A Quiet Casual Day In Christ

Today I had a lil' "street preaching to do led of the Lord by His Spirit in which I started walking with the Bible at 9:08a.m. ending at 9:25a.m. when I got to the church house for worship and fellowship earlier this morning.

It was a good quick day though the few people I got to witness to today didn't want any "remembrance of God" being mentioned at all. That said, I did what I believe wanted me to do as I witnessed the Word of God walking on up Kohnke Hill Road on my way to College Town Missionary Baptist Church here in Hammond, LA.

I witnessed to a few people driving by in their cars and trucks:

A black woman and her kids driving by in her red truck who I met on the way living from my neighborhood (she lives in the same community as I do).

Another young black woman driving by me in her silver car...

Also as I got to the end of the road on Kohnke Hill before I walked down the church driveway with my white handbag of two packs of chocolate chip cookies to bring for the fellowship dinner after church service.

Along with my burgundy-brownish Bible in my hand I witnessed to a white man holding up the Bible in his view passing by on the left side of the church driveway with his black sunglasses on through his driver's side silver car window as he "signaled with his had "I know... I got it..." as though to "gesture" he didn't want to be bothered but "got my message" and went on about his business.

Anyways, it was a nice, quiet, peaceful day though many people were "in their own little world" shut in and didn't want to be bothered with God, church or some "Christian person" holding a Bible in the air in public to be "reminded" of the "possibility" of a GOD in their lives; even though it is a REALITY.

~ Sincerely,

Bro. Jed

Mute Day Street Preaching

Today at 9:28a.m. I felt led of the Lord to go do some "witnessing" of the Word to people driving by or passing by on Kohnke Hill Road here in Hammond, LA on my way to church this morning.

It was a quiet, "desolate-looking day" with many people still at home and cars in the garages or parked outside.

I kept on walking on my way and held up the Bible slowly and securely to the drivers I met on the road as I walked on the side of the road but I got mostly a "cold reception" from people either wanting to ignore seeing me and being reminded about "God" ultimately.

People have really turned their backs on God and don't want to even "think of His Existence". It's frightening...

Also, "church problems aside" it's still really NO EXCUSE for many Christians to refuse to come to church on Sunday mornings.

That's really becoming the main "crux" of the  problem in my opinion these days.

It's expected for "unbelievers" to not know God and go to church but it's really a SERIOUS PROBLEM when many professed believers know the Lord and still refuse to go to church on Sundays.

THAT NEEDS TO CHANGE SOONER THAN LATER... 

Anyways I kept on witnessing holding the Word up to a few people I met at the intersection of Kohnke Hill Road-Patti Road still walking on up Kohnke Hill Road to church. 

A white lady in her truck saw me, smiled and waved her hand as she drove her way down the connect road of Greco Road continuing from Patti Road. 

I only hope she like all others the Lord has given me the privilege and opportunity to witness to that she is at least a born again believer of the Lord Jesus Christ and if not that she will turn her heart over to believe Jesus Christ is the Son of God for her Eternal Salvation. 

Otherwise if she is already a sister in Christ I hope she like all others will TURN TO GOD and FOLLOW HIS WILL FOR OUR LIVES like "going to church" on Sundays. 

At 9:48 I was walking down the "T.C. Myrtle Driveway" leading into the church grounds of "Shekinah Park" at College Town Missionary Baptist Church.

From that point on I realized let's just make NO EXCUSES and do what's required of us TO GOD...

It's not always "easy" and is often hard but it's DOABLE and MUST BE DONE IN THE END FOR ALL OUR BEST INTERESTS. Amen. 

~ Sincerely, 

Bro. Jed

Staying Faithful Unto THE END...

It's been quite a while since I've posted back here on the ole "blog"...

Well, life's been busy and so has the Ministry.


From where I last left off I finally had to "leave a church" I had dedicated myself to supporting anyway I thought I could help but it was time to move on after I perceived the "comfortable status quo" of the church didn't want any "outside inertia".

Wherever I go "good" or "bad" but mostly "good" I make an IMPACT for Christ.

Today I was led of the Lord to go street-preaching walking on up Kohnke Hill Road from around 9:20a.m. on my way to church.

I walked on my left side of the roadside with vehicles approaching me facing forward.

It was a very quiet morning for the most part: most people were inside or I saw people's cars and trucks parked outside or in their garages.

When I walked to a "Stop" sign with my bible in hand I saw a white father and his daughter driving up to the "Stop sign" on the other side of the road when I was "prepared" to meet them and held up my bible to the man and did my best to make "personal eye contact" with him even as I noticed he had his black sunshades on.

He saw me and gave a "friendly" "I know..." smile and "wave hello" with his hand as he drove on his way with his daughter in tow.

I get it; nothing further... So long as people know there is a *GOD* they ultimately need to TURN TO.

A lot of black women driving by in their cars and trucks be "noticin'" me but I "wonder" why they be in such a rush to go somewhere on Sunday mornings instead of *GOING TO CHURCH*?!

And then they have nerve to be "looking all crazy" at me street-preaching and witnessing with a Bible in my hands when they want even seek after God and go to church themselves... They need to CHANGE. Smh...

As ARROGANT and PRIDEFUL this may sound... at this point in my life thus far NOBOBY can tell me NOTHING we they themselves don't care and do even want to care about "following after God" and "going to church". Period. It's sad to say but it's the truth...

I'm not so "disappointed" with unsaved unbelievers but *CHRISTIANS* people who KNOW GOD and ARE SAVED are NOT OBEYING AND SERVING GOD LIKE THEY SHOULD!

It's alright to have your lil' "internet faith" in it's own time but WHY are the churches empty y'all?!

I get it's mostly a bunch of "old people" resorting in churches these days AKA "the elders"; but "church problems" and all is still *NO EXCUSE* for Christians not to be attending the House of God. Period.

In fact, the church I've been going to since last month is just a handful of elderly brethren and me being the "young'un" of the bunch at the ripe, young age of 24. It's literally UNDER 10 of us in weekly church attendance...

Now there are "problems" and "dysfunctional problems" going on that need to be addressed by the church leadership but I go to this church I'm going to because the current elderly pastor at least truly PREACHES THE WORD OF GOD according to the BIBLICAL DOCTRINE OF CHRIST.

As long as the Word of God is correctly and properly taught even I can "tolerate" anything less than "ideal"...

Even so, I've found 2018 to be the "Year of The Shift" in society and the church.

Okay, but getting back on track to the "street-witnessing" I kept on walking up Kohnke Hill Road still "gesturing friendly understanding" body language hand signs with my bible to people I encounter passing me by.

One older black man in his truck who was about to "pass me up" suddenly "stopped" and backed up to ask me if I needed a ride somewhere to which I replied "Oh no. Thanks for the consideration but I'm almost there to church. May you have a 'blessed day'..." and he just as soon put back in gear to "drive off" forward going his way.

Well, I woulda went further but I don't "impose" myself on people who don't want to hear anything about God, Jesus or the Bible against their will in their "personal time" but if they be out in "public" and the Lord bids me to street-preach they can either see or look away: I'm preaching and witnessing the Word of God regardless. Amen!

So by the time I go to church and stopped street-preaching was by 9:35a.m.

The church I've been attending lately is called "College Town Missionary Baptist Church" here in Hammond, Louisiana.


Today we had a guest pastor from Antioch Missionary Baptist Church in Bogalusa, Louisiana to preach for us today. "Bro. J" I'll call him...

Anyways, so he preached and overall it was good message and theme on "staying faithful to God's Word" when so many people; "Christians" I'm talking about mostly have "fallen away from going to church or doing much of anything of real service to God" in their lives.

It's A LOT of people out there, really.


After church we had a nice lil' "luncheon" prepared from our church home pastor elder "Bro. R" I'll call him. And it was a neat little time before we got ready to go home for the day...


So a lot's been going on but regardless of what happens in my personal life and circumstances I'm doing my best by the Spirit of God to STAY FAITHFUL UNTO THE END.


There's SO MUCH I want to do but haven't yet in the Ministry. It's all on *GOD'S TIMING* and *HIS WILL* really if it'll all happen.

In fact it's been on my heart to at least PLANT AND FOUND A CHURCH whether I be "pastor" of a church or not; I'm working towards at least being about to PLANT and FOUND a CHURCH by the GRACE OF GOD under my leadership to ensure "adaptation to The Times" that be.

I don't "compromise" God's Word for any reasons and I'm not about "appealing to the flesh" but to the Spirit.

But even so, as the elder generations "pass on" for those of my "Millennial generation" alive and living in these End Times; it's ultimately up to US to ensure the "future generations of people" coming up after us; such as "kids" these days grow up to know about GOD, the WORD OF GOD and the LORD JESUS CHRIST. Amen.

Now, just "tossing out thoughts here" I'm a bit "scatter-brained" as I type this post but I'll be "developing on these thoughts" going forward into the future, Lord-willing.


Until then: *STAY FAITHFUL UNTO GOD*!

Amen!

~ Sincerely,

Bro. Jed

Church Sunday Afternoon: The LONG "Stretch"...

Last Sunday, January 28, 2018 after church the Spirit of the Lord led me to street-preach His Word from 12:00p.m. afternoon after church walking on the grassy sideway of University Avenue. 

I made my left turn on Patti Road walking on the "steep-sided" grassy, dirt roadside all the way down witnessing to as many people driving by in their cars and trucks as I could keep up with as I also said "Good afternoon" to an elder white man riding his bike with my hands holding up a Bible to air. 

At the "Kohnke Hill Road intersection" on Patti Road I made a right turn to walk up to "College Missionary Baptist Church" to see if it was open that I meet the pastor and brethren there. 

... Turns out the church "site" looked "abandoned"; don't know if it's a vacant church building no longer in operation or whatever's going on with it... 

Anyways after I found out the "status" of that local church in the area I simply made me a left turn walking back down Kohnke Hill Road on my way home done with my street-preaching by 12:55p.m. as I made my way to the community road entrance... Amen. 

