"God Is Dead"

Earlier today I stopped by the local gas station in town and found on the "Lord Jesus Christ Loves You!" Christian website list card I left for someone to see and/or take the words penned by somebody that read "god is dead"...


Just makes me think of how so many people these Last Days hate and reject the Creator so much they'll say "He's Dead".

Well I have a major NEWS FLASH for such people; get this: GOD IS NOT DEAD! He's ALIVE, ALIVE, ALIVE!!!!

And if you're being wise I suggest you "get with the Program" before The Rapture happens or else, I'm afraid you'll see just "how alive" God is when He judges this world for sin and evil.

Oh yeah, you'll know "God is alive and living indeed".

I beg you not to have to learn the "hard way" if YOU even get to live to see the horrible Tribulation Period that is...

~ Sincerely,

Bro. Jed

Mute Day Street Preaching

Today at 9:28a.m. I felt led of the Lord to go do some "witnessing" of the Word to people driving by or passing by on Kohnke Hill Road here in Hammond, LA on my way to church this morning.

It was a quiet, "desolate-looking day" with many people still at home and cars in the garages or parked outside.

I kept on walking on my way and held up the Bible slowly and securely to the drivers I met on the road as I walked on the side of the road but I got mostly a "cold reception" from people either wanting to ignore seeing me and being reminded about "God" ultimately.

People have really turned their backs on God and don't want to even "think of His Existence". It's frightening...

Also, "church problems aside" it's still really NO EXCUSE for many Christians to refuse to come to church on Sunday mornings.

That's really becoming the main "crux" of the  problem in my opinion these days.

It's expected for "unbelievers" to not know God and go to church but it's really a SERIOUS PROBLEM when many professed believers know the Lord and still refuse to go to church on Sundays.

THAT NEEDS TO CHANGE SOONER THAN LATER... 

Anyways I kept on witnessing holding the Word up to a few people I met at the intersection of Kohnke Hill Road-Patti Road still walking on up Kohnke Hill Road to church. 

A white lady in her truck saw me, smiled and waved her hand as she drove her way down the connect road of Greco Road continuing from Patti Road. 

I only hope she like all others the Lord has given me the privilege and opportunity to witness to that she is at least a born again believer of the Lord Jesus Christ and if not that she will turn her heart over to believe Jesus Christ is the Son of God for her Eternal Salvation. 

Otherwise if she is already a sister in Christ I hope she like all others will TURN TO GOD and FOLLOW HIS WILL FOR OUR LIVES like "going to church" on Sundays. 

At 9:48 I was walking down the "T.C. Myrtle Driveway" leading into the church grounds of "Shekinah Park" at College Town Missionary Baptist Church.

From that point on I realized let's just make NO EXCUSES and do what's required of us TO GOD...

It's not always "easy" and is often hard but it's DOABLE and MUST BE DONE IN THE END FOR ALL OUR BEST INTERESTS. Amen. 

~ Sincerely, 

Bro. Jed

Are You In "God's Army"?

Hello all...

It's been a while. Been a while...

Two days ago I was out with family doing some "4th of July" barbecue feast grocery shopping and I wore my GOD'S ARMY black cap on my head as we went into Walmart, Dollar Tree, Winn-Dixie, Dirt Cheap and The Home Depot all here in Hammond, Louisiana.


As I wore my "Christian-themed black cap" on my head many people gave me a "second look" through the public "social veil" they wear on their faces when putting on a "good face" in public like we all do.

However, since I'm a strong, young Christian black man endued with the Holy Spirit of God and know His Ways and His Word I know how to carry myself as a man as God intends so a lot of people; especially REBELLIOUS WOMEN don't like that. And that's a PROBLEM because I do my best to be a GOOD STRONG MAN who knows what God expects of me and in good courtesy I would like to think GOOD women not "trashy" would appreciate the goods a GOOD MAN OF GOD brings to the table in society in terms of leadership, protection, provision and VISION.

As much as Western women in the world love to wickedly COMPLAIN about the "lack of good men" in society I truly doubt they even try to recognize and FAIL TO APPRECIATE the few actual real GOOD MEN in society when they are around... Because from what I've seen in my personal experience most Western women are "stuck-up", self-centered GODLESS, HEATHEN rebellious, disobedient JEZEBELS who are so "uppity" and ARROGANT in their truly ignorant ignorance about how life actually works and the way GOD intends the relations between men and women on earth!

Yeah, nobody is "perfect" (like you) but don't "beat down" and "disrespect" the few GOOD MEN around that are actually keeping society "still going" from imploding on itself because God will judge a GODLESS, HEATHEN WICKED NATION that America has become!

Hey, the MAJORITY of young  Black American men in America and Western Society already have a bad rap and STIGMA about them so as a young black man in society a lot of people don't really "respect" or "take me seriously" in public as they should in MY CASE. They especially should and if they won't they will suffer the "downfall" as a result...

That's what really bothers, upsets and angers me deep down: I'm not at all like those "thug niggoz" people like to stereotype most Black American men as; and the thing is as much as I try to put forth a "good example and role model" for how young Black American men should behave and conduct themselves to the best of MY INDIVIDUAL POSITION I'll always be "denigrated" and "disrespected" by many people because it never helps that many of young black men in America my peers are just giving ALL black men a "bad name" by their stupid ignorant actions and behaviours we see in society and the TV news!

I wish I could say "it doesn't matter" but IT DOES MATTER because the actions a wicked group of black men does looks bad on ALL BLACK MEN ON A WHOLE in society's eyes. And the thing is society is RIGHT! It makes ME LOOK BAD when I've done nothing wrong at all and that's what hurts.

But like I've learned in life about the "good 'n evil" there is always a REMNANT of "the good" left over from the filth. I apply that to all areas and peoples of life.

I only hope and pray many people in society can have the wisdom of discernment to tell the "good black men" from the "bad black men".

Which leads me to the "sistahs" AKA the "Black American Women"...

Now a lot of Black American women have truly horrible BAD ATTITUDES and NASTY PERSONALITIES that many people don't want to deal with or be around; like me for instance.

Now this is a "deep-seeded issue" because a lot of these BITTER, ANGRY, "MAD BLACK WOMEN" are JADED deep-down because some "niggot" in their lives either knocked them up with a buttload of kids or did them wrong any kind of way.

I never turn a "blind eye" to the wicked actions of many Black American Men who do Black American Women WRONG and in turn the black women become all BITTER, MEAN, ANGRY and NEGATIVE all the time towards ALL BLACK MEN as a result!

One bad apple spoils the bunch.

It's like I'm just "walking into the store" and the "collective mean stares" of bitter, angry, negative Black American Women just "zone in" on me out of either "hatred", "angst", "resentment" or "retaliation" like I "did them wrong" when I never ever even met or KNOW these women in the first place lol Smh... And they just want to HATE ON ME FOR NO GOOD REASON!

Like, what the heck?!

Grow the "f" up as the world says...

I didn't "knock you up" with your out-of-wedlock bastard kids who keep looking at me like "I'm their daddy" 'cause they don't got no real live MAN INFLUENCE in their "female-dominated" spiritually-dead households!

You need to go take your MISPLACED ANGER where it belongs: at THE MAN who did you wrong; not on the whole world of Black American men, okay? It's just STUPID. It makes you look PATHETIC, okay.

As world says, "deal with your s-h-I-t. Deal with your s-h-I-t". I didn't make it. You and/or that "niggot" you hate so much you use me as a "scapecoat" to hate on all men but the ones who directly did you wrong. You do wrong to "hate on people" who you don't even know and frankly wouldn't even want to know you by how you just live such a pathetic life of hatred, negativity and IGNORANCE.

Because Bro. Jed Mask don't surround himself with lame, NEGATIVE, hateful MISERABLE people who "put their problems" on other people instead of "dealing with their own s-h-I-t".

Everybody says "man up". Well, okay; how about WOMAN UP as well then, huh?

Works both ways.

"Equality" too much, eh? Yeah, it don't work that way...



Anyways, as a strong young black man full of the Holy Spirit of God I walked in and shopped with my family LEADING FROM THE FRONT doing my best to behave the PROPER WAY men should and I tell you many, godless REBELLIOUS heathen females don't like the LEADERSHIP and AUTHORITY of being in natural submission to a man the way GOD INTENDED. READ THE BIBLE if you "think" I'm making "bullcrap". Many people won't even read a Scripture verse before they try to lamely "disprove" a point I make when they "got issue with it" or "me" ultimately.

Anyways, I'm cool, calm and collected just trying to have a good time out with my family and enjoy some family time this 4th of July holiday.

A lot of the black women I saw in the stores I mentioned earlier either were "put in check" to realize that yes there does exist some "good black men" out there that are CHRISTIAN and responsible and are good citizens. They do exist.

Now the FLIP SIDE of that is that when black women actually do come in contact with good Christian black men many of these same black women depending on whether or not they are "believers" are "unbelievers" are still in a personal state of REBELLION and DISOBEDIENCE because they are too "prideful" as "strong, independent I-don't-need-no-man nonsense" BAD ATTITUDE that they think it's WEAK and SHAMEFUL for a "black woman" to SUBMIT to a "black man" because they think it's a "low social status move of weakness.

Black women must learn how to LET GO of their emotional turmoil from about other people and learn how to TREAT THE GOOD BLACK MEN RIGHT when they come across or into their lives: because if you don't and GENIUENLY then some other women will and they will be "taken" FOR GOOD. That's how life works.

Let me tell you the REAL TRUTH: the REAL LOW STATUS MOVE OF WEAKNESS is MAD BLACK WOMEN'S SHAMEFUL REFUSAL to SUBMIT TO BLACK MEN! That's the true "weakness" whether you like or accept it or not.

Also, when I was working at Ashley Furniture HomeStore in Ponchatoula, Louisiana I knew a group of four black women who drove in a truck to the back dock to pick up their furniture merchandise and they had NO MEN around who could of helped them load up the furniture piece in the back of the truck.

Needless to say I saw what was coming and TOOK INITIATIVE as the only black man around who saw what was happening and to keep things running smoothly for all the guys working in the warehouse: I went over and "communicated" with these black women and got them set up and told them their load was coming in a while so they could just "take it easy" and wait a while. And I went back to my work to finish something up real quick.

I kept "making glances" over at the group of black women talking to each other and one or two would notice me looking back at them but with "unfriendly" "what you lookin' at? bad attitude kind-of-looks" and I was only looking at them in a "casual glance" just keeping track of when the guys with the furniture showed up so I could help them load upthe truck.

Every time I'm around most black women it's like I have to "keep my guard up" because they always have some kind of "anger, resentment and bitterness" against me as a black man even when I'm doing my best to be kind, polite and respectful to them I always get "rubbed the wrong way" by them.

So my co-workers, two older white men show up to help load the sofa for these women as I the only "black man" around officiated the social dynamics of helping an all-black female group out with the "heavy-lifting".

