Wednesday, February 22, 2017

Sunny Day: The Elder Black Man With The Shades At Cliff Tuttle Park

Today at around 3:10p.m. I met or an elder black man at Cliff Tuttle Park outside the library as I went by the street light cement base pole and ate my lunch.

I didn't want to stay out and be exposed in the hot Houston sun as it is still a sunny day out.

It was hot and dry-like but not that kind of sweltering hot, humid "sweaty" Houston summer hot sun - thank God! lol (Those days can be draining...)

I ate the four remaining oatmeal raisin cookies from the plastic packaging and had a pick aluminum square pack of salmon meat to eat with three slices of whole wheat bread to "sandwich" it with to chow down.

It was a good pleasant lil' snack I had as I stood around "grazing" (i.e. "eating" :P) and taking it easy outside.

Taking in the scenery of my surroundings and also making brief and subtle eye contact movements and glances to the elder black man off to my far right reclined at a light tan bench on his back with his bike leaning behind the wooden bench.

He had his black sunglasses on and seem to be "observing" the scene as I was and saw the young Hispanic kids in the background (a group of boys) playing basketball at the court in the center of the park here.

I saw him and I think he really saw me back too. Tried not to make too much direct eye contact with him that could have "annoyed" or "bothered" him.

So, I just took it easy out there for a while and wondered casually what he could be "thinking".

He had his cap on. A grayish black full moustache. Had a backpack I think...

I didn't overthink who and what he was doing as though he was probably homeless or just an elder "local" 'round these parts.

After I finished up eating my quick lunch I motioned away from his space and walked on the gray cement sidewalk pavement and walked on over to the nearby water fountain to refill my plastic water bottle and to drink from the fountain.

I saw a group of young Hispanic teens hanging out and eating Little Caesars pizza under the green gazebo and just being cool and casual as I took my time by the "watering hole" lol.

So after this I went to get my backpack and laptop to do my business and just had the thought in my mind which I believe was the Spirit telling me to simply give the elder black man the "Jesus Christ LOVES You!" Gospel of Jesus Christ (KJV 1 Corinthians 15:1-4) gospel tract brown cardboard card I had neatly written and illustrated.

I didn't waver in thought and feeling but just got the card out after fumbling through my black JanSport backpack and when I had my belongings and self together in good timing I walked on over casually and smoothly to the elder man so as not to "disrupt" him from his relaxing as I only wanted to "hand over" the gospel tract card and be on my way.

To my brief and sudden amazement he accepted the card and we didn't even have to "exchange words" but just a quiet "yes nod" of heads and a quiet "hello..." as I slowly turned back and walked away from him as on my way again and I saw him start to read and look at the Gospel tract card I gave him and hopefully the Spirit works in the elder black man's heart to fulfill His Will.

I sincerely hope the elder black man (old enough to be my grandfather I believe) believes that the Lord Jesus Christ is the Son of God if he already wasn't a believer; an elder brother in Christ.

Nonetheless, may that Gospel tract card by a sign of "edification" for his faith if he is unbelieving.

Putting it in prayer right now and to the end of the day, may God Almighty, Lord Jesus Christ BLESS the life of this elder black man whose life I have no idea is his story. Amen.

~ Sincerely,

Bro. Jed

Tuesday, February 21, 2017

Reflection: Gloomy, Overcast Day Street-Preaching In The Community...

Today I was led of the Lord by His Spirit to preach the Word walking on up Hillsboro Street and then making the right turn walking up the road of Kress Street.

It's been a gloomy, overcast "gray day" up in the sky.

I held up His Word to cars I met having stopped at the intersection of Woolworth Street on the way up Hillsboro Street.

Every time I sensed a moment to stop I went and held up the Bible for the men, women and people to see His Word as I looked at them in direct face-to-face contact.

Today, I didn't really get much "reaction" from the local townsfolk or at least they may not have wanted to "acknowledge my existence" as I made clear to them by my mere physical "presence" upholding a Bible in my hand that "there is a God" and many people do not want to accept that fact...


I've been here in the Denver Harbor community of the Fifth Ward District in Houston, Texas for a while now...

Seems so strange how the time has passed since I first arrived here in the summer of June 2015; now up to this point of February 2017... Wow... Can't even believe it really...


My Bible "street-preaching" seems (at least to me) to lost it's "spark" like it used to have. People it seems have grown accustomed or "used to it" being done by me as a "familiar" with the deal.

I'm starting to kinda feel like "Noah" in a way when the Lord had called him to preach the warning of "The Flood" to come and the repentance to God from the Evil of that Time.

Then again, as I've learned from trial-and-error" my own personal "feelings" on the matter cannot be trusted when I go about doing the Lord's Will.

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When I first got here in Denver Harbor of the Fifth Ward District in Houston, Texas, everything was so "brand new" lol and fresh, and "exciting".

Now, haha it's all "old news" typical and "the usual".

Don't get me wrong lol, I like it here, love it even in some ways but now I'm starting to feel "pressed" in my spirit as though God is going to "open up" something new I must "transition to".

I've met a lot of people here. Witnessed the best I could at the times presented... Now I think is the time for a "change" and I don't know what kind of change must take place but God Knoweth.

I'm mindful to stay fully dependent and compliant on GOD'S DESIRES solely and not let my own "personal desires" override and conflict with "His Schedule". What He wants is all that matters. Not my "personal desires" at this point.

Like my elder brother and Pastor T.J. once said (it's not his exact saying but something very similar I'll "paraphrase"); "There come's a time in every believer's walk with the Lord that things go from being 'wide 'n open', free with so much freedom to 'dance around' and do what you like in service to the Lord; but then things start to get NARROWER. More "rigid" and "narrow. A lot of "personal choices and decisions" God would allow you to do and experience from as a "rookie" growing up in the Lord. But now that you've had time to grow and be developed in the Lord your walk with the Lord has become much more "narrower" and RESTRICTIVE than it used to be when you first started out. Things are harder and a lot more 'demanding'. You have to do all things God's Way or you won't be walking in His Spirit of His Perfect Will in your life."

I very much agree wholeheartedly with his statements.

Elder brother Pastor T.J. told me and my brethren this on a Wednesday night bible study about this subject and while he didn't go into all the "nitty-gritty" details of the "narrower path" more "experienced" believers in the Lord get "thrusted into" I'd say, it's something we all very much identified with. Amen.

As of yet, even though it's been a mere nearly four years of Christian ministry I've embarked on from the Lord beginning in the summer of 2013 to this point I suppose I can say, from all that I've been through, people I've met and "experiences" good and bad I had the privilege to learn from and develop I'm no longer a "rookie in the Lord" but I'm also no aged, seasoned veteran in Christ either.

I may have a long way to God as the Lord leads. I can only trust God what He will do with me next.

It would be a blessing to live a good long life on earth until the Rapture takes place but I'm realistic and I'm frankly accepting of a long or short life in the Lord as life goes on.

I'm now 23 years-old and starting to feel the "effects" of being in my "young adulthood" and getting "older". I must get myself on the "right track" and not make dumb and foolish choices and decisions I'll regret later.

Too much at stake in these times.

It's been a privilege also to meet all my wonderful brethren in Christ online here on Google Plus+, Facebook and Twitter to name a few social media platforms.

I was a "newbie" to pretty much all three mediums and by time, observance and participation I've learned how to interact and use these social media platforms greatly but I've learned from everyone who helped me out directly and indirectly and it was a blessed experience all around. Amen.


At the end of the day, I want to say I *LOVE* all people even though I simply don't want to be "bothered" most of the time lol.

People are good for the most part but can be "annoying" at times haha.

Well, looking outside now and the sun has come out and "taken away" from the "gloominess" of the day thus far... Looking real nice out from looking through the side window panes of inside the library.

Man, I want to be a KID again lol! Used to be so "innocent", "pure" and "blissfully ignorant" to the harsh realities of the "real world" as known by the sin of fallen humanity in this sin-cursed world.