~ Bro. Jed

In Continuation of Street- Preaching The Word To A Hardhearted, Stiffnecked People In Town...

Today around 12:30p.m. or earlier this afternoon I went on my way to street-preach the Word of the Lord from walking on Hillsboro Street on my way to the library for this evening...

It's been a frantic busy few days lately with a lot of chaos and strife going on in my personal life and all...

That said, as I was out preaching today; whether in His Spirit or in my "flesh" I just felt led to "break the cold social ice of social isolation and indifference in society: everyone is "staying away" from each other in the name of "self-preservation" and personal well-being.

That, I have nothing against but here's what I've been learning and "observing" by my interactions with people passing by on the streets:

As I was witnessing the Word of God holding the Bible up in my left hand and alternating switching with my right hand I noticed so many people didn't even want to as much "look my direction" to even "face" dealing with the "God Issue" in the back of their minds.

Lord Knows I've already preached and witness His Word for almost two years in the Denver Harbor area of Houston now that the general populous of people here know and "associate me" with "God" symbolically by "default".

Some men (young & old) driving by, some blazing by" in their cars and trucks blasting loud black/Hispanic gangsta rap music and all manner of worldly music with their cool black sunglasses on cruisin' on by don't even turn their heads to the side to "acknowledge my existence" insomuch as when I'm "witnessing the Word".

I personally "don't care" for "attention" from people. That's not why I'm out here "preaching" in the first place, no?

NECESSITY is LAID UPON ME!

It's like knowing GOD will "hold me accountable" for refusing to "preach" when He really wants me to for the people's sake because I know the Truth of God, His Word and His Gospel to not just "keep for myself" to a dying lost world of "hopeless people" living in the world with no "Greater Purpose or Meaning".

God may "count it against me" if I don't share the Word and the Gospel.

Like Jonah did in his day, I must not do...

It's like God's spiritual "responsibility" He has placed upon my life: I could but "can't really" just "up and stop preaching now" and live a typical, ordinary worldly life like all these people God's got me trying to reach... FOR HIM. I'd be "living a lie" knowing what I know about God and "turning back" "pretending like none of this ever really happened now".

I'm not the one really "benefiting" from the street-preaching: I know about God and I'm saved and assured HEAVEN.

These blind-sided, unsaved heathen folk (without warning) are basically "walking blind" into the pits of HELL if they don't repent.

For me, I'm good. For them, they're DAMNED if they don't believe on JESUS.

Many times I've "inconvenienced" myself for their lame sakes...

I've lost respect for these people (if I had it to begin with...).


Few guys and men driving by in their cars and trucks "acknowledge" the "Message" I was representing as I was holding the Bible witnessing the Word: they either waved their hand in a "salute-like" fashion to me or gave me a "thumbs up" gesture from behind the window of their driven vehicles.

Women also, many did as the men... Either "acknowledging" the Message; "smiling" and grinning as to deceitfully say, "Yes, okay, I got it... Moving on..." and perhaps "playing me" as a fool. Can't say if they are or not, it could just be my own personal "projections" and quick-minded "judgments" of my feeling or thoughts on them I think they're thinking. But I could also be right, in some cases...

Either way, these "men" and "women" out here can "play me off as a fool" if they want: I'm not the one who's gonna end up foolishly dying in their sins when it's not needed: THEY ARE if they don't simply "humble themselves" enough to ACCEPT GOD'S EXISTENCE and HIS WILL for their lives to BELIEVE ON HIS SON, JESUS CHRIST!

Like it or not: there's only ONE WAY to HEAVEN and that's through CHRIST JESUS the LORD and SAVIOUR.

Smh... At these people. Really PATHETIC...

I'm not at all trying to "put them down" as they may "put me down" by worldly standards 'cause I'm not "all that and a bag of chips myself" but even wicked sinner as me know when to call "evil" quits at times and move on for my own sake: such should these people do if they really know what's good for them.

Death ain't NO JOKE: it's FINAL!

Smh... Have some "tales" to "tell" today, eh?

Like, as I'm coming on up Hillsboro Street, didn't really have to say or the time to, but a group of elder Hispanic woman, a trio sitting out in their chairs having some kind of yard sale of clothing going on...

Saw them, as I walked on the sidewalk with them looking back at me in "surprised smiling" as they may have noticed me walking with my Bible in my left hand; whether their response was "genuine" or "feigned" makes no difference to me; at least it wasn't a really negative "ugly" facial expression reaction I sometimes get from unsuspecting people, "upset" I "reminded them about God" and all.

After that, so I'm still keeping on holding up the Word walking on up the sidewalk of Hillsboro Street this afternoon and getting a lot of "I know" hand gestures from folks driving in their vehicles.



It's funny that even when I'm not out doing street evangelism of any sort or anything and I'm either just walking around areas and places throughout Houston, Texas so many people I detect looking from the perspective of my peripheral vision I see so many people driving "throw their hands up in the air" in "frustration", "angst" and "resentment" because they are "upset" they "see me again" as though thinking in their heads "that black guy (i.e. "n*gga") again! What's he doing out here?!" as a front to "disregard" God using me as a metaphorical "life sign" as to say, "Yeah, this is no coincidence you see this young black man again. He's My servant and yes, I [God] Exist" to the people.

Men and women from all walks of life I've perhaps witnessed to in the past, but have remembered me even though I've probably forgotten them individually: I've witnessed to so many people in such amount of time, I can't really "keep tract" of all people I haven't met and spoken with directly to know.

Most people I've witnessed to it's been in "passing" and never really a "conversation" with.

Anyways, now I'm "ramping it up" walking up on the sidewalk area of Kress Street on my way to the library:

Same deal with folks: so many "studiously" try to "intentionally" "block out" my witnessing as though they don't "see me out here" when I KNOW THEY DO!

They're not "fooling me" and certainly not "fooling" the Almighty, are they?

Anyways, yeah, I've even started to get "disgusted" and "disappointed" by the total "heathendom" of the people lately, I don't respect, care or even "love them" as I should: they wouldn't "have my back" any better than I would theirs, why should I bother with this, "street-preaching"?

This is for GOD even though FOR ME, yeah, I LOVE "street-preaching" and travel ministry evangelism as a "life hobby" and pursuit; I love to "perform" for my sake alone; but not to "impress the people" as though I care what they think about me anyways.

It's the MESSAGE I'm bringing that sells the "performance"; nothing else matters.

People driving all crazy, cutting corners, 'bout to run up over each other" on the road... it's pitiful.

And TO WHERE ARE THEY GOING?! Is it really THAT BIG AN EMERGENCY?

I've been pretty much everywhere "important" in this lil' "neck-of-the-woods" there ain't much of nothin' so "important" to really be in a hurry 'round town; 'less they got some kind of important personal appointment or business to handle; everything else is leisure time. Don't have to "kill people" to get where you're going on the roads.

You have to always "watch your back" around here, 'cause people so cold-hearted, heartless and merciless in their impatient "rushes" to their destinations you'll just be another "dead body" in Houston; like the countless people dying DAILY here in Houston from hit-and-run accidents alone (not counting drivebys and domestic shootings that happen).

Regardless of this, I made it to the corner intersection of Kress Street and Lyons Avenue a walk of the street to the side of the library. The local church I've been fellowshipping at "Faith Memorial Baptist Church" is nearby on my left side.

Lord-willing plan to attend later this evening for 7:00p.m. "Young Adults Worship Night" or whatever it is that's "going on" supposing to be for "young people" my peer age grouping.

So, here's the "sweet lil' story of the day".

So yeah, I'm still making a last-ditch effort to preach the Word briefly before retreating into the library to regroup and minister here online as I'm want to do.

Here goes; I'm saying, "God LOVES You!" to people driving by in their cars and trucks. Don't have much time in "live passing" to preach collectively or individually to live moving vehicles so I have to say short, impactful words of mouth to make an impression.

When the traffic light is red I "turn the notch up on my voice" to be louder so that people can hear me say some more words: "God LOVES You!" Have a good evening. We all need God". and such like I say briefly encountering people continuing to "drive by" and "ignore" my "rants" as they may call them.

I do my best to make direct eye contact and hand gestures sometimes "friendly pointing over" to the people I've targeted to let them know I'm speaking to THEM DIRECTLY and not "avoiding eye contact" with people like I'm "scared of them" lol.

I want people to know that I'M LOOKING AT THEM and that *I* SEE THEM as well or better than they "see me" at the same time. Amen.

So, thing is, an older Hispanic lady and her "daughter", granddaughter or younger "female family member" drove on up in their car. Forgot the color of the car: maybe white or red or something but here's what happened:

I opened up "conversation" with them like this: first to the elder woman: "Hello there... God LOVES you! You know we need God, right?"

And she's like, not even wanting to "talk" or really "respond back" so she just says, "Thank you, God Bless pointing up here pointer finger up to the air as saying "Heaven's up there".

Yeah, I know that I'm thinking to myself.

The elder Hispanic woman then takes up a cigarette in her left hand to proceed to smoke.

Because of timing and urgency I felt on instinct I felt led to keep on speaking til' I couldn't think of nothing else to say naturally.

I said, Well, it's like this: we're all gonna die someday, you know? I've been through some things in the "life school of hard knocks" and in the end, we all die. Do you know where you'll be when you die?"

To which the elder Hispanic woman didn't give me a "concrete answer" of certainty she just looked a bit puzzled and "caught of guard" to not know whether to say "there is no Afterlife or not"; in this time the young woman "stepped" (black sunglasses on) with her young ol' "hot babe" kind-of-vibe" she "put on" on the outward appearance that is; she's like: "I turn into a butterfly" is her response to my "serious-intended" question to "life-after-death" or not.

I of course, play the young *silly* woman off as trying to be "cute" and a "smart-butt" (i.e. "smart*ss*) with her vain, arrogant, "cutesy" female self lol...

So, me, "playing along" not to be too "carnal" replied back here saying, "Well, 'sugar', you know life ain't always so "sweet" and life sucks and you die" and she didn't say nothing else to me as I finished speaking, then they drove off...