When all was said and done one of my white man co-workers said "Ok, that there is loaded in good. You don't even need to strap it. Do y'all have help to unload it at home...?" and I don't think any of my two white men co-workers I was working with wanted to be bothered doing business further with these black women because we all knew the answer (and as white men they weren't likely going to say it to my face right there in public but probably think and say it to themselves in private): these bad attitude, loud and rebellious black women "rogue females" are most likely a "pain in the behind" to live with on a daily basis which is why no "black man" or "any man in general" is around in their lives to help them because they don't and aren't going to put up with the bad attitudes and personal crap. I know I wouldn't. I don't.

My fellow white men co-workers even "subtly acknowledged" me saying "thank you" in quite whispers to me for helping them out with dealing with a group of black females in the situation to which I said "Oh yeah..." and nothing further everything being "understood" on the "subconscious level".

Was glad when they finally left after I helped loading up. I don't need that negative, "dysfunctional energy" in my daily life. Nor do I want it. I'd rather be ALONE.

As a CHRISTIAN I am COMMANDED to LOVE ALL PEOPLE but that doesn't mean I have to always "live around" them or "be around" them in daily life. Just love and "get along" and if can't "get along" or "communicate" I continue to "keep distance to self " and stay to my own personal business is how I roll.

But the real "silver lining" in the end was when the ELDER black woman of the group, most likely the mama, grandma, aunt, great aunt or somebody looked at the older white men and thanked them for their service but then looked to me with a "repentant humble smile" of appreciation having realized as the only black man around to help them I "dealt with them" enough and actually helped them out when I could have EASILY avoided dealing with them in the first place if I so wanted. Nobody would of known or really cared but God if I only took Him to account on that.

The "oldest woman" AKA the "elder grandma-like figure" of the bunch seemed to acknowledge my "goodwill" in the end towards them and did tell me a kind "Thank you" which I'll say makes up for the awful "behaviour" of the group. 

It always comes down to the oldest the ELDER knowing what's really right to do in the end... Good deal.

I just nodded my head "Yes" and said "Thanks, hope y'all have a good evening" and as soon as they walked to get back into the truck I was walking my own way back to work to get out of their sight and be out of sight from anyone else at that moment.

I can only say I hope that group of four black women were able to unload that heavy furniture sofa piece together or they got help because as soon as they left if all they were gonna have towards me was NEGATIVE, "unfriendly" UGLY "mean-looking" faces at the man who made sure they got help; I was glad them left.

I'll be willing to "help people" but just don't expect my "social company" in your lives if I'm only disrespected and HATED: I'd rather be alone than waste my time with haters and LOSERS.

I'll make it short because I hate rambling even though I like writing: no GOOD BLACK MAN will stress himself to death to try to "live with" a STUBBORN, HARDHEADED, HATEFUL, BAD ATTIDUDE, NASTY MAD BLACK WOMAN who DOESN'T KNOW HER PLACE and HER ROLE in Black American Society and society at large.

Let these words sink deep in your ears for YOUR OWN SAKE; not "mine": KNOW YOUR ROLE and KNOW. YOUR. PLACE!

Whether you "like it" or "not". Amen.


Also, many women of other races besides just the black women I've focused on gave me similar "looks" of "Oh gosh, he must be some kind of religious, extremist, oppressive woman ruler Christian guy" or some ignorant nonsense they don't really understand.

Whatever the "looks" I got from females in public I perceive in my GUT INSTINCTS it wasn't all "pretty".

If I didn't "come-out-of-the-closet" as a Christian wearing my Christian cap in secular heathenistic public declaring my "stance" on life and just acted like a "regular" worldly, thuggish or "gangsta rap niggot" pop culture image of young Western Black American men a lot of these same woman's mean-looking, or "resentful, angsty, pouty-looking" grimaces on their faces would be turned to flirtatious smiles of lust and intrigue: a "catch 22" experience...

I know how to be that "thug gangsta black Chad" AKA the "Tyrone" worldly women want. But...

I'm not gonna "stoop down" to some low class, low level, heathen man with no moral standards and principals for living life: go find some "accommodating" godless loser so you can both live lame, wicked lives of heathendom together who will "go along" with your crazy ways because NO GOOD REAL MAN WILL CONTINUE TO TOLERATE AND PUT UP WITH UNWARRANTED BAD BEHAVIOUR FROM FEMALES! Not forever! He'll LEAVE eventually or "distance himself" to the point you "get the message" and "understand" he doesn't want to "be with you" or "around you" because you are such a pathetic, lame, miserable negative person who poisons the social atmosphere of an otherwise good day. Yeah, no STRONG "good man" will stick around forever. A WEAK "good man" might, but even he might be "pushed too far" and do something that would harm or kill you in retaliation for his relational abuse. You see the news on TV enough to "get this picture"...

Many times people CAUSE THEIR OWN HURT, PAIN, DESTRUCTION AND DEATH in the end. It's not "other people's fault"; it's YOUR FAULT and until YOU TAKE RESPONSIBILITY for YOUR ACTIONS and YOUR CHOICES in YOUR LIFE you'll always be MISERABLE & ALONE blaming other people like the LOSER YOU CHOSE TO BE. That's how life works: YOU MAKE YOUR CHOICES and whether you like it or not YOU LIVE WITH THEM.

Just look at me for example: I could be your typical, stereotypical black "niggot" thug most people think young black men are because unfortunately most young black men in Western society are NOT "good role models" on being a "good man and citizen" in Western Society but EXCEPTIONS like MYSELF always exist! It's like that for EVERYONE. But black men in America and society at large are perceived as violent dangerous threats to society because many black men unfortunately continue to want to "fit that category".

I'm wise enough to take people at a "case-by-case" basis even though I may have my "preconceived thoughts" of what kind of person they are even though I haven't really gotten to know them.

We all JUDGE in life. It's part of human SIN nature; but it's not the defining marker of who we are as people: it's how WE CHOOSE TO SEE AND TREAT OTHER PEOPLE that SEPARATES the "good from the bad" the "class from the trash" and we're seeing it ever more so as this world goes further into turmoil and chaos before the Rapture of the Church and the Rise of Power of the Antichrist.


Also, the "men" I meant in public either gave my looks and/or gestures of "respect" and/or "understanding" whether they agreed with the "beliefs" I hold as a Christian or not a lot of guys seemed to at least "respect my choice of values" in life; because MEN in the "instinctual sense" seem to "universally-recognize" we "choose our own path".

Yet many men are unsaved, godless heathens in American society today unfortunately... It's a shame. A real shame...

Anyways I remember passing by a group of mostly young adult black people around my peer age group of early twenties and so forth: it's a mixed group of guys and girls talking to each other. I pass by walking smooth in my cool strong stride and they catch a "look" at my black Christian hat titled "God's Army" and instinctually from what I saw on their faces and body language they got the message I must be a real "serious Bible believer or "bible thumper" many unsaved worldly people like to "typecast" Christians as.

Anyways, not try trying to "poke fun" but they got all their color-dyed hair and liberal cultured modern pop culture clothing style images going and to me from a "biblical lens" they looked like "modern-day Sodom & Gomorrah" in my honest personal opinion lol. Smh... With all these nose, tongue piercings, crazy tattoos and wacky color-dyed hairstyles lookin' like MODERN-DAY SAVAGES lol. But I'm just sayin'...

Yeah, those "black women" of the group got "awfully close back to their male counterparts of shared "heathen living cultural lifestyle values" because at this point in my life if I PERSONALLY was to "get serious" about marrying a woman as wife she would have to be a VIRGIN and a CHRISTIAN like me: EQUALLY YOKED IN SPIRIT AND GOD-WILLED PURPOSE.

It's on purpose.

I can't "take a chance" and marry some "rebellious she-devil woman just 'cause she "look fine" or some other young, dumb youthful nonsense reasons I used to have when I was a "kid" growing up to being a MAN. Those days are over... I don't want to "backtrack" into ignorance and stupidity.

I don't go to clubs, hang out at bars and no "nightlife" nonsense. I only go to work and church. Work and church and stay around family. That's it and that's all I want if I'm not actively doing Christian ministry work led by the Holy Spirit.

ALL MY TIME must be DEVOTED to GOD and HIS WILL because SO MANY CHRISTIANS just DO NOT CARE about DOING ANYTHING FOR GOD ANYMORE: they won't even go to "church" in respect TO GOD regardless of the "social church politics" that go on that I hate as well but I don't really go to church for the "people" per se' but just to hear the preacher or pastor PREACH the WORD OF GOD.

Many people in church will only "screw you around", gossip, stab you in the back and try to USE YOU if you have your guard down and let them.

I don't have time for that "circus" of foolishness: I do church  "better" all by myself in my own walk with the Lord and in this online Christian ministry I do here on the internet than to fool with that mess.

I really don't get much from "church attendance" other than the fellowship with live human-beings who I hope are also truly Holy Ghost "born again believers" as myself but I mostly go there to be a "personal witness example" of what a more "committed Christian" looks like IN ACTION. That's me. I ain't perfect but I DO MY BEST. That right there eliminates many lukewarm, uncommitted, worldly, carnal Christians we see today: NO VISION, PURPOSE and NO POWER OF TRUTH in their personal daily lives.

I don't know about you but I want to be EXCEPTIONAL; the one out of the "usual" who did his best to take a STAND FOR GOD and did not let haters and "naysayers" hold me back from stepping into all I can do FOR GOD and HIS GLORY.

It's SCARY to be EXTRAORDINARY. It's "expected" to be ORDINARY.

Well I'm not an "ordinary person". My life was never "fated" that way it seems. So I'll go ALL OUT and be EXTRAORDINARY and let people say whatever good or bad they'll say about me because people will ALWAYS TALK ABOUT YOU NO MATTER WHAT YOU DO.

I just won't let nobody sabotage me for BEING MY BEST FOR GOD BY HIS GRACE.

May you ENLIST in GOD'S ARMY my brethren in Christ!

KJV 2 Timothy 2:3-4,

3 Thou therefore endure hardness, as a good soldier of Jesus Christ.

4 No man that warreth entangleth himself with the affairs of this life; that he may please him who hath chosen him to be a soldier.

__________________________________

Amen!

~ Sincerely,

Bro. Jed

Staying Faithful Unto THE END...

It's been quite a while since I've posted back here on the ole "blog"...

Well, life's been busy and so has the Ministry.


From where I last left off I finally had to "leave a church" I had dedicated myself to supporting anyway I thought I could help but it was time to move on after I perceived the "comfortable status quo" of the church didn't want any "outside inertia".

Wherever I go "good" or "bad" but mostly "good" I make an IMPACT for Christ.

Today I was led of the Lord to go street-preaching walking on up Kohnke Hill Road from around 9:20a.m. on my way to church.

I walked on my left side of the roadside with vehicles approaching me facing forward.

It was a very quiet morning for the most part: most people were inside or I saw people's cars and trucks parked outside or in their garages.