Then again, I'm glad I'm "grown up".

Many people don't ever get to grow up into adulthood and die as children and teenagers unfortunately.

At least I see "life" as it is, not as it should and could be. That's a start.

Better I think in the long-term to see "life as is" and "accept" than to live in complete, "total ignorance" of real world real life reality and humanity. It's a mental fear and deception I don't wish on anyone.

Real life is HARD but it's REAL; no "illusions" to it. Amen.

Just because I "acknowledge reality" doesn't mean I always "accept it" as "ideal".

I don't always like or "accept" things as the way it is even though it could be something "morally wrong" and sinful or a "social truth"; but I can recognize it.

Although I want to say I'll always "be here" online blogging on this blog or having a "social media presence" elsewhere that will probably be the case and I'm wanting to continue and transition to higher levels in Christ here online but my biggest and main mission is to stay FOCUSED ON THE DIRECTION OF GOD ALMIGHTY, LORD JESUS CHRIST VIA HOLY SPIRIT.

I can't "promise" anyone here online or in the "real world" anything with a "guarantee". Some things I personally would like to because it's want I really want to do but other "bigger things" I cannot in full expectation.

I'm just saying all this out here 'cause I don't know what will be happening in the days ahead but somehow and somewhere I'll have to be "changing up" my "daily routine" and following the Lord to "uncharted territories" I never expect. It's how I even got to this point I never would have thought in my "early days" starting out in "ministry".

I'm experienced by all the great men and women of God here online and my fellow peers in age group. Great works in the Lord indeed.

May God Almighty, Lord Jesus Christ guide and bless everyone on their personal journeys and walks in the Lord.

We must keep "keeping on" in life like Christ isn't coming back soon in preparation until He finally does return to gather His Sheep.

I'm not "waiting on the Lord" to return as though I've given up all "hope" and just want the "Rapture" to happen.

Perhaps Christ is waiting on US to work with Him.

Only the Father Knows when He is sending His Son back to earth but in the mean time, as the United States has a new U.S. President in President Donald J. Trump and a whole lot of global world events have transpired and going on, the future is "unpredictable" in how everything will all play out. Only God Knows all the details. NOTHING is "guaranteed". Amen.


Coming to a close now, I really hope everyone reading this and everyone in life everywhere around the world from here in the United States of America unto all seven continents and islands and land masses where human souls dwell: may everyone be guided by the Lord Jesus Christ and abide in His Spirit and His Perfect Will.

GOD has the ANSWERS. Not me and no other human-being.

Trust on Jesus Christ, start in His Word and LIVE DAILY IN OBEDIENCE TO HIS HOLY SPIRIT.

Your personal "plan" for your life will ultimately FAIL and "pale" in comparison" to the greatness of GOD'S PLAN if you potentially follow out HIS WILL over your own will. That's what I'm trying and learning to do now to the best of my God-Given ability.

I'm not perfect and I make mistakes. I'd be even more "self-righteous" and "prideful" to say I haven't "made mistakes" or been "disobedient or rebellious" towards God because I HAVE!

I've sinned against the Almighty many-a-times and regretted so but I'm not going to continue to "deny" and not act like it never happened.

I thrown down the Bible and "kicked it around" on the ground like I was kicking any regular sports ball like a soccer ball before in my anger and frustration against God. I got "fed up" with "obeying God" sometimes when I wanted to justify my "anger and desire to "get back" at people who I truly believed "did me wrong" and got mad at God as a result for being "willing to suffer for sinners' mistakes".

That said, deep down, I know I'm no "better" than anybody else out there, believer or "unbeliever" alike.

It's only CHRIST in me that's good. It's not about "personal righteousness" at all. That's such a fraud.

Only CHRIST is GOOD. Period.

I've experienced enough of "humanity" in myself and abroad to know that one biblical truth: "ONLY GOD IS GOOD".

There is NO RIGHTEOUSNESS among men without CHRIST. Period.

Sin-cursed humanity without any Judgment, Correction and Reproof from God is complete, total, debase pure evil.

Thank GOD, He sent His Son, LORD JESUS CHRIST to do the impossible.

There was no other way God could save humanity even though us mortal human-beings think "God could have done something else".

If that was the case He would of. How dare we "question God" on that matter? You think He wanted to "sacrifice His Son" if He could redeem humanity some other way? I don't think so but then again, I don't "think like God". I'm not God to know.

Even God Himself had to "pay the ultimate cost" to save humanity with that One Solution being the Sacrifice of His Dear, Only Beloved Son, Lord Jesus Christ to die for all humanity.

God had no "easy way out" and neither do we if we believe not that Jesus Christ is the Son of God.

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JESUS CHRIST is THE WAY, THE TRUTH and THE LIFE. Amen.

~ Bro. Jed

Thursday, February 16, 2017

A "Walk In The Park"... "Street-Preaching Style"

Been a while, been a while, been a while since I've "updated" this ol' "blog"...

Lots been goin' on in mi "personal life". Been busy...

Today's been an "okay" day. Had better. 'Course I gotta "own it" and take responsibility for it.

I'm here inside the library, having just come out from a brief stroll and "break" outside in Cliff Tuttle Park.

Mind's been a mess lately and I need to think things through clearly before I do stupid things and make foolish mistakes and decisions I'll regret later. It ain't "perfect" though I like to think I am. I'm "human".


Been "at odds" with God lately, I thank Him I almost had the urge to "curse Him" and "throw around" His Word like I've done previously when I was "fed up" with my personal drama going on and taking it out on Him.

Yeah, I regret it but it is what it is. I can't take it back or act like it "never happened" lol. I don't have to "share this with the whole" it could have been me and God's "lil' secret" but so what?

I don't care what anyone thinks.

By that I mean I don't allow anyone's "outside opinion" or thoughts override MY ACTIONS. I'm gonna do what I'm gonna do regardless and nobody's gonna stop me save God Himself lol.

But really, "actions" good and bad have CONSEQUENCES so for my own tall, slim, lean(gotta "buff up" someday) black behind  I gotta make the "right moves".

Smh... out there. Been quiet for a while.

My "street-preaching" ministry outdoors has been DORMAT for nearly a few weeks now.

I only got in a good few minutes witnessing the Word by the side of the road exit to the freeway a little over 3:50p.m. today. The Spirit told me to stop by the time the clock hit 4:02p.m.

Typing this at 4:27p.m.


Looking back over all the busiest and utter craziness that has got me to this point is like taking in a big *HOW THE "F" DID I GET HERE?!* surreal moment.

It's insane. Or maybe that's just me, haha.

Either way, it's been a gruesome and good experience.

'Course a lot of it I gotta blame on myself cuz I've been angry, mean and contemptuous at times towards people who got on my nerves or didn't. Just had to "vent frustration".

Overall, it's a "love-hate" relationship with people; but then it dawned on me:

I'm just a self-centered a-hole who doesn't want to be bothered with too many people's inconveniences.

Not like I don't "care" about folks but I just don't want to be bothered or "inconvenience" by some folks stupid problems and issues. I got my own to deal with! Lol

Besides... and women, oh God, don't let me go there!

Yeah, well, as a "Christian" I can't do the "heathen's ways" and all but that flesh nature is there.

I'm surprised I haven't given into LUST too greatly as I used to in my "porn-watching" days in my teens. Not a good place, but in a way it was for me for my "mental purposes" lol. I wasn't the wanking loser who just "got off" on that stuff and didn't learn a thing or two lol.

Besides I liked the videos when the men and women were actually really into it and "had fun"; you could tell they enjoyed what they were doing. And boy, did I enjoy watching them enjoy themselves. Haha!

Interesting what one can learn and discover from "curiosity". It killed the cat but it fueled my exploration and motivation lol.

Yeah, there's many pretty young women around this tall, dark 'n handsome thing could let his primitive "predatory urges" take the fore but I've made a "commitment to Christ" in being one of His Servants and trying to "represent Him" on earth: a job I do good sometimes and real bad a lot. All by HIS GRACE though; it's never me to represent Him correctly.