But funny thing is... after walking on my way, I met them again having stopped by at the local Cliff Tuttle Park. NOT expecting to ever see them again lol. Funny how "life" works, eh?

No "coincidence" I think not.

Lol Even said to them in passing by as I was walking and they were pulling up into a parking space in the parking lot, "Hello again!..." and I kept on walking too.

Lol I wasn't trying to "bother them" and have anything to do with them besides the MISSION of the LORD.

I got things to do for my own "personal well-being" than to annoy people pointlessly for no purpose.

When I'm not out in the public doing street and community evangelism here locally in Denver Harbor, Houston, Texas I'm the LAST PERSON to ever "bother" or "confront" anybody about "anything" if it's not important or an "emergency".

Some people might call me "antisocial" 'cause I don't like to "deal with people who mean me know good or I don't know". I don't like to "engage" with people if it's not about nothing important but carnal gossip and idle chatter.

Don't get me wrong: I like to talk with people; just don't want to WASTE MY TIME WITH DOWNERS AND HATERS who will DRAG YOU DOWN IN THEIR OWN MISERY is what I'm talking about!

For all the bad, ugly and EVIL I've experienced from myself and from other people collectively and individually in society; there have been a *few* "glimmers of hope" that keep me motivated from people.

Sometimes when I'm walking on the long, dusty, widespread roadways and trails of Houston throughout railroad tracks and the like I've seen me driving by me in their eighteen-wheeler trucks hand wave friendly too me in "support" and "edification" for my "good work in the Lord".

I thank God for their "co-signs" genuine or not: but I think for the most part these men mean well even if they might personally not "go as extreme" as me to do "street evangelism".

I know there are many of my fellow brothers and "sisters in Christ" out there driving pass me in there vehicles. It can't all just be "unbelievers"; I know the "Christian folks" are out there in the midst as well...

As far as my "worldly, churchian church-going Christian brethren" I casually "love them" and "acknowledge" them as "brethren by His Spirit" but I put NO TRUST or CONFIDENCE in them for my own sake...

If they ridicule, "attack" or "disagree" with my street-preaching evangelism efforts for the Lord in any way, shape or capacity I have my eyes on them for good reason: they can't be trusted. They aren't really "serious" for the Lord's Service even though they are His children as I am one.

The worldly, lukewarm churchian Christians my brethren may be one of the first lines of people to "attack" or "persecute" me directly or indirectly in my personal life because they find my street-preaching "offensive", "ignorant", "unbiblical" (yeah, right?!) or simply "uncomfortable" to them because of their "socially-conditioned" Western culture mindsets and expected social norms and customs.

I see through all the "bull" popular Western culture has poisoned the Christian Church with.

Many Christians are "comfortable" mingling with the world, and if that's what they want to do; I'm not going to stop their own personal FREE WILL choice; just don't try to "dictate" and find "fault" with my "freedom of expression" in Christ 'cause it "unsettles" your lukewarm, weak-kneed, compromising, worldy, fleshly, carnal, heathen, hedonistic Western world mindsets and psychological profile.

It's alright if you "disagree" with my style. I'm not "offended" with that; but I'm "offended" when people, especially of the "Household of Faith" my supposed "brethren" backstab and try to "talk bad" about me behind my back but smile 'n grin like the spinless cowards they are when they meet me in "meat space" AKA the "REAL WORLD" for a check of "reality"...

Yeah, they won't "confront" me directly about my personal Christian ministry, and I'm not one to simply "volunteer information" without a purpose in mind down the long-term.

That said, these, "sneaky brethren" take the "coward's backstabbing tactic" to get to me indirectly trying to cause me "grief" with my family and/or friends; since those are the people in my life who have most access to me directly since I do have nothing to do with hardly anyone else besides family and friends I know.

Yeah, don't think I don't know what you fools are doing and that I don't know "who you are".

I trust NO ONE. Not a SOUL. I don't even trust my own "weak self" because I'm flesh and deal with pain and can "give in" to a situation or person I shouldn't.

I only TRUST GOD to my good and my "evil" when I sin against Him 'cause at least I know "He is not a man that He should lie". Amen.

Overall, I'm disgusted and disappointed at the people I've tried to reach out with the Word of God and His Gospel; but I still have hope in the end...

GOD WINS is what I always have to remind myself on those more "depressing days".

Fighting through "depressing" and "negative emotions"; not wasting my life and "precious time" on people who will continue to ignore God in their lives. Will help and be willing to move on ASAP when dealing with most people.

Take care out there whoever's reading 'cause GOD HAS YOUR BACK when YOU KNOW "man" does NOT!

LOVE YOU to my faithful and FEW true allies in Christ out there; wherever you are in the world: would LOVE to meet up eventually and tag team kicking the Devil's Rear one foot for each cheek lol.

I need my awesome crew of brethren to hang out with and do cool stuff with. That's what I'm be working towards in the near future, Lord-willing...

Alas, to my ENEMIES: I most likely have a "clue" or "idea" who you people are, so don't try nothin' to "fishy" to "mess with me". It'll only make you a bigger fool than you are.

It's only 'cause I'm trying to "be the good ol' Christian boy" turning the other cheek (from MEEKNESS NOT WEAKNESS) I haven't let you "feel the fire" I'd have for you.

Thank GOD He is "MERCIFUL". I'm not always "too merciful or forgiving" but I don't "waste my time" dishing out pain either; I'd rather be isolated doing my own thing than to even deal with my enemies in the first place.

God says to LOVE YOUR ENEMIES and I "do" in a "sense" that I love their challenge and their "hate" to rise above their petty offences against me; and I don't have nothing really personal against most of them; but I won't be "played" by them either...

I can "afford" to "love my enemies" since they are of NO THREAT to me: they are without JESUS what have they against me? NOTHING.

I'm on JESUS'S SIDE most of the time (when I'm not in "the flesh") and seek HIS WILL in all areas of life:

Be careful, folks, not to unjustly persecute or "attack" God's Anointed and expect nothing "bad" to happen as a result...

All SIN has it's consequences: all SIN are BAD CONSEQUENCES in the end.

That said, I'm always "mindful" but not at all "fearful" of my (many, mostly "quiet", "hidden") enemies lurking in the shadows thinking I don't think "they exist"; I know you do and I'm ready for you.

My weapons are not a flesh 'n blood physical warfare variety of bullets knives and fists but on the "spiritual side" of things.

May God Almighty, Lord Jesus Christ continue to give us WISDOM and UNDERSTANDING in these hateful, distrusting, angry times of unrest and chaos.

Lord Knows we NEED IT even though we sure do NOT "deserve it". Amen.

First-Time Street-Preaching In The North Shore Area of Houston

... It's been a busy, "eventful" day today, brethren.

Earlier this morning I was at the North Shore branch Workforce Solutions office building to get some things done and let out walking down Wallisville Road all the way 'til I got to the Beltway Eight North freeway and I was traveling, walking along the grassy field space of the freeway roadside on the outskirt parameter of the shopping center "The Shops at Stone Park" (you can literally view all my real life geographic coordinates on Google Maps. Really helpful lol).

This time out of sheer curiosity and desire to just "do it" and not keeping dwelling on it "thinking about it" I sat down my black JanSport backpack and whipped out my large-sized burgundy-brown King James Bible, stood up to the edge of the curbside of the freeway road space and witnessed holding the Word up in the air to people driving towards my direction in their vehicles.

A lot of people seemed to "recognize me" out there as I began to "preach" the Word in silent expressive hand gestures of outstretched arms, holding the bible way up high with my right hand and my left arm and hand stretched out wide 'n open in "Christ-like fashion".

I also held the Bible to my chest as a symbolic body language "gesture" of saying metaphorically, "Trust in God in your heart" and held the Bible up to the front of my forehead as a symbolic "sign" of body language expression meaning something like "Trust God in your mind".

Together the gestures of the Bible being held to my chest and my head meant "Trust God in your heart and mind"; for those looking on the outside "interpreting" the "meanings" of my body language expressions as I witnessed with the Word.

Some people hand waved at me driving by and I anticipated in personal reflexes and usually managed to friendly "hand wave" back at them in mutual acknowledge of "knowing them" in case I have "witnessed to them" in the past even though I might not know the person directly in a "personal way" other than through public personal Christian witnessing and soulwinning evangelism efforts in the past.

Lol I've witnessed to so many people by the Grace of God; it's like I'm a "walking reminder of association" about God to people who don't want to acknowledge the existence and creation of an Almighty Creator they know is "God" but they don't want to acknowledge that.

They want to continue living a "God-free" self-willed life and "be their own gods" in this temporary earthly life that is yet to someday "pass away" in the near future.

Also, in retrospect, I finally made a good walk over to the Gene Green Park walking on the grassy field trail off the side of the freeway of Beltway Eight North. It wasn't as long as I thought it'd be; provided I was also making "good pace" walking with long, rhythmic strong strides of my walking legs to get their faster and on task.

Got to the entrance of the park walked down the long road leading further into the park.

Gene Green Park is nestled around the center of neighboring apartment home communities as well as nice, quaint, quiet residential suburb neighborhoods of cul-de-sacs. It's a good wide-spread local park area for people who are residents who live around and in the North Shore area here in Houston.

For me, though, I'm just a visitor passing through and exploring for personal curiosity and knowledge.

So I took a few photos of the green Gene Green Park entrance poster sign before leaving out the park, having "hand waved" a few people who may have recognized my "street-preaching" either from the time I was witnessing on the outskirts of "The Shops at Stone Park" by the curbside of the Freeway or from much earlier previous past experiences of "street-preaching escapades".

Thing is, now that I have a good "take" on the size and "scope" of the City of Houston, Texas from traveling on freeways, highways, roads, nature trails and parks, I have a gutsy attitude by the Grace of God I could "potentially" preach 'round the whole city in "meat space"; the real world by myself in "solo fashion" if I had to...