When I walked to a "Stop" sign with my bible in hand I saw a white father and his daughter driving up to the "Stop sign" on the other side of the road when I was "prepared" to meet them and held up my bible to the man and did my best to make "personal eye contact" with him even as I noticed he had his black sunshades on.

He saw me and gave a "friendly" "I know..." smile and "wave hello" with his hand as he drove on his way with his daughter in tow.

I get it; nothing further... So long as people know there is a *GOD* they ultimately need to TURN TO.

A lot of black women driving by in their cars and trucks be "noticin'" me but I "wonder" why they be in such a rush to go somewhere on Sunday mornings instead of *GOING TO CHURCH*?!

And then they have nerve to be "looking all crazy" at me street-preaching and witnessing with a Bible in my hands when they want even seek after God and go to church themselves... They need to CHANGE. Smh...

As ARROGANT and PRIDEFUL this may sound... at this point in my life thus far NOBOBY can tell me NOTHING we they themselves don't care and do even want to care about "following after God" and "going to church". Period. It's sad to say but it's the truth...

I'm not so "disappointed" with unsaved unbelievers but *CHRISTIANS* people who KNOW GOD and ARE SAVED are NOT OBEYING AND SERVING GOD LIKE THEY SHOULD!

It's alright to have your lil' "internet faith" in it's own time but WHY are the churches empty y'all?!

I get it's mostly a bunch of "old people" resorting in churches these days AKA "the elders"; but "church problems" and all is still *NO EXCUSE* for Christians not to be attending the House of God. Period.

In fact, the church I've been going to since last month is just a handful of elderly brethren and me being the "young'un" of the bunch at the ripe, young age of 24. It's literally UNDER 10 of us in weekly church attendance...

Now there are "problems" and "dysfunctional problems" going on that need to be addressed by the church leadership but I go to this church I'm going to because the current elderly pastor at least truly PREACHES THE WORD OF GOD according to the BIBLICAL DOCTRINE OF CHRIST.

As long as the Word of God is correctly and properly taught even I can "tolerate" anything less than "ideal"...

Even so, I've found 2018 to be the "Year of The Shift" in society and the church.

Okay, but getting back on track to the "street-witnessing" I kept on walking up Kohnke Hill Road still "gesturing friendly understanding" body language hand signs with my bible to people I encounter passing me by.

One older black man in his truck who was about to "pass me up" suddenly "stopped" and backed up to ask me if I needed a ride somewhere to which I replied "Oh no. Thanks for the consideration but I'm almost there to church. May you have a 'blessed day'..." and he just as soon put back in gear to "drive off" forward going his way.

Well, I woulda went further but I don't "impose" myself on people who don't want to hear anything about God, Jesus or the Bible against their will in their "personal time" but if they be out in "public" and the Lord bids me to street-preach they can either see or look away: I'm preaching and witnessing the Word of God regardless. Amen!

So by the time I go to church and stopped street-preaching was by 9:35a.m.

The church I've been attending lately is called "College Town Missionary Baptist Church" here in Hammond, Louisiana.


Today we had a guest pastor from Antioch Missionary Baptist Church in Bogalusa, Louisiana to preach for us today. "Bro. J" I'll call him...

Anyways, so he preached and overall it was good message and theme on "staying faithful to God's Word" when so many people; "Christians" I'm talking about mostly have "fallen away from going to church or doing much of anything of real service to God" in their lives.

It's A LOT of people out there, really.


After church we had a nice lil' "luncheon" prepared from our church home pastor elder "Bro. R" I'll call him. And it was a neat little time before we got ready to go home for the day...


So a lot's been going on but regardless of what happens in my personal life and circumstances I'm doing my best by the Spirit of God to STAY FAITHFUL UNTO THE END.


There's SO MUCH I want to do but haven't yet in the Ministry. It's all on *GOD'S TIMING* and *HIS WILL* really if it'll all happen.

In fact it's been on my heart to at least PLANT AND FOUND A CHURCH whether I be "pastor" of a church or not; I'm working towards at least being about to PLANT and FOUND a CHURCH by the GRACE OF GOD under my leadership to ensure "adaptation to The Times" that be.

I don't "compromise" God's Word for any reasons and I'm not about "appealing to the flesh" but to the Spirit.

But even so, as the elder generations "pass on" for those of my "Millennial generation" alive and living in these End Times; it's ultimately up to US to ensure the "future generations of people" coming up after us; such as "kids" these days grow up to know about GOD, the WORD OF GOD and the LORD JESUS CHRIST. Amen.

Now, just "tossing out thoughts here" I'm a bit "scatter-brained" as I type this post but I'll be "developing on these thoughts" going forward into the future, Lord-willing.


Until then: *STAY FAITHFUL UNTO GOD*!

Amen!

~ Sincerely,

Bro. Jed

My "Dirty Little Secret"...

Hello all...

A lot's on my chest lately.

I don't "talk to people what's on my mind" because I don't see the point if no one would help me: only GOD is my "Real Help" if you get what I mean.

Therefore I'm gonna try to keep this "short 'n brief" but not really lol.


Since a few years ago really starting in 2013 the Lord Jesus Christ by His Holy Spirit began to use my in street-preaching ministry since then to this point.

I've learned and grown ever since "maturing" as a born again believer. Now at "this point":

Church attendance.

I have many "dirty little secrets" but I like to think this is an "open one": as a "street preacher".

Regardless of what my family, friends and even "fellow Christians" may disagree with it; this work is of the Lord: I'm not just "doing this for show" for people to have that woefully *WRONG* impression of me.

That's not why I'm doing it "for attention" lol. Like I can't get "attention" a myriad of other ways.

Besides, like I "crave other people's attention"?!

If anything I *CRAVE THEIR MONEY* and things they got I don't have. Could "care less" for their "attention" if it ain't "benefiting me". That's my lil' "covetous sin" right there lol. But my *PRIDE SIN* doesn't take satisfaction in something I can't claim completely MY OWN so that's why I don't "take things from other people" that's not mine in the first place. I want MY OWN STUFF fair 'n square in life.

That said, my "dirty little secret" I'll reveal in this post is: what people really think of me but too *COWARDLY* to *ADMIT TO MY FACE*!

I don't "care" what people think of me since it's already in disguised deflected self-contempt anyways.

Here's the deal: a lot of "Christians" my "brethren" don't "approve" of my "going soulwinning and street-preaching" because they don't want me to "give the wrong impression" to the world as a "lunatic religious nutcase 'Christian' the world already labels Christians anyways but these "lukewarm Christians my brethren" take offense because they WRONGLY think I'm uh... "too extreme" holding up a Bible in my hands out on the roadsides in the public.

Lord Knows, it sounds even SELF-RIGHTEOUS for me to say it but I'm sure there's some truth to it: that if it wasn't for God using me to witness His Word to people on the streets; most these people my lukewarm brethren in the Church House "pretend like" they want to invite more people into Church "fulfilling the Great Commission"; wouldn't even have more people even "interested" or "thoughtful" of "going to church" IF IT WASN'T FOR ME IN THE FIRST PLACE!

I can almost bet "it was because of ME street-preaching" some churches *INDIRECTLY* got more church membership! THAT'S RIGHT! Because of what I'M DOING OUT here; not that sorry, sad "DEAD CHURCH" where it's so "tribal" that the only people who feel like they really belong are the "regulars" who've attended that church for a long time. That's why nobody NEW is "showing up" to church anyways... Just "regular members". NO GROWTH! Just DEAD!

It shouldn't really be that way in the CHURCH OF GOD: anybody who steps foot in a Christian Church should be able to "walk in" and feel "invited" as though they've always been there their whole lives to begin with.

I'm not sorry to say that's how I've been "treated lately" in my church attendance.

I hear all this "talk" about "faith and living for God" but as the "heathen saying goes" when the "poop hits the fan" only a FEW can really WALK THAT WALK OF FAITH and MEAN IT...

Everyone else blurts out "false promises".

I can tell when people "don't want my presence". It's obvious. I only "act" like I don't know; but I always do.

So here's the deal; I'm not really "bothering you" to begin with but the reason you get "uneasy" and "nervous" around me as a "true minister" of the "True Word of God" and the "True Gospel of God" is because "deep down" you know you are a *FAKE, FALSE "COUNTERFEIT"* who can but does not want to "repent" and "change your ways" to truly "follow after *GOD'S STYLE*!"

You do things the easy "worldly, people-pleasing way" instead of the REAL HARD WAY of being a *GOD-PLEASER* and NOT a "manpleaser".

You preach wicked "NIV" and I preach God's Inspired and PRESERVED WORD in the KJV!

You preach only "indoors" among the flock; I preach INDOORS AND ESPECIALLY OUT FOR THE WHOLE WORLD TO SEE AND HEAR!

"'Cause if there's one thing I've learned about people it's this: you can't please people all of the time and neither should you. A Christian should *ALWAYS PLEASE GOD FIRST OF ANYTHING OR ANYBODY ELSE* because ONLY GOD CAN MAKE AND BREAK YOU!

It is *SCARY* at times but I've learned *I'M WEAK* and so are *ALL PEOPLE*: Only *GOD* is the *STRONG ONE* Who can't be "defeated".

As long as I'm on *GOD'S SIDE* the whole world can be *AGAINST ME* yet me and *GOD* will *ALWAYS WIN TOGETHER* suckers! :P

If I'm just on "Jed's side" it's only a matter of time until I be "defeated"... But I can't lose on *GOD'S SIDE*!

Many Christians need to truly jump on Ship of *GOD'S SIDE* in their lives and *NOT THE WORLD'S SIDE*.

Now I'm not "attacking" or "demeaning" my brethren especially in church leadership out of "petty personal spite": I'm *BRINGING THE BEST OUT OF YOU*.

God will "tell you what you need to do" as He always does but sometimes a person needs to hear a person in the real world flesh to really "speak" what God tells you "privately at home" with no one to confront or call you out on your HYPOCRISY.

I'm not "perfect" myself but I WANT TO BE PERFECT: I already know" I'm imperfect but I want to be a WILLING MIND TO IMPROVE AND DO BETTER and not make "excuses" for my own personal shortcomings and failures to "mask my real problems and issues".

I *LOVE YOU ENOUGH* to *TELL YOU THE TRUTH* to *ENCOURAGE YOU TO RISK IT ALL FOR THIS ONE AND ONLY EARTHLY LIFE TO DO YOUR ABSOLUTE BEST FOR GOD IN HIS SPIRIT WHILE YOU REMAIN ON THIS EARTH*.

Because that's what I'd what somebody to do for me.

Now, I'll always be "friends" and "kindly" to people who don't want to go AS DEEP AS I WANT TO GO in the Faith of Christ but just 'cause you get "uncomfortable" in my Spirit-led growth and self-evident "display" of my witness in Christ you take "offense" because you want a "comfortable, painless Christian Life experience" where God won't "take you out of your comfort zone and will afflict you with trials and tests in your life to be a testimony to people in your life for God's Glory.