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I've grown a lot more "cold" and "calloused" in my "heart" towards people in general even though I still care and be "concerned" for people.

I pick and choose who I deal with a lot of the times now. I don't waste my time with people who ain't worth bothering with or I can't be a help or service to.

They could say the same about me but then again, they don't know me like *I DON'T KNOW THEM!*.

Ah, the dilemma.

Smh lol but it's really pathetic, pitiful and unflattering (at least that's what I perceive it; I see it how it is):

A lot of women I notice in the corner of my eyes as I walk about I see them in my peripheral vision as they look through their vehicles' windows at me unbeknownst to the man they're with be it boyfriend, husband, whatever, I notice and don't like it at all. They'd cheat on their man with me if I really "pushed it" and "went that way" but I know way better than to do that...

These women "eyeing" me from the distance from the safety of their fall-walled vehicles know they can't get close to me in person lol (don't want them to even) so they STEAL furtive hypergamous glances and stares at me from the distance.

It's not at all about "love", "concern" or actual "empathy" lol.

It's all primal, instinctive hypergamous sexual attraction instincts driving their behaviour it's not "looks" of "concern", "care" or "empathy". It's about sexual marketplace strategy lol.

Boy, could I tell some stories but because I respect the "anonymity" of people I won't use actual people's names unless appropriate and with their permission.


Unless they cross a public line with me in public publicly attempting to "humiliate", "criticize" and "wrong" me unfairly and without merit I won't take issue and respect other people's "rights of privacy" with me as I'm a very "private person" by nature even so I very mutually understand here

Live and let live.

Believe me (or not to your own demise), I ain't a "good person" you'd really "care about" if you knew the real EVIL ME! And I really like "evil me" cuz he's good fun at his best; even some people might like him.

If you're honest and didn't care to admit you'd probably say the same thing or something similar about yourself as if we're talking "good" in the Sight of the Lord. Lol.

I have my real "good qualities" and do empathize, care and love people genuinely even if I may "hate" them genuinely too. I don't let "hate" not cause me to still keep company, like and hang with people. Otherwise I'd just move on and leave that person or people alone and do my own thing without having that "hate" on my mind. Life's large.

I have loyalty and compassion. I have the "good along with the bad" but I'm not really the "betrayal-type" personally. I'm of the attitude "no-man-left-behind" mentality on the good side.

So... to my CONTEMPT and disgust I brush these stupid superficial "glances" to the side and see them for what they are: mere pure physical instinctive sexual attraction. Nothing more, nothing less.

Even so, I always knew deep down most women are "flaky" and can't take the heat.

It's one of those "double-edged" swords.

I expect them to "flake out" in certain situations in a "feminine manner" as accustomed to women, and if a woman doesn't "flake" and let the man "take the heat" I feel my pride dampened and disrespected. I don't allow that.

In fact I get "pissed" if a woman doesn't "flake out" and be a "victim"; cuz I don't get to "play hero" and be the "good, strong one" to "save the day" lol. Yeah right!

I want to die without pity or "remorse". Call me "cold-hearted", cruel and ruthless. I don't care. And besides, I think they got it wrong!: it ain't "cold-hearted" but *HOT-HEARTED* that burns down to the lowest hell. I already know I'm gonna die and I have to be ready for the time to come however it does and I ain't gonna be "scared" or "frightened" about it; but be about His Business 'til time's up.

I'd have some in mind if I was going to be "married" and all and follow God's Script. Yeah...

I have to be HONEST with people, cuz I'm honest foremost only with GOD and myself: I'm an ARROGANT, PRIDEFUL, HATEFUL and UNLOVABLE PERSON at heart even though I can be "lovable" at the same time in some ways. I just am lol.

I used to be "ashamed" of this fact but as the heathen say "F that!" I ain't gonna let NOBODY make me feel "bad" about ME. F that crap, shoot. I'm the one that's gotta "live with myself" and why care what someone thinks who isn't in my life? Duh? Are THEY in MY SHOES?! I don't think so!

I'm  gonna do what works for me.

Neither am I in YOUR SHOES, so what have you. I don't know your life. I don't know you, but I PRAY for you.

So, bringing this to a close, I want to change some things in my personal life and ministry of the Lord but I'm "impatient" with it. I want to "force" some things along that I think I can push.

I ain't where I what to be regardless of what anyone else thinks or feels. It's all about ME. I mean, oops, I, I, I is sorry I mean it's all about HIM! lol.

Yeah, I'll serve "God" but I gotta serve me as well. God Wins in the end anyways. I gotta watch out for "Numero Uno" I mean, God lol!

Okay, fine, whatever, I'll "reprove myself" before I give anyone else the chance to do so: to *GOD* be *HIS GLORY*. Yeah, whatever...

I haven't been "obedient to Him" cuz of my wicked PRIDE. My worst sin besides my "sin weakness" of wicked, evil thoughts and imaginations.  Yeah, people can really tell the "hatred" and "malice" they see in my wicked heart when I look them directly in the eyes in my wicked sin.

I only blink away to "save face" and avoid personal shame but even then I don't care what they think, I'll let them see my evil, devilish cold-hearted stare forever for all I care. I look away to avoid making THEM nervous and bothered; I ain't affected by my pride and wrath.

Again, I ain't gonna get all "emotional" and "cutesy" here cuz it makes me feel weak, effeminate and "silly". Find some other loser to do that stuff for you. I won't; unless I'm in the mood at it "works out" that way lol.

Sometimes if I'm in the "mood" folks see my "good, happy cheery side" but that's only if it's warranted or "earned" by them. I don't give myself fully. You have to EARN my goodness.

Call me a "bastard" I don't care. Call me every wicked "name" in the book. I don't care.

Also, another thing I got that's evil is my very, evil WICKED TONGUE I could use to inflict much personal damage and hurt on people. By His Grace I use sparingly or keep it "shut".

Whether you know it or not, I'm quite the "comedian" when I want to be. I got a lot of "good jokes".

By "good" I mean "inappropriate" and carnal the stuff that makes people really laugh whether they admit it or not. I know how to "tone it down" and "use tact" when appropriate and proper too.

In fact I had A LOT of good comedic material typed up in my computer documents I had to delete when the Lord brought me to the realization Satan was trying to use me as his Hollywood "puppet" by my desire for "acknowledgment" of achievement, power and fame in the world.

I know what's "good to say" to make folks yipper and yamper and I know what's "too far" that hits below the belt personally deep, cutting rude 'n crude to people.

It's too easy to "offend people" since most people are mostly emotional or let their "feelings" get them worked over. Not me however.

Nobody could ever tell me something at this point that would hurt me so "deeply" that I'd cringe up and die.

People who  try to use the "family and friends" angles to "get at mi feelings lol" will be rudely disappointed. That don't work on me.

I only "defend" the honour and integrity of my family and friends when people cowardly try to use them to "get to me" indirectly and "hurt me personally" in some way or fashion. They'd be sorely disappointed indeed.

You know why? I'll tell you: I may be "hurt" at the worst by somebody "talking crap" and insulting me but it doesn't bother me. ONLY a PHYSICAL ATTACK could "hurt" my person, but words and "talkin s**t" don't hurt me. I expect it. I THRIVE ON IT!

I like to insult and "belittle" people if they start stuff with me first. It's fun for me. I'd only stop if the other party is getting "weak".

In life I play "humble, quiet duck" be polite and "kind" for the most part and not "mean" when it's not warranted just to be a "jerk" and nobody at first would expect this at first unless I tell them like I am now, but if anyone dares to "try me on" and "mess with me" in public and they are strong and healthy and "look like" they can "handle this"; I only promise no "pretty sight". I fight to win but even if I "lose" I win by the DAMAGE I CREATE!Can't promise "love" or "mercy" 100% but I promise *PAIN* lol! Yeah, I promise YOUR PAIN 100%!