I don't mean this at all in some "vainglorious way of high-minded thinking" but I'm talking about the "mass scale of Christian street evangelism" that really needs to be done by Christian members of LOCAL CHURCHES going out into the STREETS, ROADS, FREEWAYS and HIGHWAYS with Christian signs, posters, billboards, handbag sacks of gospel tracts to give to people waling by on the streets in public and all manner resources to get people's *ATTENTION* to *TURN TO GOD*!

Only the CHRISTIAN CHURCH can do this... Not just the "single way-faring preachers" like me God uses to witness and warn people. The CHRISTIAN CHURCH needs to *STEP UP* and *STEP OUT* of the buildings and *BRING JESUS TO THE STREETS!*. Amen!

I'm only *ONE PERSON* out here in my area; and Lord-willing I know I'm not the only brother out here doing public Christian evangelism (not just "street-preaching" as I keep saying).

I've seen other brothers and sisters and Christ associated with churches or just doing their own personal Christian public evangelism out there in the "real world" trying to reach out to many unsaved unbelievers who WOULD NOT ever really hear the Gospel of Jesus Christ (KJV 1 Corinthians 15:1-4) presented to them because they would never in the first place ever walk through the door of their local church anyways.

The Biblical Christian Church GOES TO THE PEOPLE and does NOT "wait for the people" (of which the "unsaved" are expected to just "magically show up" and start "attending church" just 'cause they should. Don't work that way in reality though. And it's not God's Way either.) to come to the church.

This is what the biblical New Testament Christian Church in the Book of Acts did that the Modern Christian Church must do in this day and age: *GO OUT TO THE PEOPLE EVERYWHERE IN SOCIETY AND TELL THEM ABOUT JESUS CHRIST THEN INVITE THEM INTO THE CHURCH!* Amen!

I'm only ONE PERSON out here doing my best by God's Grace to bring lost souls to Him for Salvation.

And if you've been reading my personal blog here for a while now you know that God has blessed me with many opportunities to witness Jesus Christ to them. I hope to inspire you to do the same.

TWO are better than ONE. Amen.

Imagine how many people could be reached for Jesus Christ in the world if just all the brethren sitting on the pews in Church on Sunday morning actually made a consistent daily effort as a way of life to just "tell and share" the "Good News of Jesus Christ" with anybody and everybody they meet in life?

It would be *AMAZING*!

Smh... I don't "get all upset" with why the world is so messed up as I did in my "philosophical finding-the-meaning-of-life" teenage years. Now I know the answer: it's because the BODY OF CHRIST won't COLLECTIVELY STEP UP and DO what it SHOULD BE DOING FOR THE LORD!

It's because the CHURCH is complacent in Purpose is a lot of why the world is "messed up".

Church-going" without *MISSION LIFE-FOCUS* as a *WAY OF LIFE* is why modern churches are apostate and dying with only women, children and elderly senior people being the bulk of many church congregations.

Young people like myself don't just want to "hang out" in a building all day with no further purpose or mission to commit to: we want ACTION! We want EXPLORATION! We want MOVEMENT! We want BUILDING! We want CREATION of a BETTER WORLD and we want church as a "Way of Life" and not just a place to "go to" as a "ritual routine" of daily life as "religious people" the world sees Christians as.

Real Church means MORE than just "pew-sitting" on Sundays listening to sermons from the preacher.

REAL CHURCH is a SERMON of Itself. It SPEAKS to the WORLD and the World, hate it or love it RESPONDS to the ACTIONS of the CHURCH.

For instance, because I'm willing and mostly able, if I had the "super power" or "special ability" to do it like in fictional fantasy stories I would like to have that "ninja clone jujitsu" ability that the well-known manga and anime character "Naruto" does as one of his signature ninja techniques.

Lol, if I could make multiple (temporary) "clone copies" of myself like the character Naruto does in the Naruto manga and anime and station the "Jed's" at all the key, most strategic places to evangelize in Houston and I could almost literally and confidently say I could street-preach the whole City of Houston quite thoroughly and completely within a few weeks and in full by a month's time of hardcore Christian evangelism.

I really would DO IT if I COULD. But the thing is there is only ONE JED and he can't be "everywhere at all times, knowing everything that's going on and saving people from themselves".

I'm not GOD, just a mere mortal flesh 'n blood MAN.

Only GOD is using me though to work His Will in this physical natural realm as His vessel because I'm a WILLING PARTICIPANT in HIS CALLING.

Do you ever think to "ask yourself" are you really a "willing participant" in what GOD REALLY WANTS TO DO WITH YOUR LIFE or do you "ignore and block out God's Request" like how people "block" each other on social media?

Smh... Lol I am only 23 years-old having lived in this world and I've already seen more than enough of God's Presence and Power in my life to know so clearly now that TOO MANY PEOPLE, who are "believers of Jesus Christ" are NOT wanting to really SERVE GOD THE WAY GOD WANTS TO BE SERVED.

We "serve God" our way and NOT His Way, is what I'm getting at here. Time to flip that script.

It's time to OBEY GOD, CHURCH.

It's time for the CHURCH to do what God Created It to do...


May the "faithful few" step out from the "pew-sitting crowd" and be the AGENTS OF CHANGE in the world for CHRIST. Amen.

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... Adding on to this, leaving from the Gene Green Park I was walking on my way back and a white man with his wife/girlfriend in their red truck had a red garbage bin to fall out their pickup red and on the road of the highway.

I thank God no other cars or truck were following up close behind them 'cause it would have hit them.

... Knowing what happened I paced my time and neatly ran over to help the man lift the red garbage bin into his red truck and he thanked me in surprise.

Afterwards I walked on back to the grassy trail and put my black backpack on the ground and stood on the grassy trail space for a while until the man tied up all his garbage bin containers in snug fashion with his ropes.

Sensing he saw me patiently "waiting" on him to get his truck situated as "backup help" in case he needed my assistance he later backed up when he got in his truck and hand waved me "Thanks" and "Goodbye" along with his wife/girlfriend before speeding on up on their way.

Mission accomplished. Like to be a "patient help" indeed and my "brother's keeper" as the Lord would also want me to. I like to help people anyway I can.

Now ideally-speaking, if the time or circumstance presented it at the moment of course I would have tried to witness the Gospel of Jesus Christ then-and-there to the couple if the time and moment was right and "appropriate" to mention. But it wasn't at the time, only Holy Spirit led that whole meeting to come about. Only GOD can reach them in the end the way He wants them to be reached.

Not out of my own personal "self-willed" Christian Soulwinning evangelism agenda. Amen.

So, after that, I saw a young Indian or Arab-looking woman with her young daughter walking on the driveway area of an apartment homes community called "Dover Pointe" or something like that I believe. It's on Google Maps though, I'm sure lol.

Yeah, I like to check "Google Maps" for directions and get an idea of how big and expansive a place or area is before I make the time to explore it. Preparation before the "big day" is always helpful when you have the time to PREPARE. Amen.

So, after passing by the young Indian/Arab-looking mother & daughter couple I made my way back to "The Shops on Stone Park" en route to the North Channel Branch Houston Public Library at a computer of which  I've typed this whole post from lol.

Been a busy morning, afternoon and now approaching "early evening" as the day here in Houston, Texas goes on.

Today I've about wrapped up exploring the North Shore area as much as my personal spirit and the Holy Spirit leads me I believe before "His Next Steps", Lord-willing.

Time for "new ventures" to be embarked upon after getting done personal responsibilities to have that "freedom". 

By His Grace, definitely will keep "updating" things here and sharing personal life experiences to come.

I've learned to like and appreciate the City of Houston better than I used to when I first came here.

It's a good city. It's a GREAT CITY. Warts 'n all ;P. It always comes down to a person's POSITIVE OUTLOOK and PERSPECTIVE on any given circumstance and situation.

Signing off now... Peace. Amen!

~ Bro. Jed

Brief Late Evening Street-Preaching From The Library On The Way Home...

On Tuesday, March 21, 2017 by 6:05p.m. at Cliff Tuttle Park at the park table bench area I briefly street-preached His Word (King James Version Holy Bible [KJV]) walking on up Lyons Avenue and stopped by the Lyons Washateria by around 6:20p.m. at the latest (don't recalling "checking the time" at that moment back...).

Afterwards, I finally walked the rest of the way home... Amen.

~ Bro. Jed

A "Faithful Walk" Home From Church...

On Sunday, March 19, 2017 I was led of the Lord by His Spirit and street-preached His Word (King James Version Holy Bible [KJV]) walking down Kress Street and then on Hillsboro Street around 12:30p.m. in the afternoon after attending Faith Memorial Baptist Church.

It was a "brief moment" in time as I interacted with folks driving by in their vehicles, cars and trucks...

At some points I stood still and "held up my arms with the bible" held in my right hand in a "Christ-like" manner as a way of symbolic body language communication saying "It's okay... Come to Me all ye who are weary and heavy-laden..." as the Scripture saith.

A lot of people it seemed did NOT want to be reminded about Jesus Christ, God and the Bible *OR* the simple fact that a lot of people "guilty" and willingly decided not to go to church or care to think of "God" if some of the people driving by were in fact Christians; but I digress it was a pleasant, lovely sunny afternoon that Sunday...

I stopped street-preaching on Hoffman Street when I made it in for the remainder of the day at 12:43p.m. Amen.

~ Bro. Jed 

An Unexpected "Evening" With The Lord...

Yesterday evening the Lord I believe spoke to me in the Spirit and told me to "street preach" on my way walking home walking on down Kress Street and Hillsboro Street at around 5:10p.m. it appears...

Turns out a lot of people seemed to "wave their hands" as "okay, I get it" as they drove by in their cars; perhaps kinda expecting a "reminder" from me in service to the Lord.

It was "interesting" that I got mostly "positive reactions" from people this time as sometimes I don't.

Most of all, as long as this was of the Spirit doing the deeds that's the main thing that counts.

To GOD be the GLORY. Amen.

Hopefully, all and not just "some" people who saw me yesterday evening will FINALLY come to REPENTANCE if they already have not.

There's always HOPE for change as long as someone has breath in their body and a willingness to REPENT.

