A Brief Spontaneous "Piggly Wiggly" Surprise...

It's been a great while since I've had good opportunity to be able to give someone one of my handwritten "Jesus Christ LOVES You!" Gospel of Jesus Christ gospel tracts.

This Monday, March 11, 2019 just around 10:15a.m. the Lord gave me opportunity to witness His Gospel to two older women: one black, one white standing outside the local Piggly Wiggly store here in Hammond, Louisiana.

I was just taking my little "excursion" in town for a bit to relax and get ready for class at 12:30p.m.

It's a good thing Piggly Wiggly is right across from Northshore Technical Community College across the highway.

Well, I was just passing by the women and didn't have to say much but "Hello, I think this would be good for you (both) to have..." and I gave both women individually their own gospel tract.

Didn't have to "engage in conversation" or nothing just a "smooth exchange". I like that when that happens lol 'cause I don't always want to "talk to people" at certain times. I'd just rather figure things out for themselves sometimes; but that wasn't this case: I just "passed on along" after meeting these women.

The older black lady was sitting on the wooden bench and the other white lady was just coming out of the store with her shopping cart jam-packed with groceries; she was smoking her cigarette.

Both woman looked "tired 'n sad" if I just went by the "outward appearance". Must've wanted some "personal time alone" to debrief and relax so they didn't really "follow-up" with asking me why I gave them gospel tracts. I just did and I thank God they accepted it before I walked away.

Anyways, I prayed as I walked away that God would save both women if they are unsaved and that God will bless and keep them safe in life in that brief encounter I met them.

May God Almighty, Lord Jesus Christ continue to work in the spirits of His saints in these Last Days as we "work the spiritual harvest fields" of unsaved human souls in this world before the coming Rapture ahead... Amen.

~ Sincerely,

Bro. Jed

A WEAK Wretched Worm As I...

Today I was kinda feeling pretty crappy today actually...

Lol just came out of a fast a while ago and just as quickly went into a little "backsliding" in emotional "temper tantrums" of my personal life situation.

Anyways it's just MY FAULT in the end and no "blame game" to play.

I basically just stayed up too late at night into the early morning and set my alarm clock to wake me up by six in the morning to get ready for church today.

BY GOD'S GOOD GRACE actually made it to church today but it was a "battle" of a sluggish, grumpy person fighting against his flesh...

Flash-forward on the way to church with my family we stopped at the local Quick Way gas station and I saw a man sitting at a corner with his stuff; he looked homeless or some guy "going through some stuff"; perhaps on drugs and/or related issues.

I could relate to the man.

So I stepped out the car and gave the man a "Jesus Christ LOVES You!" Gospel of Jesus Christ (KJV 1 Corinthians 15:1-4) gospel tract as he sat on the ground and people passed by it seemed without even at least "acknowledging" the man as a human-being regardless if they "looked down" on him as a "hobo" in their minds...

Even if I don't help homeless people on the spot because I can't or it's not the "right moment or situation" I at least do my best to ACKNOWLEGE their existence as human-beings with basic human dignity and respect and not to "look down" on them because they're homeless. Like trash not even human... It's wrong for people to just turn a "blind eye" to people on the streets whether they're like that on purpose or not: just ACKNOWLEDGE and treat people with simple dignity and respect because it's the right thing to do and it makes your life easier and more meaningful in the end.

I just came up and said it: "Even though I don't look like it (I'm all "dressed up" for church) I'm a MESS too man..." is all I had to say with him and we "understood" each other and he intently took the gospel tract I handed him with EARNEST interest. He saw I acknowledged and respected him by saying "I'm no better than him" as I am a "mess" myself with many problems and issues God is dealing with me on working on. A work in progress I am.

Anyways after that little encounter I just got back in the car and whole family and I went off to Greenfield Missionary Baptist Church for service. Amen.

~ Sincerely,

Bro. Jed

An Evening of GRACE In the Anxiousness of Life...

Yesterday, after a while ministering online among my main three social media platforms of Google Plus+, Facebook and Twitter among I was hanging out at the local Cliff Tuttle Park of the Denver Harbor area and sitting on a green iron bench of the green iron benches under the green gazebo eating my lunch of a PB&J sandwich.

Saw and met and elder Hispanic man coming from the Vargas Food Mart across Lyons Avenue (probably went and had himself a drink or something).