'Course after damage is done and all, I temporarily feel like a "a-hole" for wrecking up some dumb person taking me on who I know can't handle me and suffering the natural consequences of their stupidity and foolish decision.

I don't really get a "high" off of defeating a lower-level opponent I must beat people above my level for true self-gratification. That way I have no regrets and no restraint. I go "easy" on a lot of people cuz it'd simply be a stupid choice and utter waste of time on my part if I end up in a worthless dumb fight killing someone for nothing at the worst-case scenario.

I don't like to "think it" but I actually do and would but I have NO PROBLEM with "killing" someone. I have that "killer instinct" and I'm not ashamed of it. I'm proud of it.

As a Christian, "murder" is wrong, and even if I was a soldier in time of war, cuz I know war is coming up in the years ahead in this world with what's going on in the world. It's unavoidable unfortunately. I hate it and so many people are going to be "blindsided" so I have to do my part and "spill the beans" and way some folks up.

BLOODSHED is coming one way or another as those who know the Scriptures realize.

Lord Knows I would not have the slightest hesitation to kill off anyone I had to if given the "reason to" like if I was a solder in the U.S. military because I am personally "detached" from the effects.

Because of this, I wouldn't just "kill" anyone for "anything"; that's pretty dumb and pointless. I value life. I value human life.

No one can "test me" in the regard because I know how deep down brutal and RUTHLESS I really am when I want to: it's the AFTER-EFFECTS I'm concerned with. I don't really, ideally want to "destroy people's lives" I never would have even had anything to do with from having met them.

I don't want that on my conscience and my heart. I want to remain "pure-hearted" from shedding human blood. It's too easy to kill life. It really is.

And besides, I NEVER don't like to do something I don't ever feel "justified" in doing.

For instance, if I got in a fight with some guy I meet in day-to-day life like this group of punks I met one Wednesday night over some trivial nonsense trash-talking and I killed him in a physical fight; I'd feel "awful" I took his earthly life, especially if he was an unsaved person. It means I sent him to Hell literally, a "sin" of mine I could never really forgive myself for.

I mean, I would have no problem with "physically" taking a person's earthly life if I simply felt "justified" in doing so; it's just the actual reality KNOWLEDGE of knowing I killed an "unsaved person" who died without being saved by Christ and ending up in ETERNAL HELL as a result is the ONLY THING that would really "bother my conscience". I could get over anything else eventually over little or no time but the reality I took a life that would end up in Hell ETERNALLY is what would "haunt" me a little.

If I was in "David's shoes" when he took down Goliath with the sling shot and stone and cut his head off with a sword; I'm pretty sure I'm do some similarly with CHEER even! The only thing that would upset me is knowing this poor, lumbering, ignorant giant died unsaved with Salvation knowing Christ. That'd be the only thing to "bother my conscience" besides that I'd laugh him off as a big GIANT FOOL!

If I had the chance to kill a brutal world "dictator" out there or any "unsavory person" people hate, despise and want dead (and usually for good reason) then I'd be first in line willing to do the "killing" cuz I'm gonna feel JUSTIFIED for killing such a scumbag monster everyone else hates and wants dead anyways (whether they admit it or not; they don't have to. I know...). Might as well become the "hero" who killed off evil tyrant who made people's lives Hell and gain personal gain in the process, no? My only "first and second thoughts" would be of course if I killed an unsaved person and also the person's family and friends. I really don't want to "break the hearts" of a father and mother who had their child "killed" and taken away from them. That's an evil I take no pleasure in, really.

If I killed somebody in a serious situation it'd only be my "detached offence" that that one person dealt with me; I'm not wanting to hurt the family and friends of said person killed, but I know it's the unfortunate, no-way-around natural consequences of the actions. It ain't nothing "personal" at all coming from me of people I've never met or known but I'd expect "revenge motivations" to come from some of the family and friends of the person killed; and then I'd take it personal if they come at me trying to kill me for revenge.

In my eyes, I only dealt with someone starting mess with ME. Nothing to do with anyone else. But if folks want to "involve themselves" in my situation when I didn't do them no wrong directly to THEM then I take it personal.

I see it from their perspective I took one of their "loved ones" away as why they feel it to be "personal"; so more drama occurs until they can hopefully (for THEIR sake) kill me themselves. Not for my sake.

I don't like to hold back and take it "easy on people" when it comes to "fighting". I pardon kids and people with disabilities who can't defend themselves.

But able-bodied, strong, healthy-looking adults are fair game.

I'm good with "taking life" but I don't want to take people to Hell as a result if you get what I mean.

Ideally, obviously  of course it's not even "holy" or "pure" or "good" to "take life" cuz I'm a Christian who's supposed to be about LOVE, PEACE and all this "JOY OF THE HOLY GHOST stuff" lol Hahaha. But I could go there... I really could. I'd hate the "monster" I'd become as a result because that's not the kind of life I want but it's there. Always was and perhaps always will be...

Call it "evil" or "wicked" but I'd rather end up killing a fellow "brother" or "sister in Christ" who I know is going to Heaven than kill someone unsaved I know will end up in Hell. Sure it's a disgrace and a "dishonor" to say such a thing but it is what it is I won't "back down" from saying it. I'd "repent" feel bad but with the "knowledge of" so-and-so is in Heaven now; so I wouldn't dwell too much on it all the time.

Hey, at least I'd try to make it as "painless and quick" in my ability as possible. I don't ever get thrilled in people's suffering unless I really feel justified for good reason. Killing a fellow brother or sister in Christ I wouldn't get that; it'd have to be a quick, smooth, dispassionate kill with as less pain as possible. Perhaps "pleasure" even.

Now, ideally, truth of the matter is, as "Christians" the Lord Jesus Christ does NOT ever want any of His people to "shed blood" innocent or not in life. Jesus doesn't want Christians to "kill people" in actual physical "warfare". We wrestle not against "flesh and blood" but over "principalities, and spiritual wickedness in high places".

In this respect the proper Christian response I and other believers must take is to "humble ourselves" and we can physically defend ourselves by blocking physical hits or running away for cover but not to physically "attack back" our attackers as instincts would have us.

It is the case God wants us to "lay down own lives in perfect non-violence" so that He can be our Protector and Saviour.

Our deaths as Christians are His witnesses to those unsaved seeing His Example in the flesh to be brought to the Salvation of Jesus Christ.

I'm "okay" with someone "taking my life" cuz I know I'm going to Heaven so it doesn't personally-bother me if someone eventual kills me down the road. Just would piss me off if I'm busy doing something or interrupted lol! Just means I perhaps "F'd up God's Plan" on my life and perhaps died before my time and didn't fully accomplish His Will the Way He would of ideally liked. But I'd get over it, cuz it's not like I'd be the first on that same boat. Joining "company" lol. It just concerns me if I had ended up killing someone who "wants to live" and "fears death". I really wouldn't like to kill people with that "fearful instinct"; I have MERCY on the weak and defenseless because they are weak and defenseless; they can't fight back at someone who means them harm that can fight. They mean no harm and are no threat. I'm not that kind of pathetic "bully". In fact, I'd be first in line to "bully the bullies" that "prey" on weak targets. Not when I'm around imao...

I kind of have a "personal honor" code to these matters of life-and-death.  

Lol. I don't "fear death" folks, I fear HELL and rightfully so as any SANE THINKING HUMAN-BEING SHOULD! I simply don't want to end up in Hell when I die in my physical body.

Since Heaven and Hell exists in the "Afterlife" and a "God" exists it makes since for the reasonable, rational-thinking person to choose GOING TO HEAVEN BY FAITH ON LORD JESUS CHRIST rather than ending up in *HELL* and burning forever in tortuous, fiery wrath. You can't do NOTHIN' to "save yourself" in Hell people. It's all PAIN.