God doesn't want ANYONE to end up in Hell.

Come to JESUS CHRIST and go to HEAVEN instead folks. Amen...

~ Sincerely,

Bro. Jed

Reflection: Gloomy, Overcast Day Street-Preaching In The Community...

Today I was led of the Lord by His Spirit to preach the Word walking on up Hillsboro Street and then making the right turn walking up the road of Kress Street.

It's been a gloomy, overcast "gray day" up in the sky.

I held up His Word to cars I met having stopped at the intersection of Woolworth Street on the way up Hillsboro Street.

Every time I sensed a moment to stop I went and held up the Bible for the men, women and people to see His Word as I looked at them in direct face-to-face contact.

Today, I didn't really get much "reaction" from the local townsfolk or at least they may not have wanted to "acknowledge my existence" as I made clear to them by my mere physical "presence" upholding a Bible in my hand that "there is a God" and many people do not want to accept that fact...


I've been here in the Denver Harbor community of the Fifth Ward District in Houston, Texas for a while now...

Seems so strange how the time has passed since I first arrived here in the summer of June 2015; now up to this point of February 2017... Wow... Can't even believe it really...


My Bible "street-preaching" seems (at least to me) to lost it's "spark" like it used to have. People it seems have grown accustomed or "used to it" being done by me as a "familiar" with the deal.

I'm starting to kinda feel like "Noah" in a way when the Lord had called him to preach the warning of "The Flood" to come and the repentance to God from the Evil of that Time.

Then again, as I've learned from trial-and-error" my own personal "feelings" on the matter cannot be trusted when I go about doing the Lord's Will.

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When I first got here in Denver Harbor of the Fifth Ward District in Houston, Texas, everything was so "brand new" lol and fresh, and "exciting".

Now, haha it's all "old news" typical and "the usual".

Don't get me wrong lol, I like it here, love it even in some ways but now I'm starting to feel "pressed" in my spirit as though God is going to "open up" something new I must "transition to".

I've met a lot of people here. Witnessed the best I could at the times presented... Now I think is the time for a "change" and I don't know what kind of change must take place but God Knoweth.

I'm mindful to stay fully dependent and compliant on GOD'S DESIRES solely and not let my own "personal desires" override and conflict with "His Schedule". What He wants is all that matters. Not my "personal desires" at this point.

Like my elder brother and Pastor T.J. once said (it's not his exact saying but something very similar I'll "paraphrase"); "There come's a time in every believer's walk with the Lord that things go from being 'wide 'n open', free with so much freedom to 'dance around' and do what you like in service to the Lord; but then things start to get NARROWER. More "rigid" and "narrow. A lot of "personal choices and decisions" God would allow you to do and experience from as a "rookie" growing up in the Lord. But now that you've had time to grow and be developed in the Lord your walk with the Lord has become much more "narrower" and RESTRICTIVE than it used to be when you first started out. Things are harder and a lot more 'demanding'. You have to do all things God's Way or you won't be walking in His Spirit of His Perfect Will in your life."

I very much agree wholeheartedly with his statements.

Elder brother Pastor T.J. told me and my brethren this on a Wednesday night bible study about this subject and while he didn't go into all the "nitty-gritty" details of the "narrower path" more "experienced" believers in the Lord get "thrusted into" I'd say, it's something we all very much identified with. Amen.

As of yet, even though it's been a mere nearly four years of Christian ministry I've embarked on from the Lord beginning in the summer of 2013 to this point I suppose I can say, from all that I've been through, people I've met and "experiences" good and bad I had the privilege to learn from and develop I'm no longer a "rookie in the Lord" but I'm also no aged, seasoned veteran in Christ either.

I may have a long way to God as the Lord leads. I can only trust God what He will do with me next.

It would be a blessing to live a good long life on earth until the Rapture takes place but I'm realistic and I'm frankly accepting of a long or short life in the Lord as life goes on.

I'm now 23 years-old and starting to feel the "effects" of being in my "young adulthood" and getting "older". I must get myself on the "right track" and not make dumb and foolish choices and decisions I'll regret later.

Too much at stake in these times.

It's been a privilege also to meet all my wonderful brethren in Christ online here on Google Plus+, Facebook and Twitter to name a few social media platforms.

I was a "newbie" to pretty much all three mediums and by time, observance and participation I've learned how to interact and use these social media platforms greatly but I've learned from everyone who helped me out directly and indirectly and it was a blessed experience all around. Amen.


At the end of the day, I want to say I *LOVE* all people even though I simply don't want to be "bothered" most of the time lol.

People are good for the most part but can be "annoying" at times haha.

Well, looking outside now and the sun has come out and "taken away" from the "gloominess" of the day thus far... Looking real nice out from looking through the side window panes of inside the library.

Man, I want to be a KID again lol! Used to be so "innocent", "pure" and "blissfully ignorant" to the harsh realities of the "real world" as known by the sin of fallen humanity in this sin-cursed world.

Then again, I'm glad I'm "grown up".

Many people don't ever get to grow up into adulthood and die as children and teenagers unfortunately.

At least I see "life" as it is, not as it should and could be. That's a start.

Better I think in the long-term to see "life as is" and "accept" than to live in complete, "total ignorance" of real world real life reality and humanity. It's a mental fear and deception I don't wish on anyone.

Real life is HARD but it's REAL; no "illusions" to it. Amen.

Just because I "acknowledge reality" doesn't mean I always "accept it" as "ideal".

I don't always like or "accept" things as the way it is even though it could be something "morally wrong" and sinful or a "social truth"; but I can recognize it.

Although I want to say I'll always "be here" online blogging on this blog or having a "social media presence" elsewhere that will probably be the case and I'm wanting to continue and transition to higher levels in Christ here online but my biggest and main mission is to stay FOCUSED ON THE DIRECTION OF GOD ALMIGHTY, LORD JESUS CHRIST VIA HOLY SPIRIT.

I can't "promise" anyone here online or in the "real world" anything with a "guarantee". Some things I personally would like to because it's want I really want to do but other "bigger things" I cannot in full expectation.

I'm just saying all this out here 'cause I don't know what will be happening in the days ahead but somehow and somewhere I'll have to be "changing up" my "daily routine" and following the Lord to "uncharted territories" I never expect. It's how I even got to this point I never would have thought in my "early days" starting out in "ministry".

I'm experienced by all the great men and women of God here online and my fellow peers in age group. Great works in the Lord indeed.

May God Almighty, Lord Jesus Christ guide and bless everyone on their personal journeys and walks in the Lord.

We must keep "keeping on" in life like Christ isn't coming back soon in preparation until He finally does return to gather His Sheep.

I'm not "waiting on the Lord" to return as though I've given up all "hope" and just want the "Rapture" to happen.

Perhaps Christ is waiting on US to work with Him.

Only the Father Knows when He is sending His Son back to earth but in the mean time, as the United States has a new U.S. President in President Donald J. Trump and a whole lot of global world events have transpired and going on, the future is "unpredictable" in how everything will all play out. Only God Knows all the details. NOTHING is "guaranteed". Amen.


Coming to a close now, I really hope everyone reading this and everyone in life everywhere around the world from here in the United States of America unto all seven continents and islands and land masses where human souls dwell: may everyone be guided by the Lord Jesus Christ and abide in His Spirit and His Perfect Will.

GOD has the ANSWERS. Not me and no other human-being.

Trust on Jesus Christ, start in His Word and LIVE DAILY IN OBEDIENCE TO HIS HOLY SPIRIT.

Your personal "plan" for your life will ultimately FAIL and "pale" in comparison" to the greatness of GOD'S PLAN if you potentially follow out HIS WILL over your own will. That's what I'm trying and learning to do now to the best of my God-Given ability.

I'm not perfect and I make mistakes. I'd be even more "self-righteous" and "prideful" to say I haven't "made mistakes" or been "disobedient or rebellious" towards God because I HAVE!

I've sinned against the Almighty many-a-times and regretted so but I'm not going to continue to "deny" and not act like it never happened.

I thrown down the Bible and "kicked it around" on the ground like I was kicking any regular sports ball like a soccer ball before in my anger and frustration against God. I got "fed up" with "obeying God" sometimes when I wanted to justify my "anger and desire to "get back" at people who I truly believed "did me wrong" and got mad at God as a result for being "willing to suffer for sinners' mistakes".

That said, deep down, I know I'm no "better" than anybody else out there, believer or "unbeliever" alike.

It's only CHRIST in me that's good. It's not about "personal righteousness" at all. That's such a fraud.

Only CHRIST is GOOD. Period.

I've experienced enough of "humanity" in myself and abroad to know that one biblical truth: "ONLY GOD IS GOOD".

There is NO RIGHTEOUSNESS among men without CHRIST. Period.

Sin-cursed humanity without any Judgment, Correction and Reproof from God is complete, total, debase pure evil.

Thank GOD, He sent His Son, LORD JESUS CHRIST to do the impossible.

There was no other way God could save humanity even though us mortal human-beings think "God could have done something else".

If that was the case He would of. How dare we "question God" on that matter? You think He wanted to "sacrifice His Son" if He could redeem humanity some other way? I don't think so but then again, I don't "think like God". I'm not God to know.

Even God Himself had to "pay the ultimate cost" to save humanity with that One Solution being the Sacrifice of His Dear, Only Beloved Son, Lord Jesus Christ to die for all humanity.

God had no "easy way out" and neither do we if we believe not that Jesus Christ is the Son of God.

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JESUS CHRIST is THE WAY, THE TRUTH and THE LIFE. Amen.

~ Bro. Jed

A "Walk In The Park"... "Street-Preaching Style"

Been a while, been a while, been a while since I've "updated" this ol' "blog"...

Lots been goin' on in mi "personal life". Been busy...

Today's been an "okay" day. Had better. 'Course I gotta "own it" and take responsibility for it.

I'm here inside the library, having just come out from a brief stroll and "break" outside in Cliff Tuttle Park.

Mind's been a mess lately and I need to think things through clearly before I do stupid things and make foolish mistakes and decisions I'll regret later. It ain't "perfect" though I like to think I am. I'm "human".