So... I play it cool anticipating giving him the "Heart For The City Home" Christian Spanish gospel tract I got from two elder Hispanic brothers in Christ associated with the local "Heart For The City Home" local Christian Spanish church walking on the sidewalk of East Freeway coming all the way from the Houston Food Bank building and warehouse (long story but that was when I went to the Houston Food Bank for a potential job interview and position there... lol).

So... when the man comes to sit down at a green iron table bench spot nearby where I'm siting I finished up writing down seven Christian, King James Bible-believing Christian Websites on the "Heart For The City Home" Spanish gospel tract I also think he would benefit knowing about as extra resources.

At first I "second-thought" and "second-guessed" myself for a moment thinking I was just "acting in the flesh" trying to just "hand someone a gospel tract" regardless of whether they would receive it or not; I thank God I just "ran with it" and approached the man smoothly and casually handing him off the "Heart For The City Home" gospel tract and by HIS GRACE the elder Hispanic man received it! Amen!

It was around 3:40-3:43p.m. when I gave this elder Hispanic man the gospel tract.

He's all like nodding his head "Yes, thanks man..." as I go back to my table to put my things up in my black JanSport backpack to "move  on" and "leave him in peace" so I could let the Spirit work on him and get him thinking more of *GOD* and the *CREATOR* in his life and also in case so the man wouldn't "hand me back" the gospel tract I gave him lol.

Gotta keep going FORWARD and NOT BACKWARD! Amen!

Had to "jump ship" there so perhaps the elder Hispanic man will begin thinking of life on a "higher level of consciousness acknowledging God's Presence in his life and God's Desire for him to live by His Will.

That's a lesson I'm literally learning DAILY, EVERY DAY as I walk with the Spirit of my God.

Yesterday, seemed like a restless, anxious and "urgent" day but it was a good day overall.

Yet EVERY DAY is a GOOD DAY because you know why?: *JESUS* is *LORD*! Amen!

~ Bro. Jed

"Stink Eye"! ;P

Just now a few minutes ago I had stepped outside the library from working on the computer to walk outside and confront some people standing outside the entrance of the library.

The short, older young black woman with the cap on her head pushing the baby stroller with her little one" girl (can't tell if the little girl's her daughter or her taller young black woman friend with the hair twists) gives me a "mean-looking" stink eye as I made my way back to sit down in my seat.

Why, lol, are you looking so mean at me? I haven' done you bad at anything. ;D Don't ever really know you.

She was the woman I had gave a "Jesus Christ LOVES You!" Gospel of Jesus Christ gospel tract card to a few weeks back.

Turns out I walk out the library door and I'm just walking but expecting to get into an argument with her. I was led of the Spirit to walk out; I was mildly grieved, upset, disappointed and "angry" at her unfounded "chip on her shoulder"self-projection" on me. I had done nothing to make look so "mean-looking" at me. I hate seeing those "ugly faces" in my vision.

A young black man with hair twists and a cap on his head lookin' like a real "thug" as is called got some "grills" on his teeth and I think if I recall correctly his name is "Cornbread" or "Catfish" lol. Street black folk names; but serious...

So I gave this older, young black man the handwritten by pen "Jesus Christ LOVES You!" Gospel of Jesus Christ gospel tract I had made last night along with some quick pocket change.

Could have gave him more but he made like he was in a rush to somewhere before I had chance to offer him more change. I was willing to give a bit more to go along with.

Anyways I don't really want to "get all into it" but the black woman I've met before; she's all like cursing me out calling me a "b*tch *ss n*gga" and I'm standing there off to the side of the concrete building with my back and leg against the wall engaging her coolly in her arguing.

I thank God He gives me the Grace to think calmly and rationally and not respond back in my PRIDE of anger, cursing and putting her in her place.

She's all like "B*tch *ss n*gga I'mma grown *ss woman!" (Well act like one!) and she's all condescending on me like I wouldn't "help her out" cuz she homeless after I already told him I'm going through a "homeless transitionary period" myself and not completely out the woods myself. 

I only had a dollar and some change on me and she's all like "This n*gga wouldn't give me a dollar so I could buy a hamburger" which is something I don't recall or remember if she told me last time we crossed paths.

I remember her asking me for a "dollar" but not her telling me what she was gonna use it for. Last time she asked me for 50 cents so she could get me to go with her and buy her a cigarette to which I refused.

Now, when she brought up the "dollar deal" again as I've moved on in life and she's thinking I remember all this; she did NOT make it clear she was going to buy a hamburger with it; but she asked if she could have some "bus fare" money" to which I flatly said NO.