I know this because I've tried to "avoid" the "painful tests of God" in my life and try to "skip over the hard stuff" but you will always be a "babe in Christ" if you don't learn how to chew on some MEAT eventually...

Life is HARD because life is meant to TEST YOU for GOD'S GLORY!

So what I'm saying is, if you are a fellow Christian, brother or sister in Christ who is "offended at me personally" for my street-preaching ministry I go far to dare say you are *OFFENDED AT GOD* because I "street-preach" solely by the *SPIRIT OF GOD*!

You'd be offended at JESUS out in the public "preaching the Word" and wouldn't think of it like that.

Just me "waving a Bible" doesn't "affect people" by itself without the WORKING OF HOLY SPIRIT!

GET RIGHT WITH GOD YE CARNAL, LUKEWARM, COMPLACENT, INDIFFERENT CHRISTIANS and start *SERVING THE LORD WITH ZEAL AND RIGOUR!*

Hot or NOT but "lukewarm" is NOT AN OPTION IN GOD'S EYES!

If you don't want me around in your "church" "thanks for the lame love" which didn't mean nothing anyway.

I have a heart of *STEEL*. People's "lame opinions" about me don't matter because it's not built on "substance"; but mere cowardly *CONTEMPT*.

I respect my enemies that are gutsy enough  to SAY TO MY FACE they "hate me" but I don't respect my "cowardly enemy types" that plot to "stab me behind my back" than "confront me head-on 'cause they know they'll most likely LOSE anyways lol...

If you "hate me" and you're a Christian you know that's a "sin" lol. Just as it's a SIN for me to "hate" anyone.

I don't know about "you" but as FOR ME and MY HOUSE, we will SERVE THE LORD and not "Belial" or the Devil, SATAN himself!

What fellowship has "Light" with "darkness"? What "concord" hath Christ with "Belial"?

As long as there are a few "bright" soulwinning, King James Bible-believing Christians on earth before the Rapture there will ALWAYS be constant FRICTION between the works of Good vs. Evil. And GOOD shall PREVAIL and *EVIL* shall *FAIL*!

I won't quit "being my best" as a Christian led of the Spirit just 'cause it makes other believers "uncomfortable", "resentful" and "guilty" for being "lazy deadbeats" in the Cause of Christ.

In fact, just because I know it "angers you" makes me want to DO IT THE MORE!

Like pop star rapper Ms. "Nicki Minaj" once said, "My haters be my greatest motivators!"

Even if not just for "God" I live just to ANGER and UPSET my BIGGEST HATERS out there lol.

I just THRIVE ON THE "HATERADE" lol!

I don't want to give you ANY "satisfaction".

WIN AND DIE is my life motto not "win" or "die" I WIN TO DIE to this world and LIVE FOR THE ONE TO COME!

Therefore, I'll CUT OFF all "ties" that don't want to be tied: I'll leave when it's time and MOVE ON.

I'll always be willing to be friends so long as YOU BE WILLING TO WANT ME TO BE YOUR FRIEND that is.

That said, "no Love lost".

Whenever you "serious" about serving God it's easy for you and I to be in touch.

Until then, I can't afford to "waste time" with people who aren't serious for the "Things of God" by GOD'S WAY that is...

Worship and SERVE GOD the Way HE WANTS TO BE SERVED AND WORSHIPPED.

It's a continual lesson I'll forever be learning...

Anything else is a WASTE OF TIME and I'm too "selfish" to WASTE MY TIME ON THINGS AND PEOPLE WHO SUBTRACT AND DON'T ADD TO MY LIFE.

I'm about "adding to people's lives" and not "subtracting". Otherwise I wouldn't care to "bother". I can 'do bad all by myself'.

I have MANY brethren and people out there who would love my help, presence and encouragement (and would "appreciate it"): it's a disservice for them to "commit" to people who don't really care for me to be around in the first place. Though I'm sure not "everyone" feels the same but even so I feel God "leading me elsewhere" to do His Will...

In this world I'mma *COLD-BLOODED KILLER FOR CHRIST'S SAKE* but I "wrestle not against "physical flesh 'n blood" but against the "hidden spiritual powers of darkness and SIN".

As a Spirit-led born again Christian I must *KILL SIN* everywhere I encounter it in me and in life by the Spirit of God and the Word of God.

May you wage a good "warfare" fellow good soldier of Christ.

Amen...

~ Sincerely,

Bro. Jed

Perilous Times 2017: The Days Ahead...

... It's been a few months since I've gotten back to "posting" here on this blog.

So much of LIFE has transpired off-screen.

I've moved back to Louisiana state now as a new "transition" of my life thus far.

I've never stopped doing my best by His Grace to serve the Lord and accomplish His Will and Lord-willing will continue to do so with my brethren.

I had been working a new job, going through personal family conflicts and strife; witnessing the Gospel by all means and opportunities the Lord has given me during my last leg of living in Houston, Texas.

I have SUCCEEDED and FAILED but haven't stopped serving the Lord regardless...

Been backslidden in sin. Feeling bad after "coming out" and "getting right with God".

Reading Christian books; being humbled by the Lord of His Sweet Tender MERCY, GOODNESS and PURE LOVE HE IS...

So BEAUTIFUL is HE!

So much sadness, personal brushes with death in other people's lives I've met...

People's sad life stories that explain why they're so "messed up" and have such hatred, indifference or "resentment" against a "God" Who may or may not exist and so forth...

Plus, escaping the troubles of Hurricane Harvey; getting a "night stay" at the NRG stadium in Houston for Hurricane Harvey victims and experiencing the social atmosphere there...

Then came Hurricane Irma, Hurricane Maria, Hurricane Jose....
Now Hurricane Nate in the Louisiana...

So much LIFE and EXPERIENCE has happened that can't simply be "summed up" on a blog post.

Lord-willing, I want to post some updates of some events of what has been going on and overall it is *GOOD NEWS*!

Ever since the Las Vegas shooting there's so much pain, anger, sadness, grief, frustration and disillusionment going on:

What is going on America?

What is the future of this once-great nation and the world as we know it now?

Many will still continue to fight it, but the answer is, has been and always will be...

GOD

I will speak what you HATE to hear.

"Flowery language" and slick phrases won't help save people. 

Only TRUTH will. 

Our hatred and anger will only cause more death and destruction. 

... And a lot of us actually WANT THAT HATRED AND ANGER to lead to more DEATH and DESTRUCTION in the impure, corrupted, sinful, evil wicked heart of mankind. 

But that's ignorance to the true cost of lost souls for a final ETERNITY.

Only JESUS CHRIST will set the people free. 

It's time He be "Represented" the Way He Is. 

... We'll see what happens. Amen. 

~ Sincerely, 

Bro. Jed

Reflection: Gloomy, Overcast Day Street-Preaching In The Community...

Today I was led of the Lord by His Spirit to preach the Word walking on up Hillsboro Street and then making the right turn walking up the road of Kress Street.

It's been a gloomy, overcast "gray day" up in the sky.

I held up His Word to cars I met having stopped at the intersection of Woolworth Street on the way up Hillsboro Street.

Every time I sensed a moment to stop I went and held up the Bible for the men, women and people to see His Word as I looked at them in direct face-to-face contact.

Today, I didn't really get much "reaction" from the local townsfolk or at least they may not have wanted to "acknowledge my existence" as I made clear to them by my mere physical "presence" upholding a Bible in my hand that "there is a God" and many people do not want to accept that fact...


I've been here in the Denver Harbor community of the Fifth Ward District in Houston, Texas for a while now...

Seems so strange how the time has passed since I first arrived here in the summer of June 2015; now up to this point of February 2017... Wow... Can't even believe it really...


My Bible "street-preaching" seems (at least to me) to lost it's "spark" like it used to have. People it seems have grown accustomed or "used to it" being done by me as a "familiar" with the deal.

I'm starting to kinda feel like "Noah" in a way when the Lord had called him to preach the warning of "The Flood" to come and the repentance to God from the Evil of that Time.

Then again, as I've learned from trial-and-error" my own personal "feelings" on the matter cannot be trusted when I go about doing the Lord's Will.

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When I first got here in Denver Harbor of the Fifth Ward District in Houston, Texas, everything was so "brand new" lol and fresh, and "exciting".

Now, haha it's all "old news" typical and "the usual".

Don't get me wrong lol, I like it here, love it even in some ways but now I'm starting to feel "pressed" in my spirit as though God is going to "open up" something new I must "transition to".

I've met a lot of people here. Witnessed the best I could at the times presented... Now I think is the time for a "change" and I don't know what kind of change must take place but God Knoweth.

I'm mindful to stay fully dependent and compliant on GOD'S DESIRES solely and not let my own "personal desires" override and conflict with "His Schedule". What He wants is all that matters. Not my "personal desires" at this point.

Like my elder brother and Pastor T.J. once said (it's not his exact saying but something very similar I'll "paraphrase"); "There come's a time in every believer's walk with the Lord that things go from being 'wide 'n open', free with so much freedom to 'dance around' and do what you like in service to the Lord; but then things start to get NARROWER. More "rigid" and "narrow. A lot of "personal choices and decisions" God would allow you to do and experience from as a "rookie" growing up in the Lord. But now that you've had time to grow and be developed in the Lord your walk with the Lord has become much more "narrower" and RESTRICTIVE than it used to be when you first started out. Things are harder and a lot more 'demanding'. You have to do all things God's Way or you won't be walking in His Spirit of His Perfect Will in your life."

I very much agree wholeheartedly with his statements.

Elder brother Pastor T.J. told me and my brethren this on a Wednesday night bible study about this subject and while he didn't go into all the "nitty-gritty" details of the "narrower path" more "experienced" believers in the Lord get "thrusted into" I'd say, it's something we all very much identified with. Amen.

As of yet, even though it's been a mere nearly four years of Christian ministry I've embarked on from the Lord beginning in the summer of 2013 to this point I suppose I can say, from all that I've been through, people I've met and "experiences" good and bad I had the privilege to learn from and develop I'm no longer a "rookie in the Lord" but I'm also no aged, seasoned veteran in Christ either.

I may have a long way to God as the Lord leads. I can only trust God what He will do with me next.

It would be a blessing to live a good long life on earth until the Rapture takes place but I'm realistic and I'm frankly accepting of a long or short life in the Lord as life goes on.

I'm now 23 years-old and starting to feel the "effects" of being in my "young adulthood" and getting "older". I must get myself on the "right track" and not make dumb and foolish choices and decisions I'll regret later.

Too much at stake in these times.

It's been a privilege also to meet all my wonderful brethren in Christ online here on Google Plus+, Facebook and Twitter to name a few social media platforms.

I was a "newbie" to pretty much all three mediums and by time, observance and participation I've learned how to interact and use these social media platforms greatly but I've learned from everyone who helped me out directly and indirectly and it was a blessed experience all around. Amen.