Been "at odds" with God lately, I thank Him I almost had the urge to "curse Him" and "throw around" His Word like I've done previously when I was "fed up" with my personal drama going on and taking it out on Him.

Yeah, I regret it but it is what it is. I can't take it back or act like it "never happened" lol. I don't have to "share this with the whole" it could have been me and God's "lil' secret" but so what?

I don't care what anyone thinks.

By that I mean I don't allow anyone's "outside opinion" or thoughts override MY ACTIONS. I'm gonna do what I'm gonna do regardless and nobody's gonna stop me save God Himself lol.

But really, "actions" good and bad have CONSEQUENCES so for my own tall, slim, lean(gotta "buff up" someday) black behind  I gotta make the "right moves".

Smh... out there. Been quiet for a while.

My "street-preaching" ministry outdoors has been DORMAT for nearly a few weeks now.

I only got in a good few minutes witnessing the Word by the side of the road exit to the freeway a little over 3:50p.m. today. The Spirit told me to stop by the time the clock hit 4:02p.m.

Typing this at 4:27p.m.


Looking back over all the busiest and utter craziness that has got me to this point is like taking in a big *HOW THE "F" DID I GET HERE?!* surreal moment.

It's insane. Or maybe that's just me, haha.

Either way, it's been a gruesome and good experience.

'Course a lot of it I gotta blame on myself cuz I've been angry, mean and contemptuous at times towards people who got on my nerves or didn't. Just had to "vent frustration".

Overall, it's a "love-hate" relationship with people; but then it dawned on me:

I'm just a self-centered a-hole who doesn't want to be bothered with too many people's inconveniences.

Not like I don't "care" about folks but I just don't want to be bothered or "inconvenience" by some folks stupid problems and issues. I got my own to deal with! Lol

Besides... and women, oh God, don't let me go there!

Yeah, well, as a "Christian" I can't do the "heathen's ways" and all but that flesh nature is there.

I'm surprised I haven't given into LUST too greatly as I used to in my "porn-watching" days in my teens. Not a good place, but in a way it was for me for my "mental purposes" lol. I wasn't the wanking loser who just "got off" on that stuff and didn't learn a thing or two lol.

Besides I liked the videos when the men and women were actually really into it and "had fun"; you could tell they enjoyed what they were doing. And boy, did I enjoy watching them enjoy themselves. Haha!

Interesting what one can learn and discover from "curiosity". It killed the cat but it fueled my exploration and motivation lol.

Yeah, there's many pretty young women around this tall, dark 'n handsome thing could let his primitive "predatory urges" take the fore but I've made a "commitment to Christ" in being one of His Servants and trying to "represent Him" on earth: a job I do good sometimes and real bad a lot. All by HIS GRACE though; it's never me to represent Him correctly.

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I've grown a lot more "cold" and "calloused" in my "heart" towards people in general even though I still care and be "concerned" for people.

I pick and choose who I deal with a lot of the times now. I don't waste my time with people who ain't worth bothering with or I can't be a help or service to.

They could say the same about me but then again, they don't know me like *I DON'T KNOW THEM!*.

Ah, the dilemma.

Smh lol but it's really pathetic, pitiful and unflattering (at least that's what I perceive it; I see it how it is):

A lot of women I notice in the corner of my eyes as I walk about I see them in my peripheral vision as they look through their vehicles' windows at me unbeknownst to the man they're with be it boyfriend, husband, whatever, I notice and don't like it at all. They'd cheat on their man with me if I really "pushed it" and "went that way" but I know way better than to do that...

These women "eyeing" me from the distance from the safety of their fall-walled vehicles know they can't get close to me in person lol (don't want them to even) so they STEAL furtive hypergamous glances and stares at me from the distance.

It's not at all about "love", "concern" or actual "empathy" lol.

It's all primal, instinctive hypergamous sexual attraction instincts driving their behaviour it's not "looks" of "concern", "care" or "empathy". It's about sexual marketplace strategy lol.

Boy, could I tell some stories but because I respect the "anonymity" of people I won't use actual people's names unless appropriate and with their permission.


Unless they cross a public line with me in public publicly attempting to "humiliate", "criticize" and "wrong" me unfairly and without merit I won't take issue and respect other people's "rights of privacy" with me as I'm a very "private person" by nature even so I very mutually understand here

Live and let live.

Believe me (or not to your own demise), I ain't a "good person" you'd really "care about" if you knew the real EVIL ME! And I really like "evil me" cuz he's good fun at his best; even some people might like him.

If you're honest and didn't care to admit you'd probably say the same thing or something similar about yourself as if we're talking "good" in the Sight of the Lord. Lol.

I have my real "good qualities" and do empathize, care and love people genuinely even if I may "hate" them genuinely too. I don't let "hate" not cause me to still keep company, like and hang with people. Otherwise I'd just move on and leave that person or people alone and do my own thing without having that "hate" on my mind. Life's large.

I have loyalty and compassion. I have the "good along with the bad" but I'm not really the "betrayal-type" personally. I'm of the attitude "no-man-left-behind" mentality on the good side.

So... to my CONTEMPT and disgust I brush these stupid superficial "glances" to the side and see them for what they are: mere pure physical instinctive sexual attraction. Nothing more, nothing less.

Even so, I always knew deep down most women are "flaky" and can't take the heat.

It's one of those "double-edged" swords.

I expect them to "flake out" in certain situations in a "feminine manner" as accustomed to women, and if a woman doesn't "flake" and let the man "take the heat" I feel my pride dampened and disrespected. I don't allow that.

In fact I get "pissed" if a woman doesn't "flake out" and be a "victim"; cuz I don't get to "play hero" and be the "good, strong one" to "save the day" lol. Yeah right!

I want to die without pity or "remorse". Call me "cold-hearted", cruel and ruthless. I don't care. And besides, I think they got it wrong!: it ain't "cold-hearted" but *HOT-HEARTED* that burns down to the lowest hell. I already know I'm gonna die and I have to be ready for the time to come however it does and I ain't gonna be "scared" or "frightened" about it; but be about His Business 'til time's up.

I'd have some in mind if I was going to be "married" and all and follow God's Script. Yeah...

I have to be HONEST with people, cuz I'm honest foremost only with GOD and myself: I'm an ARROGANT, PRIDEFUL, HATEFUL and UNLOVABLE PERSON at heart even though I can be "lovable" at the same time in some ways. I just am lol.

I used to be "ashamed" of this fact but as the heathen say "F that!" I ain't gonna let NOBODY make me feel "bad" about ME. F that crap, shoot. I'm the one that's gotta "live with myself" and why care what someone thinks who isn't in my life? Duh? Are THEY in MY SHOES?! I don't think so!

I'm  gonna do what works for me.

Neither am I in YOUR SHOES, so what have you. I don't know your life. I don't know you, but I PRAY for you.

So, bringing this to a close, I want to change some things in my personal life and ministry of the Lord but I'm "impatient" with it. I want to "force" some things along that I think I can push.

I ain't where I what to be regardless of what anyone else thinks or feels. It's all about ME. I mean, oops, I, I, I is sorry I mean it's all about HIM! lol.

Yeah, I'll serve "God" but I gotta serve me as well. God Wins in the end anyways. I gotta watch out for "Numero Uno" I mean, God lol!

Okay, fine, whatever, I'll "reprove myself" before I give anyone else the chance to do so: to *GOD* be *HIS GLORY*. Yeah, whatever...

I haven't been "obedient to Him" cuz of my wicked PRIDE. My worst sin besides my "sin weakness" of wicked, evil thoughts and imaginations.  Yeah, people can really tell the "hatred" and "malice" they see in my wicked heart when I look them directly in the eyes in my wicked sin.

I only blink away to "save face" and avoid personal shame but even then I don't care what they think, I'll let them see my evil, devilish cold-hearted stare forever for all I care. I look away to avoid making THEM nervous and bothered; I ain't affected by my pride and wrath.

Again, I ain't gonna get all "emotional" and "cutesy" here cuz it makes me feel weak, effeminate and "silly". Find some other loser to do that stuff for you. I won't; unless I'm in the mood at it "works out" that way lol.

Sometimes if I'm in the "mood" folks see my "good, happy cheery side" but that's only if it's warranted or "earned" by them. I don't give myself fully. You have to EARN my goodness.

Call me a "bastard" I don't care. Call me every wicked "name" in the book. I don't care.

Also, another thing I got that's evil is my very, evil WICKED TONGUE I could use to inflict much personal damage and hurt on people. By His Grace I use sparingly or keep it "shut".

Whether you know it or not, I'm quite the "comedian" when I want to be. I got a lot of "good jokes".

By "good" I mean "inappropriate" and carnal the stuff that makes people really laugh whether they admit it or not. I know how to "tone it down" and "use tact" when appropriate and proper too.

In fact I had A LOT of good comedic material typed up in my computer documents I had to delete when the Lord brought me to the realization Satan was trying to use me as his Hollywood "puppet" by my desire for "acknowledgment" of achievement, power and fame in the world.

I know what's "good to say" to make folks yipper and yamper and I know what's "too far" that hits below the belt personally deep, cutting rude 'n crude to people.

It's too easy to "offend people" since most people are mostly emotional or let their "feelings" get them worked over. Not me however.

Nobody could ever tell me something at this point that would hurt me so "deeply" that I'd cringe up and die.

People who  try to use the "family and friends" angles to "get at mi feelings lol" will be rudely disappointed. That don't work on me.

I only "defend" the honour and integrity of my family and friends when people cowardly try to use them to "get to me" indirectly and "hurt me personally" in some way or fashion. They'd be sorely disappointed indeed.

You know why? I'll tell you: I may be "hurt" at the worst by somebody "talking crap" and insulting me but it doesn't bother me. ONLY a PHYSICAL ATTACK could "hurt" my person, but words and "talkin s**t" don't hurt me. I expect it. I THRIVE ON IT!

I like to insult and "belittle" people if they start stuff with me first. It's fun for me. I'd only stop if the other party is getting "weak".

