFISH, SELF-CENTERED, SELF-SERVING INFATUATION and/or ATTRACTION but it's certainly NOT LOVE to begin with lol. I've experienced this TOO FAR ENOUGH in my own personal life to be sure on this one at least.

Whatever anyone wants to call it (I know better) it's NOT "PURE" emotion out of a "good place" it's a personal AGENDA from the PROJECTOR...

If someone is "REALLY ABOUT LOVE", people will know because we live in an "unlovable world".

Look at this mess, I got it in my email from some "secret admirer" lol. More like a SECRET DEVIL trying to MESS ME UP! Amen!

Here below:

Hey... ok this is hard for me because I have never done anything like this.. but I have a huge crush on you. I have never been able to tell you for reasons which you would quickly identify as obvious if you knew who this was.

To help you guess who I am I made a few pictures and videos with your name written on my body. They're kind of risque photos so I had to make a profile at Sex Voyager [Click to open external URL] and post them there. My username in the members area is "HereWeGo2016" (It's a free website but they use debit or credit card to verify your age. I had to do it too... Annoying but whatever.)

But anyway sign up at Sex Voyager [Click to open external URL] and once you are inside search for "HereWeGo2016". I want you to guess who I am and then approach me yourself. I'm shy and this is the bravest thing I've probably ever done, but you need to do the rest.

Kisses,
Secret Admirer?
haha. Bye

Yeah, all this spam crap mess... I don't buy it. If you're a young man reading this, and get this kind of messages in your personal email, block, report and DELETE this trash where it belongs: TRASH!

Also, I also hate when women (who are trying to "flirt with me" since I'm not flirting with them or even caring to anyway) flirt with me when THEY ARE ALREADY WITH THEIR BOYFRIED AND/OR HUSBAND to begin with... I don't entertain them. It's not for my own good. Very WICKED, EVIL, selfish, discourteous tricky ground THEY are MAKING ME HAVE TO MANUEVER (they are already telling me they don't care for me as a HUMAN-BEING to begin with anyway in the same way I would care towards someone; but just trying to USE ME for THEIR BENEFIT!) so I don't unintentionally incidentally get into a misunderstanding potential angry altercation with their boyfriend and/or husband since I have nothing to do with these people! Just a random stranger in the crowd passing through life, but then these sleazy, lowdown women try to snare me like a tare into their "messes". Really HATE that drama. That already checks the women off my list if I was to even want to consider them as a "possible relationship" lol. To get into a fight with some random guy who's already with this woman and he's thinking I'm trying to steal his girl and I don't even want to be with his woman but she's COMING ON TO ME and MAKING ME LOOK BAD when I'm IN THE RIGHT and SHE IS IN THE WRONG since I'm not flirting and trying to be with women in relationships, ESPECIALLY MARRIED WOMEN! Really HATE the social flack and crap I have to deal with on a daily people because of other people's IGNORANCE and STUPIDITY!

(Married) men reading this: I'm NOT after anyone's woman; let alone a MARRIED WOMAN gents and people. I'm not after your woman, I'm on your side. If I was to go for some woman that piqued my interest she would already be EXCLUSIVELY single as well to begin with. And I hate dealing with liars.

Don't even look at me you single mothers with kids out of wedlock; I'm not the father of your children; so please do NOT "push your mess" unto me.

Rather, be MARRIED and try to make a life with the man YOU CHOSE TO SLEEP WITH and quit bringing everyone else into YOUR OWN MESS because of YOUR OWN BAD CHOICES.

I love you in Christ as I LOVE everyone as all Christians should. And ALL PEOPLE should ideally LOVE EVERYONE as well; but I'm not going to "cut you some slack" for you pushing on your responsibilities to everyone else but YOURSELF.

I have my own responsibilities.

As an ADULT you DEAL WITH YOUR OWN RESPONSIBILITIES as well. If the father of your children is still alive and living he has a responsibility; a DUTY to take care of his children and the mother of his children. So if he means to do well and you're "blocking his entrance" that's then ON YOU and NOT HIM. If the father of your (bastard) children is a "dead-beat dad" you give him over to the LORD in PRAYER and let GOD rebuke and deal with him; but other than the father of your children being in the wrong if the father of your children is actually meaning to do the "right thing" and your willingly and wrongfully "fight against" him; YOU ARE THE ONE AT FAULT. Not him.