At the end of the day, I want to say I *LOVE* all people even though I simply don't want to be "bothered" most of the time lol.

People are good for the most part but can be "annoying" at times haha.

Well, looking outside now and the sun has come out and "taken away" from the "gloominess" of the day thus far... Looking real nice out from looking through the side window panes of inside the library.

Man, I want to be a KID again lol! Used to be so "innocent", "pure" and "blissfully ignorant" to the harsh realities of the "real world" as known by the sin of fallen humanity in this sin-cursed world.

Then again, I'm glad I'm "grown up".

Many people don't ever get to grow up into adulthood and die as children and teenagers unfortunately.

At least I see "life" as it is, not as it should and could be. That's a start.

Better I think in the long-term to see "life as is" and "accept" than to live in complete, "total ignorance" of real world real life reality and humanity. It's a mental fear and deception I don't wish on anyone.

Real life is HARD but it's REAL; no "illusions" to it. Amen.

Just because I "acknowledge reality" doesn't mean I always "accept it" as "ideal".

I don't always like or "accept" things as the way it is even though it could be something "morally wrong" and sinful or a "social truth"; but I can recognize it.

Although I want to say I'll always "be here" online blogging on this blog or having a "social media presence" elsewhere that will probably be the case and I'm wanting to continue and transition to higher levels in Christ here online but my biggest and main mission is to stay FOCUSED ON THE DIRECTION OF GOD ALMIGHTY, LORD JESUS CHRIST VIA HOLY SPIRIT.

I can't "promise" anyone here online or in the "real world" anything with a "guarantee". Some things I personally would like to because it's want I really want to do but other "bigger things" I cannot in full expectation.

I'm just saying all this out here 'cause I don't know what will be happening in the days ahead but somehow and somewhere I'll have to be "changing up" my "daily routine" and following the Lord to "uncharted territories" I never expect. It's how I even got to this point I never would have thought in my "early days" starting out in "ministry".

I'm experienced by all the great men and women of God here online and my fellow peers in age group. Great works in the Lord indeed.

May God Almighty, Lord Jesus Christ guide and bless everyone on their personal journeys and walks in the Lord.

We must keep "keeping on" in life like Christ isn't coming back soon in preparation until He finally does return to gather His Sheep.

I'm not "waiting on the Lord" to return as though I've given up all "hope" and just want the "Rapture" to happen.

Perhaps Christ is waiting on US to work with Him.

Only the Father Knows when He is sending His Son back to earth but in the mean time, as the United States has a new U.S. President in President Donald J. Trump and a whole lot of global world events have transpired and going on, the future is "unpredictable" in how everything will all play out. Only God Knows all the details. NOTHING is "guaranteed". Amen.


Coming to a close now, I really hope everyone reading this and everyone in life everywhere around the world from here in the United States of America unto all seven continents and islands and land masses where human souls dwell: may everyone be guided by the Lord Jesus Christ and abide in His Spirit and His Perfect Will.

GOD has the ANSWERS. Not me and no other human-being.

Trust on Jesus Christ, start in His Word and LIVE DAILY IN OBEDIENCE TO HIS HOLY SPIRIT.

Your personal "plan" for your life will ultimately FAIL and "pale" in comparison" to the greatness of GOD'S PLAN if you potentially follow out HIS WILL over your own will. That's what I'm trying and learning to do now to the best of my God-Given ability.

I'm not perfect and I make mistakes. I'd be even more "self-righteous" and "prideful" to say I haven't "made mistakes" or been "disobedient or rebellious" towards God because I HAVE!

I've sinned against the Almighty many-a-times and regretted so but I'm not going to continue to "deny" and not act like it never happened.

I thrown down the Bible and "kicked it around" on the ground like I was kicking any regular sports ball like a soccer ball before in my anger and frustration against God. I got "fed up" with "obeying God" sometimes when I wanted to justify my "anger and desire to "get back" at people who I truly believed "did me wrong" and got mad at God as a result for being "willing to suffer for sinners' mistakes".

That said, deep down, I know I'm no "better" than anybody else out there, believer or "unbeliever" alike.

It's only CHRIST in me that's good. It's not about "personal righteousness" at all. That's such a fraud.

Only CHRIST is GOOD. Period.

I've experienced enough of "humanity" in myself and abroad to know that one biblical truth: "ONLY GOD IS GOOD".

There is NO RIGHTEOUSNESS among men without CHRIST. Period.

Sin-cursed humanity without any Judgment, Correction and Reproof from God is complete, total, debase pure evil.

Thank GOD, He sent His Son, LORD JESUS CHRIST to do the impossible.

There was no other way God could save humanity even though us mortal human-beings think "God could have done something else".

If that was the case He would of. How dare we "question God" on that matter? You think He wanted to "sacrifice His Son" if He could redeem humanity some other way? I don't think so but then again, I don't "think like God". I'm not God to know.

Even God Himself had to "pay the ultimate cost" to save humanity with that One Solution being the Sacrifice of His Dear, Only Beloved Son, Lord Jesus Christ to die for all humanity.

God had no "easy way out" and neither do we if we believe not that Jesus Christ is the Son of God.

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JESUS CHRIST is THE WAY, THE TRUTH and THE LIFE. Amen.

~ Bro. Jed

A "Walk In The Park"... "Street-Preaching Style"

Been a while, been a while, been a while since I've "updated" this ol' "blog"...

Lots been goin' on in mi "personal life". Been busy...

Today's been an "okay" day. Had better. 'Course I gotta "own it" and take responsibility for it.

I'm here inside the library, having just come out from a brief stroll and "break" outside in Cliff Tuttle Park.

Mind's been a mess lately and I need to think things through clearly before I do stupid things and make foolish mistakes and decisions I'll regret later. It ain't "perfect" though I like to think I am. I'm "human".


Been "at odds" with God lately, I thank Him I almost had the urge to "curse Him" and "throw around" His Word like I've done previously when I was "fed up" with my personal drama going on and taking it out on Him.

Yeah, I regret it but it is what it is. I can't take it back or act like it "never happened" lol. I don't have to "share this with the whole" it could have been me and God's "lil' secret" but so what?

I don't care what anyone thinks.

By that I mean I don't allow anyone's "outside opinion" or thoughts override MY ACTIONS. I'm gonna do what I'm gonna do regardless and nobody's gonna stop me save God Himself lol.

But really, "actions" good and bad have CONSEQUENCES so for my own tall, slim, lean(gotta "buff up" someday) black behind  I gotta make the "right moves".

Smh... out there. Been quiet for a while.

My "street-preaching" ministry outdoors has been DORMAT for nearly a few weeks now.

I only got in a good few minutes witnessing the Word by the side of the road exit to the freeway a little over 3:50p.m. today. The Spirit told me to stop by the time the clock hit 4:02p.m.

Typing this at 4:27p.m.


Looking back over all the busiest and utter craziness that has got me to this point is like taking in a big *HOW THE "F" DID I GET HERE?!* surreal moment.

It's insane. Or maybe that's just me, haha.

Either way, it's been a gruesome and good experience.

'Course a lot of it I gotta blame on myself cuz I've been angry, mean and contemptuous at times towards people who got on my nerves or didn't. Just had to "vent frustration".

Overall, it's a "love-hate" relationship with people; but then it dawned on me:

I'm just a self-centered a-hole who doesn't want to be bothered with too many people's inconveniences.

Not like I don't "care" about folks but I just don't want to be bothered or "inconvenience" by some folks stupid problems and issues. I got my own to deal with! Lol

Besides... and women, oh God, don't let me go there!

Yeah, well, as a "Christian" I can't do the "heathen's ways" and all but that flesh nature is there.

I'm surprised I haven't given into LUST too greatly as I used to in my "porn-watching" days in my teens. Not a good place, but in a way it was for me for my "mental purposes" lol. I wasn't the wanking loser who just "got off" on that stuff and didn't learn a thing or two lol.

Besides I liked the videos when the men and women were actually really into it and "had fun"; you could tell they enjoyed what they were doing. And boy, did I enjoy watching them enjoy themselves. Haha!

Interesting what one can learn and discover from "curiosity". It killed the cat but it fueled my exploration and motivation lol.

Yeah, there's many pretty young women around this tall, dark 'n handsome thing could let his primitive "predatory urges" take the fore but I've made a "commitment to Christ" in being one of His Servants and trying to "represent Him" on earth: a job I do good sometimes and real bad a lot. All by HIS GRACE though; it's never me to represent Him correctly.

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I've grown a lot more "cold" and "calloused" in my "heart" towards people in general even though I still care and be "concerned" for people.

I pick and choose who I deal with a lot of the times now. I don't waste my time with people who ain't worth bothering with or I can't be a help or service to.

They could say the same about me but then again, they don't know me like *I DON'T KNOW THEM!*.

Ah, the dilemma.

Smh lol but it's really pathetic, pitiful and unflattering (at least that's what I perceive it; I see it how it is):

A lot of women I notice in the corner of my eyes as I walk about I see them in my peripheral vision as they look through their vehicles' windows at me unbeknownst to the man they're with be it boyfriend, husband, whatever, I notice and don't like it at all. They'd cheat on their man with me if I really "pushed it" and "went that way" but I know way better than to do that...

These women "eyeing" me from the distance from the safety of their fall-walled vehicles know they can't get close to me in person lol (don't want them to even) so they STEAL furtive hypergamous glances and stares at me from the distance.

It's not at all about "love", "concern" or actual "empathy" lol.

It's all primal, instinctive hypergamous sexual attraction instincts driving their behaviour it's not "looks" of "concern", "care" or "empathy". It's about sexual marketplace strategy lol.

Boy, could I tell some stories but because I respect the "anonymity" of people I won't use actual people's names unless appropriate and with their permission.


Unless they cross a public line with me in public publicly attempting to "humiliate", "criticize" and "wrong" me unfairly and without merit I won't take issue and respect other people's "rights of privacy" with me as I'm a very "private person" by nature even so I very mutually understand here

Live and let live.

Believe me (or not to your own demise), I ain't a "good person" you'd really "care about" if you knew the real EVIL ME! And I really like "evil me" cuz he's good fun at his best; even some people might like him.

If you're honest and didn't care to admit you'd probably say the same thing or something similar about yourself as if we're talking "good" in the Sight of the Lord. Lol.

I have my real "good qualities" and do empathize, care and love people genuinely even if I may "hate" them genuinely too. I don't let "hate" not cause me to still keep company, like and hang with people. Otherwise I'd just move on and leave that person or people alone and do my own thing without having that "hate" on my mind. Life's large.

I have loyalty and compassion. I have the "good along with the bad" but I'm not really the "betrayal-type" personally. I'm of the attitude "no-man-left-behind" mentality on the good side.

So... to my CONTEMPT and disgust I brush these stupid superficial "glances" to the side and see them for what they are: mere pure physical instinctive sexual attraction. Nothing more, nothing less.

Even so, I always knew deep down most women are "flaky" and can't take the heat.