Lol. People can call me a "coward" for not wanting to end up in Hell (WITH THEM! just to "prove" their point), even though that's where I deserve to go. But in reality it's called BEING SMART you STUPID PEOPLE who think otherwise! I ain't following you poor sad suckers into the abyss. I love you enough not to wish HELL on you; I mean REAL HELL on ANYBODY. It's ETERNAL!

Can any one of our earthly, finite minds truly comprehend what "eternity" really means?! It's not "human forever" it's true "forever" that means FOREVER! NO CHANGE! NO HOPE! NOTHING YOU CAN DO TO END YOUR MISERY!

As the heathen saith, "You're F'ed!" and you really are if you end up there unfortunately.

I HATE to think and reflect over such thoughts but I make it a personal principal to live in the REALITY of life. Someone has to; at least for the "common good" of humanity.

Even the Wicked Antichrist himself condemned as he is shouldn't and wouldn't really want to "end up in the Lake of Fire".

I'm prideful as Satan (perhaps the Antichrist) himself but even I know when to "call it quits" and not to go "over my bounds" and "tempt" GOD HIMSELF.

Nobody in the Bible EVER "beat God" on ANYTHING!

Even if my own wicked heart likes to entertain the wicked thought God would "excuse" me as a precious special little snowflake, I know deep down, dust I am, am just DUST and nothing more. Who am I to "contend with God"? How could I "win against God"? lol

Only the insanity of humanity could dare think to "beat God" Creator of all... Smh.

You best believe I trusted on JESUS CHRIST the SON OF GOD for SALVATION and if anything else, if anyone reading this ends up in Hell; can be sure I'm not joining you down there.

It's already a full house down there lol. But I ain't really "laughing"; sardonic "joke" as it is. I don't "joke" about "Hell" or no; quite the contrary. I take HELL VERY SERIOUSLY more than I take HEAVEN seriously. Cuz "Hell" is all BAD NEWS!

I'll be in HEAVEN; you just make your estate Above. It's what God wants and it's really for your own skin than anything else.

Lord Jesus Christ died for us truly worthless sinners in actuality and as "prideful" as I am I must give the *GOD-MAN* His Due Credit cuz He PROVED HIS LOVE OF WHO HE IS to "worthless beings" He had nothing to prove.

All about US, not about HIM. Christ died for US; not for His Sake, but OURS.

That's the TRUE PURE GOOD HOLY SELFLESSNESS the human mind cannot even begin to fathom...

I can't understand it. I'm probably not supposed to.

How can a mortal human-being understand an "Eternal God"? It's impossible without God's Involvement to begin with.

I'll never attain or understand that here on earth; even if I become better than what I am.

I ain't going to Hell for "daddy, mommy, brother, sister" anybody, NO FAMILY OR FRIENDS. I love and will protect them to death but I ain't following anyone down to Hell. That's for sure.

You should do the same. I'll respect you more for it.

 I won't respect you if you hearing all this, go back to a life of "denial of reality" and end up in Hell for your stubborn rebellious unbelief in saying and thinking "there is no God".

Let this go in the history books: Jed Mask said, "THERE IS A GOD AND LORD JESUS CHRIST IS HIS SON!" and it is so and always was and always will be. Amen.

~ Bro. Jed 

Thursday, December 29, 2016

The Ending of Year 2016: At A CROSSROADS...

Okay, okay, okay... It's been quite a while indeed since I've posted here...

Lots have been going on in my personal life and it's quite challenging to manage things well as I should but in patience things are working out. Thank God.

First of all, I hope everyone has had a great Merry Christmas in the Lord.

I know for many folks it's a "good season" but there is also a lot of pain, sorrow and personal stress of a "bad season" for many people.

People have lost loved ones during the "holiday season". People have gotten into bitter, ugly fights and arguments with family and friends. It's reality. It happens to us all.

I thank God this Christmas was more "bland" and "dull" over being overly "contentious" and festering with "ill feelings".

Christmas was "okay" for the day it was but most importantly it's celebrated by us Christians as the Day our Lord and Saviour Jesus Christ came into this world to live with humanity and eventually save us from our sins.

Thank God Lord Jesus Christ saved us. Amen!


Also, I won't really say here what I "got" for Christmas personally but I got the "best gift" of all apart from the Salvation of Lord Jesus Christ. I thank God for it. Smh... Right on time and without even thinking it to.

It's really *AMAZING* how *GOD* works things out. Nothing like having your family and loved ones back with you. Amen.

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Also... as far as "personal ministry" in the Lord is concerned I've always been minded to remain "mindful" of "soulwinning" and witnessing the Gospel of Jesus Christ (KJV 1 Corinthians 15:1-4) to all people the Lord gives me opportunity to share.

Last Tuesday, December 26, 2016 around 10:30p.m. I was walking around the local Cliff Tuttle Park outside of the local library space and gave a "Heart For The City" Christian Spanish gospel tract to an elder Hispanic man sitting on a wooden bench at the park having his "alone moment" of contemplation.

I didn't really want to "bother him" and before I went over to hand him the gospel tract I first asked the Holy Spirit closing my eyes briefly in passing by at the wooden bench table area nearby whether or not I should go to the man or man and hand him the gospel tract. Holy Spirit said "Yes, you may" and I thank God He gave me the strength to *FOLLOW THROUGH* and just *DO IT* whether the man accepted the gospel tract or not because at least I would have "closure" knowing I followed God's Will and one more soul got a chance for some "exposure" to God knowing *JESUS CHRIST*.

After that, I eventually made my way to go into the library to post articles and website links on Google Plus+ and minister and fellowship with brethren online.

Also watched some YouTube videos online of Dragonball Z and Dragonball Super for practically the whole day while also commenting...

I fell into my own "guilty pleasure" but still failed and did not do all the work I should have been doing but God still used my failure to *HIS SUCCESS*.

Anytime now I'm watching any kind of video online on YouTube I make it a "habit of strategy" to comment  interestingly about the content of the video whether it's about the places, characters, people, things; anything that is amusing, funny, informational, knowledge-imparting and I'm learning to be an "Online Fisherman for Jesus" just like Jesus told Peter, James and John He would teach them how to be "fishers of men".

See, when I'm getting involved and *ENGAGED* in the kind of hobbies, interests and activities of commenters I view online who comment on YouTube vids such as on "anime" YouTube vids; I just be me and talk and discuss about everything I'm thinking and liking because I like manga and anime myself.

I'm no "geek" into it, but I definitely love the *ARTSTYLE* and *STORYTELLING* possibilities that manga and anime open up for creative individuals.

Before I know it, someone may reply or respond to a comment I have about something on the video and depending as I read and sense the comment I receive from the commenter I could "potentially" get a chance to witness "Jesus" to someone.

For instance, I was watching a Dragon Ball Super episode about a villain named "Zamasu" who's basically like a "god-like" individual with a very twisted, self-righteous spirit of superiority of being an "immortal being" vs. "mortal beings" as in like us "human beings".

I haven't a clue the actual full plot of the story but it's a very deep, emotional saga that deals with themes of "sin" and "mortals vs. immortals". I saw many connections and opportunities where Christianity could be introduced and referenced in dealing with the life "morality topics" and subjects being discussed like how humanity should not "play God and mess with time travel" and related topics. Real deep stuff. Amen.

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Also, also on Wednesday, December 28, 2016 I only street-preached His Word (King James Version Holy Bible [KJV]) shortly as led of the Spirit on Hillsboro Street around 9:40a.m. until I got to the end of the cross street that is Kress Street on my way walking up to the library.

I only briefly held up the Bible to a few people driving by in their cars and trucks as many already seemed to "sense" I was reminding them of their consciences that continued to "reject" the Existence of God they may know in their hearts...

Lately I really haven't been called in the Spirit of the Lord to do any "serious street-preaching" and "street evangelism" lately as God has been using the days and weeks before to minister in the hearts of the people He's been trying to reach through using my vessel.

Folks know there is a God; now it's just that they have to be led into *ACCEPTANCE* as trusting on Jesus Christ as Saviour and Lord.