Any good, decent man wants to take care of his own flesh 'n blood children and his family.

Really hate people's "false pretenses"; makes me more MAD and ANGRY than anything else; when society makes me LOOK LIKE THE BAD, IGNORANT YOUNG THUG N*GGA when it's anything else. If ONLY they were in MY SHOES they would know I'm speaking TRUTH! Amen!

Anyways, there was this one time in the library here in Denver Harbor this young Hispanic couple, perhaps boyfriend and girlfriend show up as I'm working ministering online and getting a few tasks done and so this young Hispanic woman is over there "exchanging me glances" like she's trying to flirt with me, but she realizes I'm not "playing into her little 'flirty' game".

I won't "talk down" on the young man (since I don't do people like that, and he's older than me I think) she was with but from her unashamed, blatant "flirting" in my direction I could tell right away either she was dissatisfied with this man and was willing to "trade up" or pass on" to someone else if he found a "better deal" that would reciprocate her signals. I don't play nobody else's b.s but MINE and CHRIST'S. Amen!

So, so, this woman, after a brief, angsty realization I wasn't gonna "play along" or act like I wanted to make a "move to her" because I didn't. Besides, I've seen better... I know quality when I see it. I don't want this mess. I don't want you.

Anyways, this woman and her boyfriend (looking more like that's the case), go on and use the copier machine as I sense and keep tabs on them in my peripheral vision as I work on the computer and then eventually the young woman "splits" apart from the young Hispanic man and walks away behind me on the opposite side of the table I'm sitting at while the seemingly oblivious young Hispanic man walks on the other side of the table where I'm facing "splitting them apart" before they "come back together".

Really? Hmmm... Really was the woman's discontent and unashamed, wicked behaviour to try to "get on with someone else" while already in a relationship... Wow... Really feel sorry for the MAN NOT the woman in this case, 'cause it was so blatantly obvious to me what she was doing. Hopefully the older young man, if he realizes and it's not a "married couple" move on since it's quite obvious to me the woman she was with was losing attraction towards him... Really HATE that feeling but it's there for those who don't ignore the reality.



Such was the case with Joseph and Potiphar's wife trying to "get with him". Get this: a MARRIED WOMAN after a slave man lol. What she want with a "slave"? Not like she gonna "free him" or help him out or anything. Rather, WHAT CAN I GET FROM HIM?

Potiphar's wife didn't know anything about the young man Joseph other than he was her husband's servant. Hmmm... Joseph must have been an attractive or at least a decent, good-looking guy enough for Potiphar's wife to even consider a potential "fling" with. Even all of Joseph's brethren were all jealous and/or envious against him, although Joseph unwisely and untactfully spoke too presumptuously against his older brothers to be on "good terms" with them from their perspective; since Joseph had those dreams from God that he would be "blessed" even though he did not fully and clearly understand his calling from God. Even his father Jacob (Israel) had to tell Joseph to "tone down his antics" amongst his brethren...

Anyways, my point is, Potiphar's wife never really "loved" or "cared about" Joseph as a "person" to begin with. It was ALL ABOUT HER. Joseph was just pure "eye candy" in her eyes (like how many woefully deceived sex-obsessed guys sexually-objectify and demean physically attractive young women on a [vagina] pedestal.). Just to be used as an opportunity of pleasure and a power display" and then to be "discarded" if her husband Potiphar had found out Joseph and her had an affair. lol It's not like she would have ever even tried to "defend Joseph" in that situation (given she was the pursuer); she would of did the wise decision for her own good to FRAME IT ALL ON JOSEPH to save her own skin. I know this because if I was her, and I didn't fear, know or respect God like I do, it would be the logical, smartest, best choice I could make to save my own skin and safeguard my husband's trust. Why not?

If Joseph had ignorantly and stupidly played along with Potiphar's wifey's little game, he would have been the dumb fool of it all with his head cut of (or hung; give or take; however they were gonna kill him); NOT Potiphar's wife; she knew what she was playing (as a serpent...).

Good thing Joseph was a smart and honourable man of God who did the RIGHT THING in NOT SLEEPING with another man's wife. Good deal. He OBEYED GOD. He AVOIDED a worse fate (e.g. "death") than being thrown down into a dungeon prison for a season.