It's one of those "double-edged" swords.

I expect them to "flake out" in certain situations in a "feminine manner" as accustomed to women, and if a woman doesn't "flake" and let the man "take the heat" I feel my pride dampened and disrespected. I don't allow that.

In fact I get "pissed" if a woman doesn't "flake out" and be a "victim"; cuz I don't get to "play hero" and be the "good, strong one" to "save the day" lol. Yeah right!

I want to die without pity or "remorse". Call me "cold-hearted", cruel and ruthless. I don't care. And besides, I think they got it wrong!: it ain't "cold-hearted" but *HOT-HEARTED* that burns down to the lowest hell. I already know I'm gonna die and I have to be ready for the time to come however it does and I ain't gonna be "scared" or "frightened" about it; but be about His Business 'til time's up.

I'd have some in mind if I was going to be "married" and all and follow God's Script. Yeah...

I have to be HONEST with people, cuz I'm honest foremost only with GOD and myself: I'm an ARROGANT, PRIDEFUL, HATEFUL and UNLOVABLE PERSON at heart even though I can be "lovable" at the same time in some ways. I just am lol.

I used to be "ashamed" of this fact but as the heathen say "F that!" I ain't gonna let NOBODY make me feel "bad" about ME. F that crap, shoot. I'm the one that's gotta "live with myself" and why care what someone thinks who isn't in my life? Duh? Are THEY in MY SHOES?! I don't think so!

I'm  gonna do what works for me.

Neither am I in YOUR SHOES, so what have you. I don't know your life. I don't know you, but I PRAY for you.

So, bringing this to a close, I want to change some things in my personal life and ministry of the Lord but I'm "impatient" with it. I want to "force" some things along that I think I can push.

I ain't where I what to be regardless of what anyone else thinks or feels. It's all about ME. I mean, oops, I, I, I is sorry I mean it's all about HIM! lol.

Yeah, I'll serve "God" but I gotta serve me as well. God Wins in the end anyways. I gotta watch out for "Numero Uno" I mean, God lol!

Okay, fine, whatever, I'll "reprove myself" before I give anyone else the chance to do so: to *GOD* be *HIS GLORY*. Yeah, whatever...

I haven't been "obedient to Him" cuz of my wicked PRIDE. My worst sin besides my "sin weakness" of wicked, evil thoughts and imaginations.  Yeah, people can really tell the "hatred" and "malice" they see in my wicked heart when I look them directly in the eyes in my wicked sin.

I only blink away to "save face" and avoid personal shame but even then I don't care what they think, I'll let them see my evil, devilish cold-hearted stare forever for all I care. I look away to avoid making THEM nervous and bothered; I ain't affected by my pride and wrath.

Again, I ain't gonna get all "emotional" and "cutesy" here cuz it makes me feel weak, effeminate and "silly". Find some other loser to do that stuff for you. I won't; unless I'm in the mood at it "works out" that way lol.

Sometimes if I'm in the "mood" folks see my "good, happy cheery side" but that's only if it's warranted or "earned" by them. I don't give myself fully. You have to EARN my goodness.

Call me a "bastard" I don't care. Call me every wicked "name" in the book. I don't care.

Also, another thing I got that's evil is my very, evil WICKED TONGUE I could use to inflict much personal damage and hurt on people. By His Grace I use sparingly or keep it "shut".

Whether you know it or not, I'm quite the "comedian" when I want to be. I got a lot of "good jokes".

By "good" I mean "inappropriate" and carnal the stuff that makes people really laugh whether they admit it or not. I know how to "tone it down" and "use tact" when appropriate and proper too.

In fact I had A LOT of good comedic material typed up in my computer documents I had to delete when the Lord brought me to the realization Satan was trying to use me as his Hollywood "puppet" by my desire for "acknowledgment" of achievement, power and fame in the world.

I know what's "good to say" to make folks yipper and yamper and I know what's "too far" that hits below the belt personally deep, cutting rude 'n crude to people.

It's too easy to "offend people" since most people are mostly emotional or let their "feelings" get them worked over. Not me however.

Nobody could ever tell me something at this point that would hurt me so "deeply" that I'd cringe up and die.

People who  try to use the "family and friends" angles to "get at mi feelings lol" will be rudely disappointed. That don't work on me.

I only "defend" the honour and integrity of my family and friends when people cowardly try to use them to "get to me" indirectly and "hurt me personally" in some way or fashion. They'd be sorely disappointed indeed.

You know why? I'll tell you: I may be "hurt" at the worst by somebody "talking crap" and insulting me but it doesn't bother me. ONLY a PHYSICAL ATTACK could "hurt" my person, but words and "talkin s**t" don't hurt me. I expect it. I THRIVE ON IT!

I like to insult and "belittle" people if they start stuff with me first. It's fun for me. I'd only stop if the other party is getting "weak".

In life I play "humble, quiet duck" be polite and "kind" for the most part and not "mean" when it's not warranted just to be a "jerk" and nobody at first would expect this at first unless I tell them like I am now, but if anyone dares to "try me on" and "mess with me" in public and they are strong and healthy and "look like" they can "handle this"; I only promise no "pretty sight". I fight to win but even if I "lose" I win by the DAMAGE I CREATE!Can't promise "love" or "mercy" 100% but I promise *PAIN* lol! Yeah, I promise YOUR PAIN 100%!

'Course after damage is done and all, I temporarily feel like a "a-hole" for wrecking up some dumb person taking me on who I know can't handle me and suffering the natural consequences of their stupidity and foolish decision.

I don't really get a "high" off of defeating a lower-level opponent I must beat people above my level for true self-gratification. That way I have no regrets and no restraint. I go "easy" on a lot of people cuz it'd simply be a stupid choice and utter waste of time on my part if I end up in a worthless dumb fight killing someone for nothing at the worst-case scenario.

I don't like to "think it" but I actually do and would but I have NO PROBLEM with "killing" someone. I have that "killer instinct" and I'm not ashamed of it. I'm proud of it.

As a Christian, "murder" is wrong, and even if I was a soldier in time of war, cuz I know war is coming up in the years ahead in this world with what's going on in the world. It's unavoidable unfortunately. I hate it and so many people are going to be "blindsided" so I have to do my part and "spill the beans" and way some folks up.

BLOODSHED is coming one way or another as those who know the Scriptures realize.

Lord Knows I would not have the slightest hesitation to kill off anyone I had to if given the "reason to" like if I was a solder in the U.S. military because I am personally "detached" from the effects.

Because of this, I wouldn't just "kill" anyone for "anything"; that's pretty dumb and pointless. I value life. I value human life.

No one can "test me" in the regard because I know how deep down brutal and RUTHLESS I really am when I want to: it's the AFTER-EFFECTS I'm concerned with. I don't really, ideally want to "destroy people's lives" I never would have even had anything to do with from having met them.

I don't want that on my conscience and my heart. I want to remain "pure-hearted" from shedding human blood. It's too easy to kill life. It really is.

And besides, I NEVER don't like to do something I don't ever feel "justified" in doing.

For instance, if I got in a fight with some guy I meet in day-to-day life like this group of punks I met one Wednesday night over some trivial nonsense trash-talking and I killed him in a physical fight; I'd feel "awful" I took his earthly life, especially if he was an unsaved person. It means I sent him to Hell literally, a "sin" of mine I could never really forgive myself for.

I mean, I would have no problem with "physically" taking a person's earthly life if I simply felt "justified" in doing so; it's just the actual reality KNOWLEDGE of knowing I killed an "unsaved person" who died without being saved by Christ and ending up in ETERNAL HELL as a result is the ONLY THING that would really "bother my conscience". I could get over anything else eventually over little or no time but the reality I took a life that would end up in Hell ETERNALLY is what would "haunt" me a little.

If I was in "David's shoes" when he took down Goliath with the sling shot and stone and cut his head off with a sword; I'm pretty sure I'm do some similarly with CHEER even! The only thing that would upset me is knowing this poor, lumbering, ignorant giant died unsaved with Salvation knowing Christ. That'd be the only thing to "bother my conscience" besides that I'd laugh him off as a big GIANT FOOL!

If I had the chance to kill a brutal world "dictator" out there or any "unsavory person" people hate, despise and want dead (and usually for good reason) then I'd be first in line willing to do the "killing" cuz I'm gonna feel JUSTIFIED for killing such a scumbag monster everyone else hates and wants dead anyways (whether they admit it or not; they don't have to. I know...). Might as well become the "hero" who killed off evil tyrant who made people's lives Hell and gain personal gain in the process, no? My only "first and second thoughts" would be of course if I killed an unsaved person and also the person's family and friends. I really don't want to "break the hearts" of a father and mother who had their child "killed" and taken away from them. That's an evil I take no pleasure in, really.

If I killed somebody in a serious situation it'd only be my "detached offence" that that one person dealt with me; I'm not wanting to hurt the family and friends of said person killed, but I know it's the unfortunate, no-way-around natural consequences of the actions. It ain't nothing "personal" at all coming from me of people I've never met or known but I'd expect "revenge motivations" to come from some of the family and friends of the person killed; and then I'd take it personal if they come at me trying to kill me for revenge.

In my eyes, I only dealt with someone starting mess with ME. Nothing to do with anyone else. But if folks want to "involve themselves" in my situation when I didn't do them no wrong directly to THEM then I take it personal.

I see it from their perspective I took one of their "loved ones" away as why they feel it to be "personal"; so more drama occurs until they can hopefully (for THEIR sake) kill me themselves. Not for my sake.

I don't like to hold back and take it "easy on people" when it comes to "fighting". I pardon kids and people with disabilities who can't defend themselves.

But able-bodied, strong, healthy-looking adults are fair game.

I'm good with "taking life" but I don't want to take people to Hell as a result if you get what I mean.

Ideally, obviously  of course it's not even "holy" or "pure" or "good" to "take life" cuz I'm a Christian who's supposed to be about LOVE, PEACE and all this "JOY OF THE HOLY GHOST stuff" lol Hahaha. But I could go there... I really could. I'd hate the "monster" I'd become as a result because that's not the kind of life I want but it's there. Always was and perhaps always will be...

Call it "evil" or "wicked" but I'd rather end up killing a fellow "brother" or "sister in Christ" who I know is going to Heaven than kill someone unsaved I know will end up in Hell. Sure it's a disgrace and a "dishonor" to say such a thing but it is what it is I won't "back down" from saying it. I'd "repent" feel bad but with the "knowledge of" so-and-so is in Heaven now; so I wouldn't dwell too much on it all the time.

Hey, at least I'd try to make it as "painless and quick" in my ability as possible. I don't ever get thrilled in people's suffering unless I really feel justified for good reason. Killing a fellow brother or sister in Christ I wouldn't get that; it'd have to be a quick, smooth, dispassionate kill with as less pain as possible. Perhaps "pleasure" even.