It's a time of rest and patience in the Lord to convict the hearts He has revealed Himself too.

Anywhere I go now in town (as has been the case ever since I've been street-preaching here) ... Walking the streets people gaze and "look over to me" in some kind of notable "awe" like "that's the black guy who's always around holding up the bible and preaching walking around".

It's like I have some kind of "unofficial" personal "fame" in the local community which is good and bad in both respects but only for the Glory of the Lord does this matter to me personally. People need to get SAVED and *LIVE FOR GOD* and not continue to look at me as some kind of "eye-gazing spectacle" for personal amusement.

My "street-preaching" might seem like silly antics" to unbelievers and unsaved folks looking from the outside-in and even "Churchian" fellow brothers and sisters in Christ who may think my street-preaching ministry is "too extreme", "primitive" or "unbiblical". "YEAH RIGHT!" I say to all my "hidden" naysayers out there who doubt God's Work in me.

I haven't been doing this stuff for "nothin'" without seeing any results for the labour: God has been GOOD to me and shown time-and-time again changed lives and people getting SAVED as a result of me taking the risk to street-preach in sometimes "hostile environments" that people would call the "ghetto".

EVERYBODY needs *JESUS* and the "Hood" is no exception.

At first I hated it here and wanted to leave ASAP and still do want to leave as soon as the Lord Leads me to go to next destination, Lord-willing; but now I've "grown" to like and appreciate my current surroundings.

God is HERE. Amen.

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I suppose now my last piece of "news" I'll mention is that yesterday night after 7:30p.m. bible study I got "terminated" from serving as an "usher" at my local church.

I no longer serve as an "usher" at my church but I will now continue to attend church service and still be of help and service to my local church community.

The reason I was terminated by my pastor is because I refused to participate in the "Nativity Scene" Christmas play Sunday Christmas morning because I was convicted of the Holy Spirit not to be in it.

Before, I "went against" my conscious telling me I should not "go along" with the play and "went along with it".

I thought it was silly and not warranted and the Spirit said not to go with it. I say nothing personally against my pastor because he is the anointed of God as the leader of the church as he even says "Christ is the Head".

That said, I kinda just "brushed on the surface" here of what happened since it's a lot more complicated to this that it first sounds initially and more folks are involved it seems even though in my refusal not to participate in this "child's play" I didn't directly have "personal beef" with other brethren though I suspect indirectly some had some "personal beef" or "conflict" with me even though I'm not personally-involved or attached to anybody at the church as I "serve, help clean and up after service and come and go about my business afterward" and am still new to the church and to everyone that regularly attends.

So... All things being said, this is a last minute deal and I have no "hard feelings" against anyone since I already knew this could happen as "worst case scenario" and since I have my own personal ministry in the Lord I'm not "attached" to the "position" I had serving at church previously since by His Grace I'm serving the Lord all throughout my life and not just in the "church building" of the congregation.


Besides this all, 2016 has been a very harrowing and tense year for me of ups-and-downs with many failures and mistakes but nothing to super disastrous I couldn't recover from in due time by the Strong Hand of the Lord.

I've been "humbled" by the Lord in how hard life is and what it takes to survive and "push through" difficult circumstances and situations. It's been hard but not impossible.

I'm excited and weary for the New Year 2017 to come to pass but I'm very cautious and "apprehensive" about this new year.

I want 2017 to be a year of *BREAKTHROUGH* of *REVIVAL* in the *CHURCH* and also my own personal life.

2017 is the year to rise up to a new level in the Lord and contend with all the enemies of our Lord.

I think I may pose a few "New Year's Resolutions" I have in the Lord concerning the Body of Christ as well as personal goals.

May God Almighty, Lord Jesus Christ be in our hearts as we make the voyage into this New Year 2017. Amen.

~ Sincerely,

Bro. Jed  

Tuesday, December 6, 2016

*BRIGHT DAY* In the LORD!

A while back on Wednesday, November 30, 2016 I was led of the Lord to street-preach His Word (King James Version Holy Bible [KJV]) walking on up Hoffman, Hillsboro and Kress Streets...

It was a GOOD sunny day walking in the Spirit of the Lord Jesus Christ. Amen.

A lot of folks, as I upheld the Word in my hand "waved by" with their hands driving by in their vehicles as though they "get the program".

Some friendly responses despite "denials" of God.

I perceive the Lord has "revealed Himself to be True" whether many of the people He's given me the Grace to witness to accept the existence of God or not.

It was a good day back then... The library was closed and was closed the day before on Tuesday so the library could have its electrical and computer systems overhauled with updates and configurations.


That's why the main reason why I haven't been online lately; besides personal responsibilities and goals that need to be done...

Also, it's a "tedious process" but overtime, definitely thinking on how I'm gonna "overhaul" this blog and a few of my other websites and projects I hope to upload online in time.

The Lord's been doing great work in the hearts of the people here in town.

I'm "well-known" here in the sense as that black guy "preacher" who be on the streets 'round here.


My walk in the Lord has been getting much stronger now. Making it to church on time and being more prompt and attentive to the task at hand.

Many people I see in my peripheral vision who see me walking to and from church are being "convicted" in their consciences I believe to know they SHOULD BE GOING TO CHURCH instead of "doing whatever they want on Sunday" without acknowledging *GOD* as the *CENTER* of their lives; I'm talking especially for fellow believers in Christ NOT the unbelievers!

TOO MANY Christians nowadays have a very sad poor habit of "neglecting" their acknowledgment of God in their lives by NOT GOING TO CHURCH at least one day a week to fellowship amongst brethren: that needs to STOP RIGHT NOW.

It's a really bad, awful habit; I'm talking about CHRISTIANS here.

I don't expect unbelievers to "all of a sudden" go to the Church House and start worshiping and praising God like they've done it their whole lives because they don't even want to accept there is a Creator (although it's always good for newly converted believers to start going to church as soon as they trust on Jesus Christ as Saviour as soon as possible nothing stopping them).

Even so, I've had many different encounters and experiences in the Lord I have not yet shared and updated here that I would like to but GOD'S WILL BE DONE before any of that.

Love you all whoever you may be out there reading this, saint 'n sinner alike! Take care out there and remember JESUS IS LORD whether you like it or not. Amen!

~ Bro. Jed

Thursday, November 10, 2016

Thursday Excursion In The Lord Around Town In Denver Harbor...

It's been quite a long while...

Lots have happened lately these last days.

Halloween was preached against. Served and participated in my local church of "Calvary Christian Center's annual children's "Harvest Fest" event for children on the wicked, secular "Halloween Day" of the Devil...

Further beyond that even, was fasting in the days of November 6-9 as renowed Christian televangelist "Jentezen Franklin" called Christians nationwide in America to pray, fast and vote during the final election days... Good deal.

Went out and voted with my family.

And yeah, I won't lie but speak the truth: I voted *TRUMP* and NOT Mrs. Hillary Rodham Clinton.


Although my reasons why are varied and practical, long story short from what I discerned Mr. Donald J. Trump's values and beliefs are more in line with "Bible Principals" above all else.

And yeah, don't always agree or like everything he says or does but like all people he has his "warts" flaws, faults and failures like us all. He's human... like us all (just in case you are an actually human-being" cuz there be "chimeras" about lol; but that's a whole 'nother can of worms for another time).

That aside, I have nothing personally against Mrs. Hillary Rodham Clinton, the Clintons and her supporters.

I love them all as any and every Christian should love all people.

It ain't 'bout "hating people"; it's about *OBJECTIVE* DEFIANCE against evil, ungodly agendas of the Devil, Satan.

Homosexual marriage, along with abortion and other wicked ambominations are being "strong-armed" and pushed on the masses by liberal-minded elites.

As a Christian I have to be AGAINST what GOD IS AGAINST and that's my whole case here. Nothing personal at all; all about PRINCIPAL.

The "caveat" with Trump is that he's got a "Christian" Vice President in Mr. Mike Pence.