I didn't get back a response to where she was going and what her plans were to go with the dollar I could have given her. I might need that myself. No telling what she would have actually done with the dollar and I would have needed that for PROPER PURPOSES! I might need to actually get the bus to handle some important business. I have no time to "handout" for "leisure trips".

Anyways she's all cursing me "guilt-tripping" me in vain fashion to make like I'm so "a-hole" when in actuality SHE WAS THE ONE BEING THE REAL A-HOLE! lol At least I wasn't all angry cursing her out but calmly reproving and countering her foul words back at her. I didn't call her a "b*tch" as it's called, even though she was acting like one. I could've "snapped" got angry back, curse and argue like a heathen thug n*gga but I knew better than that to do, obviously...

I had to do the proper, RIGHT THING as a *CHRISTIAN* to keep my personal life testimony in good standing. Be the proper EXAMPLE as (unworthy) earthly representative of Lord Jesus Christ.

She's all like "You don't know my heart! I've helped all kinds of homeless people!" yadayadayada and I'm like "So I have, you don't know me as well." and we went a little "back 'n forth" on that as I deflected her accusations and assumptions as she said "N*ggas be assuming stuff like you thought I was gonna use that dollar to buy a cigarette." I'm like "No, I didn't know what you were gonna do with that dollar. You didn't tell me you were going to buy a hamburger."

She just saying I'm "assuming" about her" when in actuality the script is FLIPPED and she's actually ASSUMING what SHE ASSUMED I thought about her. All she wanted was the money from me and to go; she didn't want to get to me know me and "make friends" as being a fellow homeless person; and go further and tell me the details of what she intented to do. Just to "rip off" something frpm me and "screw me over" and don't care about being clear and true. Just wanted my buck andto leave.

Anyways, lol, she could have been MORE HONEST and since she obviously had the "time to "fuss and argue" with me what she should have done was talk in "regular conversation" like good, civil people do and politely discuss her intentions. But no; she can't do like that.

I didn't and don't respect her horrible attitude she showed towards me. She knows she could have (in her words) "be a grown "*ss woman" and act like one but instead she's all in a "hissy fit" like an emotionally-immature lil' girl. Not behaving like a "grown woman". Do better than that. I'm a stranger to you, and haven't done you any bad or harm personally but good since we first met passing by in life. She doesn't know me at all, like I don't know her.

Lord Knows I would be willing to help any way I could at the time as long as I have an idea of what's going on in her situation. Hey, so she's homeless, so I am! We could have discussed some things to see how we both could have helped each other since we're all in the same boat; but she wasn't being "understanding" in that respect. That kind of thinking is beyond her at this point.

lol... Seems like her girlfriend had the smart sense to "keep quiet" and not condone or "go along" with her friend's pointless, senseless, arguing at a stranger. I'm not sold on her either; she probably has her own "ugly ways" as well; but hides it better than her friend. But at least friend her is honest in her "real self" upfront. I hate dealing with fakes. And yeah, I got my own "ugly ways" as well when I'm in sin; but I don't impose my problems and feelings on other people. If I got a problem I withdraw and keep to myself. I don't "lash out" against people who aren't messing with me and ruining other people's day when I could be doing other stuff.

I'm not going around to "hand out" money or resources to people living on the streets that have been locals around town making it all this time before I even made the scene here. They are just taking advantage of people's good kindness for WEAKNESS to use people to live off of because they are too lazy and selfish to work and take care of themselves as ADULTS!

I can tell the difference of "sincere homelessness" to the people out here just being homeless to "abused the system" and use people to live off of their whole lives for drug habits, criminal activity and general laziness of taking care of own self in life.

If you're gonna live a homeless life out of personal FREE WILL, please do your best to live off your own without selfishly begging people for money so you can live off people your whole life without taking care of yourself as you should.

There's a difference between those homeless people who've suffered great financial loss and/or been thrown out of society for mental illness and various reasons who are really trying to make it back into society with a home and a life in contrast to people who chronically live on the streets homeless as a lifestyle to live off of people like leeches because that's what they do their whole lives: LEECH!

I'm not an original "local resident" here in Denver Harbor, Houston, Texas. I'm from Seattle, Washington. I'm merely a visitor on a Mission! I'm not planning on staying here long-term. I'm making plans to leave this place in accordance to God's Timing as I have my "ducks-in-a-row".