Now, ideally, truth of the matter is, as "Christians" the Lord Jesus Christ does NOT ever want any of His people to "shed blood" innocent or not in life. Jesus doesn't want Christians to "kill people" in actual physical "warfare". We wrestle not against "flesh and blood" but over "principalities, and spiritual wickedness in high places".

In this respect the proper Christian response I and other believers must take is to "humble ourselves" and we can physically defend ourselves by blocking physical hits or running away for cover but not to physically "attack back" our attackers as instincts would have us.

It is the case God wants us to "lay down own lives in perfect non-violence" so that He can be our Protector and Saviour.

Our deaths as Christians are His witnesses to those unsaved seeing His Example in the flesh to be brought to the Salvation of Jesus Christ.

I'm "okay" with someone "taking my life" cuz I know I'm going to Heaven so it doesn't personally-bother me if someone eventual kills me down the road. Just would piss me off if I'm busy doing something or interrupted lol! Just means I perhaps "F'd up God's Plan" on my life and perhaps died before my time and didn't fully accomplish His Will the Way He would of ideally liked. But I'd get over it, cuz it's not like I'd be the first on that same boat. Joining "company" lol. It just concerns me if I had ended up killing someone who "wants to live" and "fears death". I really wouldn't like to kill people with that "fearful instinct"; I have MERCY on the weak and defenseless because they are weak and defenseless; they can't fight back at someone who means them harm that can fight. They mean no harm and are no threat. I'm not that kind of pathetic "bully". In fact, I'd be first in line to "bully the bullies" that "prey" on weak targets. Not when I'm around imao...

I kind of have a "personal honor" code to these matters of life-and-death.  

Lol. I don't "fear death" folks, I fear HELL and rightfully so as any SANE THINKING HUMAN-BEING SHOULD! I simply don't want to end up in Hell when I die in my physical body.

Since Heaven and Hell exists in the "Afterlife" and a "God" exists it makes since for the reasonable, rational-thinking person to choose GOING TO HEAVEN BY FAITH ON LORD JESUS CHRIST rather than ending up in *HELL* and burning forever in tortuous, fiery wrath. You can't do NOTHIN' to "save yourself" in Hell people. It's all PAIN.

Lol. People can call me a "coward" for not wanting to end up in Hell (WITH THEM! just to "prove" their point), even though that's where I deserve to go. But in reality it's called BEING SMART you STUPID PEOPLE who think otherwise! I ain't following you poor sad suckers into the abyss. I love you enough not to wish HELL on you; I mean REAL HELL on ANYBODY. It's ETERNAL!

Can any one of our earthly, finite minds truly comprehend what "eternity" really means?! It's not "human forever" it's true "forever" that means FOREVER! NO CHANGE! NO HOPE! NOTHING YOU CAN DO TO END YOUR MISERY!

As the heathen saith, "You're F'ed!" and you really are if you end up there unfortunately.

I HATE to think and reflect over such thoughts but I make it a personal principal to live in the REALITY of life. Someone has to; at least for the "common good" of humanity.

Even the Wicked Antichrist himself condemned as he is shouldn't and wouldn't really want to "end up in the Lake of Fire".

I'm prideful as Satan (perhaps the Antichrist) himself but even I know when to "call it quits" and not to go "over my bounds" and "tempt" GOD HIMSELF.

Nobody in the Bible EVER "beat God" on ANYTHING!

Even if my own wicked heart likes to entertain the wicked thought God would "excuse" me as a precious special little snowflake, I know deep down, dust I am, am just DUST and nothing more. Who am I to "contend with God"? How could I "win against God"? lol

Only the insanity of humanity could dare think to "beat God" Creator of all... Smh.

You best believe I trusted on JESUS CHRIST the SON OF GOD for SALVATION and if anything else, if anyone reading this ends up in Hell; can be sure I'm not joining you down there.

It's already a full house down there lol. But I ain't really "laughing"; sardonic "joke" as it is. I don't "joke" about "Hell" or no; quite the contrary. I take HELL VERY SERIOUSLY more than I take HEAVEN seriously. Cuz "Hell" is all BAD NEWS!

I'll be in HEAVEN; you just make your estate Above. It's what God wants and it's really for your own skin than anything else.

Lord Jesus Christ died for us truly worthless sinners in actuality and as "prideful" as I am I must give the *GOD-MAN* His Due Credit cuz He PROVED HIS LOVE OF WHO HE IS to "worthless beings" He had nothing to prove.

All about US, not about HIM. Christ died for US; not for His Sake, but OURS.

That's the TRUE PURE GOOD HOLY SELFLESSNESS the human mind cannot even begin to fathom...

I can't understand it. I'm probably not supposed to.

How can a mortal human-being understand an "Eternal God"? It's impossible without God's Involvement to begin with.

I'll never attain or understand that here on earth; even if I become better than what I am.

I ain't going to Hell for "daddy, mommy, brother, sister" anybody, NO FAMILY OR FRIENDS. I love and will protect them to death but I ain't following anyone down to Hell. That's for sure.

You should do the same. I'll respect you more for it.

 I won't respect you if you hearing all this, go back to a life of "denial of reality" and end up in Hell for your stubborn rebellious unbelief in saying and thinking "there is no God".

Let this go in the history books: Jed Mask said, "THERE IS A GOD AND LORD JESUS CHRIST IS HIS SON!" and it is so and always was and always will be. Amen.

~ Bro. Jed 

Thursday Excursion In The Lord Around Town In Denver Harbor...

It's been quite a long while...

Lots have happened lately these last days.

Halloween was preached against. Served and participated in my local church of "Calvary Christian Center's annual children's "Harvest Fest" event for children on the wicked, secular "Halloween Day" of the Devil...

Further beyond that even, was fasting in the days of November 6-9 as renowed Christian televangelist "Jentezen Franklin" called Christians nationwide in America to pray, fast and vote during the final election days... Good deal.

Went out and voted with my family.

And yeah, I won't lie but speak the truth: I voted *TRUMP* and NOT Mrs. Hillary Rodham Clinton.


Although my reasons why are varied and practical, long story short from what I discerned Mr. Donald J. Trump's values and beliefs are more in line with "Bible Principals" above all else.

And yeah, don't always agree or like everything he says or does but like all people he has his "warts" flaws, faults and failures like us all. He's human... like us all (just in case you are an actually human-being" cuz there be "chimeras" about lol; but that's a whole 'nother can of worms for another time).

That aside, I have nothing personally against Mrs. Hillary Rodham Clinton, the Clintons and her supporters.

I love them all as any and every Christian should love all people.

It ain't 'bout "hating people"; it's about *OBJECTIVE* DEFIANCE against evil, ungodly agendas of the Devil, Satan.

Homosexual marriage, along with abortion and other wicked ambominations are being "strong-armed" and pushed on the masses by liberal-minded elites.

As a Christian I have to be AGAINST what GOD IS AGAINST and that's my whole case here. Nothing personal at all; all about PRINCIPAL.

The "caveat" with Trump is that he's got a "Christian" Vice President in Mr. Mike Pence.

Hope the Lord Works something out there too even; so the "Trump Ticket" looks a lot more promising than the "same ol'-same ol' one would get with Mrs. Hillary Rodham Clinton & Co.; had she won the presidential election.

Either way it went, I'm practical and pragmatic, I'm not going to "fall out" and "thrown in the towel" and get all upset and in an "emotional tantrum" if Mrs. Clinton had won, but I thank God she didn't.

I already made the mistake in my youthful ignorance of voting in our current U.S. President Barack Hussein Obama the *TWO TIMES*. TWICE. 

I didn't want to make that same mistake this time; especially since a lot more's in stake for the nation this time around.

So after election news is over and confirmed; I'm glad the "suspense" is "at peace" and finished.

Now it's time for the Christian *CHURCH* to be doing it's job.

That's what I'm focused on going forward as I update news here on the blog.
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(P.S. Last night at "Wednesday night bible study" it was good lesson from elder brother Pastor T.J. and brethren. This time around, like I'm now getting better at doing is I "shook hands" with the MAN FIRST and not the "woman's hand" whenever I meet a "couple". In this feminized, "socially-backward" wicked society, women are walking before men and leading up front instead of following behind men. I see this too much to my personal infuriation and irritation when I see women "ruling over men". When I have opportunity as the Lord provides I fight against this wicked spiritual confusion of the Devil, Satan. So when the young woman went and offered her hand for me to shake I'm like "Nah (lol), shaking my hands "no" and when the older man offers his hand for me to shake I SHAKE HIS HAND first and not the woman's. She instinctively realizes this dominant male body language social tactic and doesn't even offer her hand to me to shake. Her husband/boyfriend gives me his "respect" in my conduct for acknowlegding his natural headship as "the man" of the relationship and I did the right thing there. Thank the Lord. Lol then Hispanic sister "M(r)s. K" I'll call her is all "touchy-feely" like she want me to "shake her hand" or get "physical with her"; but I always decline her advances. She has a man; "Mr. G." I'll call him and I'm not sure of their relationship; whether "husband/boyfriend/fiance" but all I know is their is NO "third party" with me being involved. She's got a man; anything I do would only lead to adultery, affair and "bad situations". Nah, I know better than to "entertain" those WICKED devilish thoughts! Smh... Even in the CHURCH lol... women (in relationships) coming on to me. Not good. Anyways I think she knows I know better and that I think she knows (or should) know better. So it stays at that. Love all my brethren in the local church here in town though. Amen.)

Okay now, so earlier today, this morning at around 9:20a.m. I was led of the Lord by the Spirit to go street-preaching on Hoffman Street up on my way to Lyons Avenue being led of the Holy Spirit to do as He Willed.

I'm taking my time walking slowly but surely. Seeing people coming up about to pass I stand over close enough to the curbside to the side of the sidewalk trails to hold up the Bible and "point to them" as though I'm "targeting" their approaches.

Since it's a few "sparse cars" out driving, I'm being "methodical" and analytical in my street-witnessing "going with the natural flow" of the pace of the social atmosphere and local neighborhood as I "wave hello" to people passing by in the vehicles and also local neighbours in the neighborhoods.

As I make it to Lyons Avenue I stopped by the local "Lyons Washateria" for a brief break before continuing "street-preaching" as the Lord led me to do further.

I left a "LORD JESUS CHRIST LOVES YOU!" multi-colored thin brown cardboard paper slip on the hang stand of the phone booth for someone to discover and be a witness to.

Next thing, I'm walking down the parking lot of the Washateria taking a right and holding up the Bible to people driving by on Lyons Avenue.

I'm heading in the direction of going like towards the local Fiesta grocery store.

It's fewer traffic out at the time because the train is passing across Lyons Avenue; so traffic has been diverted into different routes to bypass the train.

So after I cross over Shotwell Street, I'm kind of just "hanging around" individually witnessing to people I can make eye contact with through the glass of their vehicle windows before I eventually plan to cross over the railroad tracks on Lyons Avenue towards Lockwood Drive area by the METRO Transit Center.