Hope the Lord Works something out there too even; so the "Trump Ticket" looks a lot more promising than the "same ol'-same ol' one would get with Mrs. Hillary Rodham Clinton & Co.; had she won the presidential election.

Either way it went, I'm practical and pragmatic, I'm not going to "fall out" and "thrown in the towel" and get all upset and in an "emotional tantrum" if Mrs. Clinton had won, but I thank God she didn't.

I already made the mistake in my youthful ignorance of voting in our current U.S. President Barack Hussein Obama the *TWO TIMES*. TWICE

I didn't want to make that same mistake this time; especially since a lot more's in stake for the nation this time around.

So after election news is over and confirmed; I'm glad the "suspense" is "at peace" and finished.

Now it's time for the Christian *CHURCH* to be doing it's job.

That's what I'm focused on going forward as I update news here on the blog.
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(P.S. Last night at "Wednesday night bible study" it was good lesson from elder brother Pastor T.J. and brethren. This time around, like I'm now getting better at doing is I "shook hands" with the MAN FIRST and not the "woman's hand" whenever I meet a "couple". In this feminized, "socially-backward" wicked society, women are walking before men and leading up front instead of following behind men. I see this too much to my personal infuriation and irritation when I see women "ruling over men". When I have opportunity as the Lord provides I fight against this wicked spiritual confusion of the Devil, Satan. So when the young woman went and offered her hand for me to shake I'm like "Nah (lol), shaking my hands "no" and when the older man offers his hand for me to shake I SHAKE HIS HAND first and not the woman's. She instinctively realizes this dominant male body language social tactic and doesn't even offer her hand to me to shake. Her husband/boyfriend gives me his "respect" in my conduct for acknowlegding his natural headship as "the man" of the relationship and I did the right thing there. Thank the Lord. Lol then Hispanic sister "M(r)s. K" I'll call her is all "touchy-feely" like she want me to "shake her hand" or get "physical with her"; but I always decline her advances. She has a man; "Mr. G." I'll call him and I'm not sure of their relationship; whether "husband/boyfriend/fiance" but all I know is their is NO "third party" with me being involved. She's got a man; anything I do would only lead to adultery, affair and "bad situations". Nah, I know better than to "entertain" those WICKED devilish thoughts! Smh... Even in the CHURCH lol... women (in relationships) coming on to me. Not good. Anyways I think she knows I know better and that I think she knows (or should) know better. So it stays at that. Love all my brethren in the local church here in town though. Amen.)

Okay now, so earlier today, this morning at around 9:20a.m. I was led of the Lord by the Spirit to go street-preaching on Hoffman Street up on my way to Lyons Avenue being led of the Holy Spirit to do as He Willed.

I'm taking my time walking slowly but surely. Seeing people coming up about to pass I stand over close enough to the curbside to the side of the sidewalk trails to hold up the Bible and "point to them" as though I'm "targeting" their approaches.

Since it's a few "sparse cars" out driving, I'm being "methodical" and analytical in my street-witnessing "going with the natural flow" of the pace of the social atmosphere and local neighborhood as I "wave hello" to people passing by in the vehicles and also local neighbours in the neighborhoods.

As I make it to Lyons Avenue I stopped by the local "Lyons Washateria" for a brief break before continuing "street-preaching" as the Lord led me to do further.

I left a "LORD JESUS CHRIST LOVES YOU!" multi-colored thin brown cardboard paper slip on the hang stand of the phone booth for someone to discover and be a witness to.

Next thing, I'm walking down the parking lot of the Washateria taking a right and holding up the Bible to people driving by on Lyons Avenue.

I'm heading in the direction of going like towards the local Fiesta grocery store.

It's fewer traffic out at the time because the train is passing across Lyons Avenue; so traffic has been diverted into different routes to bypass the train.

So after I cross over Shotwell Street, I'm kind of just "hanging around" individually witnessing to people I can make eye contact with through the glass of their vehicle windows before I eventually plan to cross over the railroad tracks on Lyons Avenue towards Lockwood Drive area by the METRO Transit Center.

I'm circling around walking in the "square of the Shotwell Street crosswalk briefly witnessing to people with the Bible pulled to the side of my body and holding the Bible up to them and pointing to them directly as a "witness".

Message is "received": some people hand wave "Yes, I get it..." some like "Okay, sure, goodbye now" as they throw up their hands in exasperation lol.

After a while, Holy Spirit says "It's enough now" and says I can stop just after the train finishes passing on by.


But before I "make my way" to "pass over" the railroad tracks an elder white man in a wheelchair turns out to be the reason why the railroad train is "stopped up" cuz he don't want to move off of the railroad tracks.

In my spirit I felt urged to walk over to the elder white man sitting in his wheelchair blocking the railroad way and incoming car traffic in the midst.

I'm like "Hey there sir... Are you okay?" He's like "Leave me the f--k alone you motherf---ker!" and he's all cursing me and I'm like "I haven't did you anything wrong. I'm sorry. SORRY... So sorry to bother you" and I said it in genuine natural voice. I didn't reply back angrily in pride like I could have did and cursed him back because I knew as a Christian it wouldn't be the "right response". And besides, I knew it wasn't really the "man himself" speaking; it was a "hateful spirit".

Thing is, this man was angry, frustrated, perhaps bitter and had hatred and wrath in his heart towards people. It's a cold world out here. I don't know the elder white man's life and how he did end up in a wheelchair if he wasn't born into the situation. Maybe he had some kind of accident, perhaps some people caused him to end up in a wheelchair. Maybe it was his own fault somehow. I don't know. That's not what really mattered to me at the time I was engaging with him. I care only for his SALVATION through *JESUS CHRIST* primarily. Amen!


Nowadays, "people" are not as "kind" as they used to be in many ways. It used to be different. Today's society is a generation of wicked, insensitive, self-centered, "cold-hearted" people. It's "everyone out for themselves" today because no one is showing compassion to their fellow man out of fear of being a target and personal survival expense. It's hard to survive and make it out here in the "real world"...

People are living homeless and a whole lot of personal, societal issues going on.

Besides that, than elder white man in the wheelchair I confronted to speak with to "feel him out" what his deal was told me "I'm here to block them motherf--kers!" talking about the train and I don't know what his problem was with the "train people" but I just got a sense in the Spirit that this elder white man was just "angry at the world", "hard-hearted", bitter, and "distrusting" of people because of the harshness of real life and wicked sinners we are.

When I actually did kindly "apologize" saying "sorry" multiple times in a "humble, meek *gentle* spirit" even though I didn't do anything wrong to the man personally I *SAW* and perceive a "relief" in his widened opened eyes that he saw that I "meant his good" and was showing sincere caring compassion towards him personally and his situation.

After apologizing I made my way to "walk on" to avoid further upsetting him as he "cursed me off".

As I kept walking I prayed unto the Lord Jesus Christ concerning this elder white man that the Lord hold not his cursing me against him or anything but that that man might trust on Him and be SAVED and be at peace in life and his fellow man. I don't know his life like I don't know many people's life but if I can't help people directly I can always *AT LEAST* PRAY for them sincerely.

I know GOD can help everyone in need. Amen.
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Today, I've gone on a "walking journey" and "scounted" out a few different local locations, areas and churches I didn't know existed or much of. It was good to have it "cleared up" so now I have a very good idea of what to expect and deal with if I make a personal "missions trip" for certain ministry purposes in said locations.

I'm just "mapping out" the exterior of what's seen in a map in my mind: a "mental picture" of how to best serve the local communities. I'm taking NOTES and PLANNING ACTIONS. Not mindlessly and ignorantly "wandering around" like I have nothing to do.

I'm gonna need a car, truck or vehicle to get around more "speedily" to certain places I would like to go. But even before that, GOD'S WILL BE DONE.

I must first and FOREMOST make sure I'm doing what GOD WANTS ME TO DO EACH AND EVERY DAY; cuz I have many plans, many ideas, but ONLY GOD'S PLANS and IDEAS will reap the RIGHT MOST BENEFIT. Must remember that.