In life I play "humble, quiet duck" be polite and "kind" for the most part and not "mean" when it's not warranted just to be a "jerk" and nobody at first would expect this at first unless I tell them like I am now, but if anyone dares to "try me on" and "mess with me" in public and they are strong and healthy and "look like" they can "handle this"; I only promise no "pretty sight". I fight to win but even if I "lose" I win by the DAMAGE I CREATE!Can't promise "love" or "mercy" 100% but I promise *PAIN* lol! Yeah, I promise YOUR PAIN 100%!

'Course after damage is done and all, I temporarily feel like a "a-hole" for wrecking up some dumb person taking me on who I know can't handle me and suffering the natural consequences of their stupidity and foolish decision.

I don't really get a "high" off of defeating a lower-level opponent I must beat people above my level for true self-gratification. That way I have no regrets and no restraint. I go "easy" on a lot of people cuz it'd simply be a stupid choice and utter waste of time on my part if I end up in a worthless dumb fight killing someone for nothing at the worst-case scenario.

I don't like to "think it" but I actually do and would but I have NO PROBLEM with "killing" someone. I have that "killer instinct" and I'm not ashamed of it. I'm proud of it.

As a Christian, "murder" is wrong, and even if I was a soldier in time of war, cuz I know war is coming up in the years ahead in this world with what's going on in the world. It's unavoidable unfortunately. I hate it and so many people are going to be "blindsided" so I have to do my part and "spill the beans" and way some folks up.

BLOODSHED is coming one way or another as those who know the Scriptures realize.

Lord Knows I would not have the slightest hesitation to kill off anyone I had to if given the "reason to" like if I was a solder in the U.S. military because I am personally "detached" from the effects.

Because of this, I wouldn't just "kill" anyone for "anything"; that's pretty dumb and pointless. I value life. I value human life.

No one can "test me" in the regard because I know how deep down brutal and RUTHLESS I really am when I want to: it's the AFTER-EFFECTS I'm concerned with. I don't really, ideally want to "destroy people's lives" I never would have even had anything to do with from having met them.

I don't want that on my conscience and my heart. I want to remain "pure-hearted" from shedding human blood. It's too easy to kill life. It really is.

And besides, I NEVER don't like to do something I don't ever feel "justified" in doing.

For instance, if I got in a fight with some guy I meet in day-to-day life like this group of punks I met one Wednesday night over some trivial nonsense trash-talking and I killed him in a physical fight; I'd feel "awful" I took his earthly life, especially if he was an unsaved person. It means I sent him to Hell literally, a "sin" of mine I could never really forgive myself for.

I mean, I would have no problem with "physically" taking a person's earthly life if I simply felt "justified" in doing so; it's just the actual reality KNOWLEDGE of knowing I killed an "unsaved person" who died without being saved by Christ and ending up in ETERNAL HELL as a result is the ONLY THING that would really "bother my conscience". I could get over anything else eventually over little or no time but the reality I took a life that would end up in Hell ETERNALLY is what would "haunt" me a little.

If I was in "David's shoes" when he took down Goliath with the sling shot and stone and cut his head off with a sword; I'm pretty sure I'm do some similarly with CHEER even! The only thing that would upset me is knowing this poor, lumbering, ignorant giant died unsaved with Salvation knowing Christ. That'd be the only thing to "bother my conscience" besides that I'd laugh him off as a big GIANT FOOL!

If I had the chance to kill a brutal world "dictator" out there or any "unsavory person" people hate, despise and want dead (and usually for good reason) then I'd be first in line willing to do the "killing" cuz I'm gonna feel JUSTIFIED for killing such a scumbag monster everyone else hates and wants dead anyways (whether they admit it or not; they don't have to. I know...). Might as well become the "hero" who killed off evil tyrant who made people's lives Hell and gain personal gain in the process, no? My only "first and second thoughts" would be of course if I killed an unsaved person and also the person's family and friends. I really don't want to "break the hearts" of a father and mother who had their child "killed" and taken away from them. That's an evil I take no pleasure in, really.

If I killed somebody in a serious situation it'd only be my "detached offence" that that one person dealt with me; I'm not wanting to hurt the family and friends of said person killed, but I know it's the unfortunate, no-way-around natural consequences of the actions. It ain't nothing "personal" at all coming from me of people I've never met or known but I'd expect "revenge motivations" to come from some of the family and friends of the person killed; and then I'd take it personal if they come at me trying to kill me for revenge.

In my eyes, I only dealt with someone starting mess with ME. Nothing to do with anyone else. But if folks want to "involve themselves" in my situation when I didn't do them no wrong directly to THEM then I take it personal.

I see it from their perspective I took one of their "loved ones" away as why they feel it to be "personal"; so more drama occurs until they can hopefully (for THEIR sake) kill me themselves. Not for my sake.

I don't like to hold back and take it "easy on people" when it comes to "fighting". I pardon kids and people with disabilities who can't defend themselves.

But able-bodied, strong, healthy-looking adults are fair game.

I'm good with "taking life" but I don't want to take people to Hell as a result if you get what I mean.

Ideally, obviously  of course it's not even "holy" or "pure" or "good" to "take life" cuz I'm a Christian who's supposed to be about LOVE, PEACE and all this "JOY OF THE HOLY GHOST stuff" lol Hahaha. But I could go there... I really could. I'd hate the "monster" I'd become as a result because that's not the kind of life I want but it's there. Always was and perhaps always will be...

Call it "evil" or "wicked" but I'd rather end up killing a fellow "brother" or "sister in Christ" who I know is going to Heaven than kill someone unsaved I know will end up in Hell. Sure it's a disgrace and a "dishonor" to say such a thing but it is what it is I won't "back down" from saying it. I'd "repent" feel bad but with the "knowledge of" so-and-so is in Heaven now; so I wouldn't dwell too much on it all the time.

Hey, at least I'd try to make it as "painless and quick" in my ability as possible. I don't ever get thrilled in people's suffering unless I really feel justified for good reason. Killing a fellow brother or sister in Christ I wouldn't get that; it'd have to be a quick, smooth, dispassionate kill with as less pain as possible. Perhaps "pleasure" even.

Now, ideally, truth of the matter is, as "Christians" the Lord Jesus Christ does NOT ever want any of His people to "shed blood" innocent or not in life. Jesus doesn't want Christians to "kill people" in actual physical "warfare". We wrestle not against "flesh and blood" but over "principalities, and spiritual wickedness in high places".

In this respect the proper Christian response I and other believers must take is to "humble ourselves" and we can physically defend ourselves by blocking physical hits or running away for cover but not to physically "attack back" our attackers as instincts would have us.

It is the case God wants us to "lay down own lives in perfect non-violence" so that He can be our Protector and Saviour.

Our deaths as Christians are His witnesses to those unsaved seeing His Example in the flesh to be brought to the Salvation of Jesus Christ.

I'm "okay" with someone "taking my life" cuz I know I'm going to Heaven so it doesn't personally-bother me if someone eventual kills me down the road. Just would piss me off if I'm busy doing something or interrupted lol! Just means I perhaps "F'd up God's Plan" on my life and perhaps died before my time and didn't fully accomplish His Will the Way He would of ideally liked. But I'd get over it, cuz it's not like I'd be the first on that same boat. Joining "company" lol. It just concerns me if I had ended up killing someone who "wants to live" and "fears death". I really wouldn't like to kill people with that "fearful instinct"; I have MERCY on the weak and defenseless because they are weak and defenseless; they can't fight back at someone who means them harm that can fight. They mean no harm and are no threat. I'm not that kind of pathetic "bully". In fact, I'd be first in line to "bully the bullies" that "prey" on weak targets. Not when I'm around imao...

I kind of have a "personal honor" code to these matters of life-and-death.  

Lol. I don't "fear death" folks, I fear HELL and rightfully so as any SANE THINKING HUMAN-BEING SHOULD! I simply don't want to end up in Hell when I die in my physical body.

Since Heaven and Hell exists in the "Afterlife" and a "God" exists it makes since for the reasonable, rational-thinking person to choose GOING TO HEAVEN BY FAITH ON LORD JESUS CHRIST rather than ending up in *HELL* and burning forever in tortuous, fiery wrath. You can't do NOTHIN' to "save yourself" in Hell people. It's all PAIN.

Lol. People can call me a "coward" for not wanting to end up in Hell (WITH THEM! just to "prove" their point), even though that's where I deserve to go. But in reality it's called BEING SMART you STUPID PEOPLE who think otherwise! I ain't following you poor sad suckers into the abyss. I love you enough not to wish HELL on you; I mean REAL HELL on ANYBODY. It's ETERNAL!

Can any one of our earthly, finite minds truly comprehend what "eternity" really means?! It's not "human forever" it's true "forever" that means FOREVER! NO CHANGE! NO HOPE! NOTHING YOU CAN DO TO END YOUR MISERY!

As the heathen saith, "You're F'ed!" and you really are if you end up there unfortunately.

I HATE to think and reflect over such thoughts but I make it a personal principal to live in the REALITY of life. Someone has to; at least for the "common good" of humanity.

Even the Wicked Antichrist himself condemned as he is shouldn't and wouldn't really want to "end up in the Lake of Fire".

I'm prideful as Satan (perhaps the Antichrist) himself but even I know when to "call it quits" and not to go "over my bounds" and "tempt" GOD HIMSELF.

Nobody in the Bible EVER "beat God" on ANYTHING!

Even if my own wicked heart likes to entertain the wicked thought God would "excuse" me as a precious special little snowflake, I know deep down, dust I am, am just DUST and nothing more. Who am I to "contend with God"? How could I "win against God"? lol

Only the insanity of humanity could dare think to "beat God" Creator of all... Smh.

You best believe I trusted on JESUS CHRIST the SON OF GOD for SALVATION and if anything else, if anyone reading this ends up in Hell; can be sure I'm not joining you down there.