I'm circling around walking in the "square of the Shotwell Street crosswalk briefly witnessing to people with the Bible pulled to the side of my body and holding the Bible up to them and pointing to them directly as a "witness".

Message is "received": some people hand wave "Yes, I get it..." some like "Okay, sure, goodbye now" as they throw up their hands in exasperation lol.

After a while, Holy Spirit says "It's enough now" and says I can stop just after the train finishes passing on by.


But before I "make my way" to "pass over" the railroad tracks an elder white man in a wheelchair turns out to be the reason why the railroad train is "stopped up" cuz he don't want to move off of the railroad tracks.

In my spirit I felt urged to walk over to the elder white man sitting in his wheelchair blocking the railroad way and incoming car traffic in the midst.

I'm like "Hey there sir... Are you okay?" He's like "Leave me the f--k alone you motherf---ker!" and he's all cursing me and I'm like "I haven't did you anything wrong. I'm sorry. SORRY... So sorry to bother you" and I said it in genuine natural voice. I didn't reply back angrily in pride like I could have did and cursed him back because I knew as a Christian it wouldn't be the "right response". And besides, I knew it wasn't really the "man himself" speaking; it was a "hateful spirit".

Thing is, this man was angry, frustrated, perhaps bitter and had hatred and wrath in his heart towards people. It's a cold world out here. I don't know the elder white man's life and how he did end up in a wheelchair if he wasn't born into the situation. Maybe he had some kind of accident, perhaps some people caused him to end up in a wheelchair. Maybe it was his own fault somehow. I don't know. That's not what really mattered to me at the time I was engaging with him. I care only for his SALVATION through *JESUS CHRIST* primarily. Amen!


Nowadays, "people" are not as "kind" as they used to be in many ways. It used to be different. Today's society is a generation of wicked, insensitive, self-centered, "cold-hearted" people. It's "everyone out for themselves" today because no one is showing compassion to their fellow man out of fear of being a target and personal survival expense. It's hard to survive and make it out here in the "real world"...

People are living homeless and a whole lot of personal, societal issues going on.

Besides that, than elder white man in the wheelchair I confronted to speak with to "feel him out" what his deal was told me "I'm here to block them motherf--kers!" talking about the train and I don't know what his problem was with the "train people" but I just got a sense in the Spirit that this elder white man was just "angry at the world", "hard-hearted", bitter, and "distrusting" of people because of the harshness of real life and wicked sinners we are.

When I actually did kindly "apologize" saying "sorry" multiple times in a "humble, meek *gentle* spirit" even though I didn't do anything wrong to the man personally I *SAW* and perceive a "relief" in his widened opened eyes that he saw that I "meant his good" and was showing sincere caring compassion towards him personally and his situation.

After apologizing I made my way to "walk on" to avoid further upsetting him as he "cursed me off".

As I kept walking I prayed unto the Lord Jesus Christ concerning this elder white man that the Lord hold not his cursing me against him or anything but that that man might trust on Him and be SAVED and be at peace in life and his fellow man. I don't know his life like I don't know many people's life but if I can't help people directly I can always *AT LEAST* PRAY for them sincerely.

I know GOD can help everyone in need. Amen.
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Today, I've gone on a "walking journey" and "scounted" out a few different local locations, areas and churches I didn't know existed or much of. It was good to have it "cleared up" so now I have a very good idea of what to expect and deal with if I make a personal "missions trip" for certain ministry purposes in said locations.

I'm just "mapping out" the exterior of what's seen in a map in my mind: a "mental picture" of how to best serve the local communities. I'm taking NOTES and PLANNING ACTIONS. Not mindlessly and ignorantly "wandering around" like I have nothing to do.

I'm gonna need a car, truck or vehicle to get around more "speedily" to certain places I would like to go. But even before that, GOD'S WILL BE DONE.

I must first and FOREMOST make sure I'm doing what GOD WANTS ME TO DO EACH AND EVERY DAY; cuz I have many plans, many ideas, but ONLY GOD'S PLANS and IDEAS will reap the RIGHT MOST BENEFIT. Must remember that.

Okay, so after walking all the way down Lyons Avenue to the point I get to Highway 59 before the road underpasses going intot the direction of Downtown Houston, I walk up to Eastex Freeway and cross on that road bridge and make my way over to "Jensen Drive" where I all the way down and make my right turn on "Collingsworth Street".

In the time I was heading in that direction I've made "contact" with a few different people in walking and driving vehicles saying "Hey" and "Yeah, I got it" if the Lord has made them familiar with Himself from "seeing me around time" since after street-preaching exploits and "wanderings".

Thing is, what really "annoyed me" today lol kind of was this older black man driving by in his silver car (circling around) asking me with the windows down and slowed down saying, "Hey, baby, you need a ride?" in some kind of ominous, strange creepy voice. Nothin' but the DEVIL, SATAN! lol Smh... I don't trust that guy. Alarms went off in my mind: he's probably some kind of "(child) predator". Wasn't getting any good vibes from off that guy...

Like, hey, he "really cared" about offering a "ride" to another "stranger black man" (me) he's never met and don't know what I could be thinking.

Luckily for him I would be a "harmless case" since I'm not out for "blood 'n mischief". I'm out to "spread the Good News" of the Gospel of Jesus Christ (KJV 1 Corinthians 15:1-4). I'm a Christian, not a heathen thug of the Hood.

That said, I'm like "No, I don't need a ride. I'm walking. God Loves you You have time to hear the Gospel of Jesus Christ?..." and before I COULD say what I WANTED TO SAY he's like "drove off". Lol Yeah, go figure...

Lord, I just pray no other human-being has falled for his "tricks" to their hurt. Cuz there's been a lot of people being aducted, held against their will in (storage) containers and all kinds of evil situations. It's sad! ;/ Like what happened to the woman chained at the (storage) container at a serial killer man's house and such situations recently being talked about on the news. It's bad out there.

It's the "cretins" that walk on "two legs" that are more likely to give you trouble than the mere "beasts of the field". It's PEOPLE, NOT ANIMALS one has to be morecautious around. A lot of evil, bad people around.

But besides that, having put him in prayer just hoping and praying no one becomes a victim of that man and that if he's already abducted someone hostage or such situation; hope the police can get a hand on him real soon. Don't know if he's already commited a human abduction crime already or the move; just hoping no one else "falls for his trap". Amen.

So, when I make it to Collingsworth Street I spend some brief time visiting the area of two local Christian churches before I walk the rest of the way down Collingsworth Street to make it back on the "big long road" of Lockwood drive.

After visiting another Christian church in the vicinity on my way back in town I climb over in-between some train trailers and cross over the railroad tracks to get back on the long stretch walking up on Lockwood Drive.

On my way forward I stop by a METRO bus stop for a quick break and see an elderly homeless white woman walking to my direction before passing through the grass field. I know her from around town. I perceive she's a longtime "local". I haven't really had a good "conversation" with her face-to-face besides a passing through "Hey, hi, or hello" and walking on.

She seems like a calm, peaceful, gentle old lady so I give her space unless led of the Lord to approach her directly. I hope she's a fellow "born again believer". An elder dear sister in the Lord Jesus Christ... If not, Lord-willing, I'd like to someday witness the Gospel to her directly, personally but only as the Lord Wills.

I would like to think she's aware of my "Christian exploits" in town by now like many people.

All glory be to the Lord. That's the point. Amen.

So after my "quick rest" it's about around 3:40p.m. and I'm on my way street-preaching His Word held up to people driving by in their vehicles as I walk up Lockwood Drive to Lyons Avenue to get on my way to the library and write this story lol.

So, so, I'm holding up the Bible to people driving by; a lot of positive "heart-convicting" reactions I see on people's emotional faces. Good sign.

Men driving in those tall trucks have the Bible held up to their faces as they drive by seeing the Bible held up with both my hands stretched out up towards their direction to make direct contact. Many see, take notice and consider... Hopefully ALL not just a "good few" of those truck-driving men take the "symbol" of the Bible symbolizing "Jesus Christ" to heart.

The Bible I hold up is JESUS. It's HIM.

Bible = JESUS.

People see "Bible" many people think "JESUS CHRIST" and it goes from there...

Okay now... So on the way back in town... ran into elder brother "J" as I've called him on Lyons Avenue...

So we're walking on down I said, "Hey, hey there elder brother J..." as he's walking up in the parking lot of "Los Jacales" a local Mexican restaurant in town.

He slowly makes his way over to me as I'm walking on along the sidewalk holding up the Bible and witnessing the Word to people approaching by driving by in their vehicles.

He drops his small clear plastic cup of water as he goes to ask me, "You got any spare change... man?" as he's all casually scratching his back with his hand.

I'm like "No, I do not. You have any extra change. I'm broke too."

Turns out I'm "on to elder brother J. since the last few times we've met. I've found out in times past that he's got a "nicotine addiction": AKA "cigarrete smoking habit".

Now I'm no "enabler" for people to go about "feeding their bad habits"; it's not the right thing to do and it's not right for the addicts themselves...

So, after telling elder brother J "No" we part ways as he goes on ahead of me walking up Lyons Avenue. I'm still street-preaching holding up the Word of the Lord off to the side of the sidewalk and stepping down on the curbsides of the road to show up the Bible to people driving by.

Later on, after I have crossed over Woolworth Street on the town block of "Vargas Food Mart" I noticed in the angle of my right-sided vision I see elder brother J. already taking a "puff" of a cigarette across the street in the parking lot of "Norma's Unisex Beauty Salon". It's confirmed again the second time: elder brother J. only want to talk to me to "get some money" out of me so he can go buy him some "cigarrettes" or whatever other stuff he wants to get.

Now I know elder brother J it seems don't really want "help" to get his life back on track but is okay with roaming the streets and feeding his nicotine habits.

I ain't sayin' nothin' "against him" cuz I love him as an elder brother in Christ and a fellow human-being as the Lord would have me do. I just simply realize now and understand that he's only out to "use me" for whatever *MONEY* he can get out of me so he can buy him some "stuff".

Other than that, he ain't gonna really talk with me or have a conversationg; just passing through if I don't just hand him some money to buy cigarrettes and/or beer.

That said, he ain't hurtin' me or "inconveniencing me" unnecessarily so I go about my business say "Hey, how you doin'?" in "small talk" and go on my way as he does the same.

Hmmm... Hopefully I meet see him at church sometime if he's still around town here in Denver Harbor.

A while back we talked, seems like he has kinfolks in Louisiana. Probably originally from Louisiana too; but can't be completely sure.

Since I don't ever really like to "pry into people's personal lives and business" I basically take what they tell me as "true" more or less and don't go any further. It ain't my business and has nothing to do with me otherwise.

I only hope and pray the best for him, and people that do "open up" a little to share their lives with me, that God Almighty, Lord Jesus Christ works in their HEARTS so that *HE* can WORK IN THEIR LIVES to accomplish *HIS WILL* for their lives.

That's all I can hope for. Amen.

~ Bro. Jed