For her, I don't know her life or her plans. I don't know if she plans or intends on living homeless on the streets for a transitionary period or long-term in her life. I don't know if she has people, family and friends 'round the area that could take her in or help her out in resources. She may be a resident in town; she hasn't told me any information 'bout what's going on with her; but every time she sees me she's asking me for "money". What about me? I'm homeless to. She never offered to help me out as well. Amen.

There's social security, welfare, food stamps and resources she could get for herself and kids if that's the case. She's a poor woman with kids she can get help. I'm a single, young black man in society who could be prejudiced as a "thug" or "lowlife" in society's eyes just because I'm homeless. She's just trying to use people.

I have family and friends here in Houston but I do NOT have the "safety net" she may have. From what I can see with all her angry cursing and "butt on her shoulders" she's probably pissed her family and/or friends off from helping her which really tells you something about her disposition. If you spoke to her in person I'm sure you'll understand.

I'm not gonna "enable someone" to leech off of me money and curse me senselessly when they got a "backup group" of homeless friends to help them out there. I don't have that safety net. I'm a newbie in town with no "trustworthy" local connections. Remember, it's the GHETTO I'm living in. Nobody trusts or does nothing for nobody without anything in return. It's just me and the Lord out here. That's the reality. I'm going solo by necessity not by my own personal choice completely. It'd be good to know I could have some friends and people who could "back me up" as I would them as I would need help; but I don't have that good luxury.

She has support. I've seen her group. She and her girlfriend with their kids and street folk hanging out under the green gazebo at the park. I don't know their lives. And who is out there gonna help a homeless, poor, broke homeless young black man? NOBODY really besides rare "exceptions" of individuals (such as myself for example. Yeah, yeah, I'm an example of this group. Like it or not, okay?).

In reality of the situation I would have her back but (I have an instinctive gut and TRUE feeling) she wouldn't have mine if I could better help her out in any way. She's out only for herself and HERS; I'm not a part of it. I get screwed over and she makes it without a care for my person. I give her the "benefit of a doubt" but like the Lord says "don't sleep on the pledge".

The man's the one to provide and protect and when it comes to the world of men and women. The men do the providing and protecting. The women do the nurturing and caretaking maintenance.

I accept help as necessary from women but don't really like to be helped by women partly because of "pride" as a man wanting to handle everything myself taking care of me and others and also because I don't like being seen as "weak" in any situation (that's something I'm having to grow and deal with in the Lord); when men are the ones to be helping out women in terms of survival and the sacrificial sex in live.

Why else is it commanded in Scripture that in the love of a husband towards his wife, he would give his life to die so that his wife (and friends; loved ones) could live just as even the Groom Lord Jesus Christ gave up His Life on the Cross to save His Newly-Wedded Bride the CHURCH!

Only MEN have this natural, instinctive and expected sacrificial life instinct and social mandate of society to sacrifice their own self-preservation for the good of the people, the tribe and society. NOT women. Like it or not. It's true and natural.

Women are to be kept alive and live to ("properly") get married and make babies to keep society reproduced in future generations.

Men build, maintain and protect the functioning of society and all the conveniences we take for granted in our daily modern lives from housing, plumbing, electricity, vehicle transportation, refrigerators, cell phones and all modern conveniences will enjoy in our daily lives.

The very fact she's all cursing, mad and "angry" at me a total stranger to her she doesn't know personally at all besides us seeing each other passing through town in public but never really "hanged out" together any time to really have time to know one another.

I absolutely HATE selfish-projection of people's sneaky motives on me! Quit trying to USE ME! NO LOVE SHOWN! Amen!

That all being said, the "silver lining" in the whole ordeal is she said "I still have that paper you gave me." and that right there made my day as far as I'm concerned with her.

Now, if I see her around passing through I'm gonna treat her well and normal as I've always done to anyone else. I won't "purposely avoid her" unless the Spirit bids me not to make an appearance around her.

Regardless, as is customary for me, I'm keeping her in prayer as well as all the people I meet in my daily life and "no hard feelings" or "grudges" or hold on.

I can tell she's just speaking out angrily from pain and frustration in her life of how hard life has been for her whether she brought some of it on herself or "life happened" only God knows her full story.

All I can do to people is love them, forgive them, pray for them and understand that the way they act towards me is more of an expression of what's going on in their hearts than any "personal hate" towards me; as I'm simply a "stranger" passing by she doesn't know.

May God Almighty, Lord Jesus Christ BE with us all in His Love, Wisdom, Forgiveness and TRUTH. Amen!

~ Sincerely,

Bro. Jed