Okay, so after walking all the way down Lyons Avenue to the point I get to Highway 59 before the road underpasses going intot the direction of Downtown Houston, I walk up to Eastex Freeway and cross on that road bridge and make my way over to "Jensen Drive" where I all the way down and make my right turn on "Collingsworth Street".

In the time I was heading in that direction I've made "contact" with a few different people in walking and driving vehicles saying "Hey" and "Yeah, I got it" if the Lord has made them familiar with Himself from "seeing me around time" since after street-preaching exploits and "wanderings".

Thing is, what really "annoyed me" today lol kind of was this older black man driving by in his silver car (circling around) asking me with the windows down and slowed down saying, "Hey, baby, you need a ride?" in some kind of ominous, strange creepy voice. Nothin' but the DEVIL, SATAN! lol Smh... I don't trust that guy. Alarms went off in my mind: he's probably some kind of "(child) predator". Wasn't getting any good vibes from off that guy...

Like, hey, he "really cared" about offering a "ride" to another "stranger black man" (me) he's never met and don't know what I could be thinking.

Luckily for him I would be a "harmless case" since I'm not out for "blood 'n mischief". I'm out to "spread the Good News" of the Gospel of Jesus Christ (KJV 1 Corinthians 15:1-4). I'm a Christian, not a heathen thug of the Hood.

That said, I'm like "No, I don't need a ride. I'm walking. God Loves you You have time to hear the Gospel of Jesus Christ?..." and before I COULD say what I WANTED TO SAY he's like "drove off". Lol Yeah, go figure...

Lord, I just pray no other human-being has falled for his "tricks" to their hurt. Cuz there's been a lot of people being aducted, held against their will in (storage) containers and all kinds of evil situations. It's sad! ;/ Like what happened to the woman chained at the (storage) container at a serial killer man's house and such situations recently being talked about on the news. It's bad out there.

It's the "cretins" that walk on "two legs" that are more likely to give you trouble than the mere "beasts of the field". It's PEOPLE, NOT ANIMALS one has to be morecautious around. A lot of evil, bad people around.

But besides that, having put him in prayer just hoping and praying no one becomes a victim of that man and that if he's already abducted someone hostage or such situation; hope the police can get a hand on him real soon. Don't know if he's already commited a human abduction crime already or the move; just hoping no one else "falls for his trap". Amen.

So, when I make it to Collingsworth Street I spend some brief time visiting the area of two local Christian churches before I walk the rest of the way down Collingsworth Street to make it back on the "big long road" of Lockwood drive.

After visiting another Christian church in the vicinity on my way back in town I climb over in-between some train trailers and cross over the railroad tracks to get back on the long stretch walking up on Lockwood Drive.

On my way forward I stop by a METRO bus stop for a quick break and see an elderly homeless white woman walking to my direction before passing through the grass field. I know her from around town. I perceive she's a longtime "local". I haven't really had a good "conversation" with her face-to-face besides a passing through "Hey, hi, or hello" and walking on.

She seems like a calm, peaceful, gentle old lady so I give her space unless led of the Lord to approach her directly. I hope she's a fellow "born again believer". An elder dear sister in the Lord Jesus Christ... If not, Lord-willing, I'd like to someday witness the Gospel to her directly, personally but only as the Lord Wills.

I would like to think she's aware of my "Christian exploits" in town by now like many people.

All glory be to the Lord. That's the point. Amen.

So after my "quick rest" it's about around 3:40p.m. and I'm on my way street-preaching His Word held up to people driving by in their vehicles as I walk up Lockwood Drive to Lyons Avenue to get on my way to the library and write this story lol.

So, so, I'm holding up the Bible to people driving by; a lot of positive "heart-convicting" reactions I see on people's emotional faces. Good sign.

Men driving in those tall trucks have the Bible held up to their faces as they drive by seeing the Bible held up with both my hands stretched out up towards their direction to make direct contact. Many see, take notice and consider... Hopefully ALL not just a "good few" of those truck-driving men take the "symbol" of the Bible symbolizing "Jesus Christ" to heart.

The Bible I hold up is JESUS. It's HIM.

Bible = JESUS.

People see "Bible" many people think "JESUS CHRIST" and it goes from there...

Okay now... So on the way back in town... ran into elder brother "J" as I've called him on Lyons Avenue...

So we're walking on down I said, "Hey, hey there elder brother J..." as he's walking up in the parking lot of "Los Jacales" a local Mexican restaurant in town.

He slowly makes his way over to me as I'm walking on along the sidewalk holding up the Bible and witnessing the Word to people approaching by driving by in their vehicles.

He drops his small clear plastic cup of water as he goes to ask me, "You got any spare change... man?" as he's all casually scratching his back with his hand.

I'm like "No, I do not. You have any extra change. I'm broke too."

Turns out I'm "on to elder brother J. since the last few times we've met. I've found out in times past that he's got a "nicotine addiction": AKA "cigarrete smoking habit".

Now I'm no "enabler" for people to go about "feeding their bad habits"; it's not the right thing to do and it's not right for the addicts themselves...

So, after telling elder brother J "No" we part ways as he goes on ahead of me walking up Lyons Avenue. I'm still street-preaching holding up the Word of the Lord off to the side of the sidewalk and stepping down on the curbsides of the road to show up the Bible to people driving by.

Later on, after I have crossed over Woolworth Street on the town block of "Vargas Food Mart" I noticed in the angle of my right-sided vision I see elder brother J. already taking a "puff" of a cigarette across the street in the parking lot of "Norma's Unisex Beauty Salon". It's confirmed again the second time: elder brother J. only want to talk to me to "get some money" out of me so he can go buy him some "cigarrettes" or whatever other stuff he wants to get.

Now I know elder brother J it seems don't really want "help" to get his life back on track but is okay with roaming the streets and feeding his nicotine habits.

I ain't sayin' nothin' "against him" cuz I love him as an elder brother in Christ and a fellow human-being as the Lord would have me do. I just simply realize now and understand that he's only out to "use me" for whatever *MONEY* he can get out of me so he can buy him some "stuff".

Other than that, he ain't gonna really talk with me or have a conversationg; just passing through if I don't just hand him some money to buy cigarrettes and/or beer.

That said, he ain't hurtin' me or "inconveniencing me" unnecessarily so I go about my business say "Hey, how you doin'?" in "small talk" and go on my way as he does the same.

Hmmm... Hopefully I meet see him at church sometime if he's still around town here in Denver Harbor.

A while back we talked, seems like he has kinfolks in Louisiana. Probably originally from Louisiana too; but can't be completely sure.

Since I don't ever really like to "pry into people's personal lives and business" I basically take what they tell me as "true" more or less and don't go any further. It ain't my business and has nothing to do with me otherwise.

I only hope and pray the best for him, and people that do "open up" a little to share their lives with me, that God Almighty, Lord Jesus Christ works in their HEARTS so that *HE* can WORK IN THEIR LIVES to accomplish *HIS WILL* for their lives.

That's all I can hope for. Amen.

~ Bro. Jed

Tuesday, October 25, 2016

Put Thy Bottle AWAY From Thee!

Earlier this morning I met an elder Hispanic man sitting at one of the green iron benches under the green gazebo at Cliff Tuttle Park outside of the library. Good man.

I'll call him "Mr. G."

He has takin' it easy, laid back, listening to some music blaring from his phone and ear buds and drinking a bottle of beer.

He's like "How you doing there, young man? I'm finna go cash my check... Get me another one of these [beers]" and laughs a big laughter.

I'm like "No... You gotta take it easy on those [pointing to his beer bottle]."

He's like, "Yeah, yeah... Well, God bless you young man..." and we "fistbumped" and I departed away from him to the library... Good to have met him.

Hopefully the Lord Jesus Christ will work in his heart to do His Will in his life. Amen.

~ Bro. Jed