I'm like my elder brother Joseph of time's past in many ways: we do the RIGHT THING. Amen.

Anyways, I also notice this other "look" I get from women; in particular the OLDER WOMEN old enough to be my own mother and/or grandmother(s) lol...

It's like this folks: I could be somewhere like in a grocery store or place like the Dollar Tree or Fiesta and walking around to pick up a few items when all of a sudden I might give courteous eye contact with the people I may notice around me (that way they don't feel like I'm "ignoring their existence" like they don't matter) and so, sometimes an older black lady, around age enough to be my mother and/or grandmother appears and I look at her and she keeps prolonged eye contact as "longing"...

The eye contact of these elder (black) women (married or unmarried I do not know) is kind of like a "longing" "regretful stare" of past regret. It's kind of reminiscent *LOOK* of when I'm walking around town and I see a "stray dog" abandoned and rejected by it's owner *LONGING* and looking at you when you pass by in hopes that you will "take in" them, because they have "messed up" with their owner and have been abandoned and forsaken by everyone. I know and sense that feeling...

Like they looking at me as a young, handsome black man they could have married in their time back in their youthful days, *LONGING* for me to acknowledge such... Unless these elder women are looking at me as someone who "reminds them of their son" or something like that, I'm pretty much absolutely positive they look at me as though they "wanted to be with me" or someone like me in their youthful days. Kind of like they may have "screwed up" in their youthful days running around with wild, cool "bad boy" men of their age in the "excitement of young life" instead of seriously thinking and considering settling down with a good, smart young man to the contrary of  their own girlfriend peers who are perhaps still married all those years since and/or had unfortunate destroyed marriages and divorces...

All the "dark ugly truths" aside, I don't like it, but I notice it, when it's PROJECTED ON ME. I'm not usually the one being the "projector" as I stand "neutral" in dealing with people socially. Regardless, as unsavory as the true, dark hidden intentions and motives of people are, male and female, I've learned not to "entertain the notions" when they appear.

That's something we all gotta do, to "get along" with people throughout life. Amen.

Well, all that aside, at the end of the day and throughout the day I be PRAYING FOR THE PEOPLE I see going through all kinds of personal problems, challenges and/or hardships.

Just like the time I helped an elder white woman and sister in Christ I'll call elder sister "M(r)s. J." in Mount Vernon, Washington who fell out on the ground by a Valero gas station and people drove by in their cars and did not come to her aid. I was homeless at the time and as the Lord urged it on my heart to go help her, a young white woman and someone else I think pulled up in their trucks to see after her well-being, even though they king of "checked up" or her no one else but ME at that time, actually helped take her up to her house, after having put the beer cans she bought back into her brown paper bag to take home with her.

Long story short, she has an "alcohol problem" and while I won't go into all her personal business (since I really don't like to tell people's business) she had some heart problems mostly likely because of the drinking and she bought the drinks she should not have been drinking...

So, I take her up to her house, guiding her along as we both walk together and helped her clean up her house a bit and all that.

Yada, yada, we talk about our lives and such and then she all's like that and I'm getting ready to go and the neighbors' are not so "welcoming" I give her a friendly, loving smooch on the check as she was about to steal some "mouth-to-mouth" sugar from me lol.

Yeah, wow, many stories, God-willing can't tell them all here but "stuff has happened". Amen!

What's really sad was how deplorable society had become that someone could fall out on the sidewalk or middle of the street and people would coldly and callously move on from helping someone in need... Really is a LOW POINT in how wicked, evil and INDIFFERENT western society has become.

What I did was nothing to "glory about"; it was simply doing the RIGHT THING because it's THE RIGHT THING TO DO. Everyone should have been willing to do the right thing by default; but not many did...

I thank God He KNOWS MY HEART that deep down, through own personal failures, flaws and shortcoming HE KNOWS if I put my "pride aside" and my "wrath" anger and "resentment" away (justified or not), GOD KNOWS I'M WILLING TO DO THE RIGHT THING regardless of what the people around me choose to do. GLORY be to GOD. Amen.

Yeah, I got my own problems, challenges and/or hardships to deal with so I don't really feel like being bothered with someone else's mess.

May the Lord Jesus Christ grant us all the Love and Wisdom to DO WHAT'S RIGHT regardless of our FLESHLY, VAIN IMPULSES. Amen!

~ Sincerely,

Bro. Jed