It's already a full house down there lol. But I ain't really "laughing"; sardonic "joke" as it is. I don't "joke" about "Hell" or no; quite the contrary. I take HELL VERY SERIOUSLY more than I take HEAVEN seriously. Cuz "Hell" is all BAD NEWS!

I'll be in HEAVEN; you just make your estate Above. It's what God wants and it's really for your own skin than anything else.

Lord Jesus Christ died for us truly worthless sinners in actuality and as "prideful" as I am I must give the *GOD-MAN* His Due Credit cuz He PROVED HIS LOVE OF WHO HE IS to "worthless beings" He had nothing to prove.

All about US, not about HIM. Christ died for US; not for His Sake, but OURS.

That's the TRUE PURE GOOD HOLY SELFLESSNESS the human mind cannot even begin to fathom...

I can't understand it. I'm probably not supposed to.

How can a mortal human-being understand an "Eternal God"? It's impossible without God's Involvement to begin with.

I'll never attain or understand that here on earth; even if I become better than what I am.

I ain't going to Hell for "daddy, mommy, brother, sister" anybody, NO FAMILY OR FRIENDS. I love and will protect them to death but I ain't following anyone down to Hell. That's for sure.

You should do the same. I'll respect you more for it.

 I won't respect you if you hearing all this, go back to a life of "denial of reality" and end up in Hell for your stubborn rebellious unbelief in saying and thinking "there is no God".

Let this go in the history books: Jed Mask said, "THERE IS A GOD AND LORD JESUS CHRIST IS HIS SON!" and it is so and always was and always will be. Amen.

~ Bro. Jed 

The Ending of Year 2016: At A CROSSROADS...

Okay, okay, okay... It's been quite a while indeed since I've posted here...

Lots have been going on in my personal life and it's quite challenging to manage things well as I should but in patience things are working out. Thank God.

First of all, I hope everyone has had a great Merry Christmas in the Lord.

I know for many folks it's a "good season" but there is also a lot of pain, sorrow and personal stress of a "bad season" for many people.

People have lost loved ones during the "holiday season". People have gotten into bitter, ugly fights and arguments with family and friends. It's reality. It happens to us all.

I thank God this Christmas was more "bland" and "dull" over being overly "contentious" and festering with "ill feelings".

Christmas was "okay" for the day it was but most importantly it's celebrated by us Christians as the Day our Lord and Saviour Jesus Christ came into this world to live with humanity and eventually save us from our sins.

Thank God Lord Jesus Christ saved us. Amen!


Also, I won't really say here what I "got" for Christmas personally but I got the "best gift" of all apart from the Salvation of Lord Jesus Christ. I thank God for it. Smh... Right on time and without even thinking it to.

It's really *AMAZING* how *GOD* works things out. Nothing like having your family and loved ones back with you. Amen.

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Also... as far as "personal ministry" in the Lord is concerned I've always been minded to remain "mindful" of "soulwinning" and witnessing the Gospel of Jesus Christ (KJV 1 Corinthians 15:1-4) to all people the Lord gives me opportunity to share.

Last Tuesday, December 26, 2016 around 10:30p.m. I was walking around the local Cliff Tuttle Park outside of the local library space and gave a "Heart For The City" Christian Spanish gospel tract to an elder Hispanic man sitting on a wooden bench at the park having his "alone moment" of contemplation.

I didn't really want to "bother him" and before I went over to hand him the gospel tract I first asked the Holy Spirit closing my eyes briefly in passing by at the wooden bench table area nearby whether or not I should go to the man or man and hand him the gospel tract. Holy Spirit said "Yes, you may" and I thank God He gave me the strength to *FOLLOW THROUGH* and just *DO IT* whether the man accepted the gospel tract or not because at least I would have "closure" knowing I followed God's Will and one more soul got a chance for some "exposure" to God knowing *JESUS CHRIST*.

After that, I eventually made my way to go into the library to post articles and website links on Google Plus+ and minister and fellowship with brethren online.

Also watched some YouTube videos online of Dragonball Z and Dragonball Super for practically the whole day while also commenting...

I fell into my own "guilty pleasure" but still failed and did not do all the work I should have been doing but God still used my failure to *HIS SUCCESS*.

Anytime now I'm watching any kind of video online on YouTube I make it a "habit of strategy" to comment  interestingly about the content of the video whether it's about the places, characters, people, things; anything that is amusing, funny, informational, knowledge-imparting and I'm learning to be an "Online Fisherman for Jesus" just like Jesus told Peter, James and John He would teach them how to be "fishers of men".

See, when I'm getting involved and *ENGAGED* in the kind of hobbies, interests and activities of commenters I view online who comment on YouTube vids such as on "anime" YouTube vids; I just be me and talk and discuss about everything I'm thinking and liking because I like manga and anime myself.

I'm no "geek" into it, but I definitely love the *ARTSTYLE* and *STORYTELLING* possibilities that manga and anime open up for creative individuals.

Before I know it, someone may reply or respond to a comment I have about something on the video and depending as I read and sense the comment I receive from the commenter I could "potentially" get a chance to witness "Jesus" to someone.

For instance, I was watching a Dragon Ball Super episode about a villain named "Zamasu" who's basically like a "god-like" individual with a very twisted, self-righteous spirit of superiority of being an "immortal being" vs. "mortal beings" as in like us "human beings".

I haven't a clue the actual full plot of the story but it's a very deep, emotional saga that deals with themes of "sin" and "mortals vs. immortals". I saw many connections and opportunities where Christianity could be introduced and referenced in dealing with the life "morality topics" and subjects being discussed like how humanity should not "play God and mess with time travel" and related topics. Real deep stuff. Amen.

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Also, also on Wednesday, December 28, 2016 I only street-preached His Word (King James Version Holy Bible [KJV]) shortly as led of the Spirit on Hillsboro Street around 9:40a.m. until I got to the end of the cross street that is Kress Street on my way walking up to the library.

I only briefly held up the Bible to a few people driving by in their cars and trucks as many already seemed to "sense" I was reminding them of their consciences that continued to "reject" the Existence of God they may know in their hearts...

Lately I really haven't been called in the Spirit of the Lord to do any "serious street-preaching" and "street evangelism" lately as God has been using the days and weeks before to minister in the hearts of the people He's been trying to reach through using my vessel.

Folks know there is a God; now it's just that they have to be led into *ACCEPTANCE* as trusting on Jesus Christ as Saviour and Lord.

It's a time of rest and patience in the Lord to convict the hearts He has revealed Himself too.

Anywhere I go now in town (as has been the case ever since I've been street-preaching here) ... Walking the streets people gaze and "look over to me" in some kind of notable "awe" like "that's the black guy who's always around holding up the bible and preaching walking around".

It's like I have some kind of "unofficial" personal "fame" in the local community which is good and bad in both respects but only for the Glory of the Lord does this matter to me personally. People need to get SAVED and *LIVE FOR GOD* and not continue to look at me as some kind of "eye-gazing spectacle" for personal amusement.

My "street-preaching" might seem like silly antics" to unbelievers and unsaved folks looking from the outside-in and even "Churchian" fellow brothers and sisters in Christ who may think my street-preaching ministry is "too extreme", "primitive" or "unbiblical". "YEAH RIGHT!" I say to all my "hidden" naysayers out there who doubt God's Work in me.

I haven't been doing this stuff for "nothin'" without seeing any results for the labour: God has been GOOD to me and shown time-and-time again changed lives and people getting SAVED as a result of me taking the risk to street-preach in sometimes "hostile environments" that people would call the "ghetto".

EVERYBODY needs *JESUS* and the "Hood" is no exception.

At first I hated it here and wanted to leave ASAP and still do want to leave as soon as the Lord Leads me to go to next destination, Lord-willing; but now I've "grown" to like and appreciate my current surroundings.

God is HERE. Amen.

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I suppose now my last piece of "news" I'll mention is that yesterday night after 7:30p.m. bible study I got "terminated" from serving as an "usher" at my local church.

I no longer serve as an "usher" at my church but I will now continue to attend church service and still be of help and service to my local church community.

The reason I was terminated by my pastor is because I refused to participate in the "Nativity Scene" Christmas play Sunday Christmas morning because I was convicted of the Holy Spirit not to be in it.

Before, I "went against" my conscious telling me I should not "go along" with the play and "went along with it".

I thought it was silly and not warranted and the Spirit said not to go with it. I say nothing personally against my pastor because he is the anointed of God as the leader of the church as he even says "Christ is the Head".

That said, I kinda just "brushed on the surface" here of what happened since it's a lot more complicated to this that it first sounds initially and more folks are involved it seems even though in my refusal not to participate in this "child's play" I didn't directly have "personal beef" with other brethren though I suspect indirectly some had some "personal beef" or "conflict" with me even though I'm not personally-involved or attached to anybody at the church as I "serve, help clean and up after service and come and go about my business afterward" and am still new to the church and to everyone that regularly attends.

So... All things being said, this is a last minute deal and I have no "hard feelings" against anyone since I already knew this could happen as "worst case scenario" and since I have my own personal ministry in the Lord I'm not "attached" to the "position" I had serving at church previously since by His Grace I'm serving the Lord all throughout my life and not just in the "church building" of the congregation.


Besides this all, 2016 has been a very harrowing and tense year for me of ups-and-downs with many failures and mistakes but nothing to super disastrous I couldn't recover from in due time by the Strong Hand of the Lord.

I've been "humbled" by the Lord in how hard life is and what it takes to survive and "push through" difficult circumstances and situations. It's been hard but not impossible.

I'm excited and weary for the New Year 2017 to come to pass but I'm very cautious and "apprehensive" about this new year.

I want 2017 to be a year of *BREAKTHROUGH* of *REVIVAL* in the *CHURCH* and also my own personal life.

2017 is the year to rise up to a new level in the Lord and contend with all the enemies of our Lord.

I think I may pose a few "New Year's Resolutions" I have in the Lord concerning the Body of Christ as well as personal goals.

May God Almighty, Lord Jesus Christ be in our hearts as we make the voyage into this New Year 2017. Amen.

~ Sincerely,

Bro. Jed